Saturday, December 19, 2009
Shifted!
blog has been shifted.... See ya
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
There's no place like home..
To begin with, before i start my sleep, even before i conclude.. I can only say there's no place like home. No kiddin serious. Serious serious.. After all e new changes.. We thought it'll be slightly better.. Guess we were all wrong!
This time, there are.... How should i say.... More safe? Whereby they will nvr ever over sight safety.. They're so.... Safe that we are enforced to do as what they are told..
Cos of that.. Everyone of us, depressed.. Some (me) havin insomnia and some havin no appetite..
To side track bit.. I just had concert last week with tpo on mendelsohn's midnight summer dream.. It was great! Narrator's great.. 15 characters all by himself with lots of humour.. Lovely..
Somehow i really miss rehearsals and practice..
I miss home really much.. I miss her for her concerns.. When her msges eased my sorrows and lifted my spirit.. I really miss that..
If you're reading this.. Im really sorry.. I was a total ignorant, selfish and an ass....
You're always right.. This path what im havin is not worth fighting for.. 9 months of torture to earn more of it..
And again there's no place like home.. I miss you..
Friday, November 13, 2009
effortless
our battery is going on standby next week.. So, kinda busy with blk e preps for past few days.. Plannin events for my men wasn't easy.. Have to find supervising, safety and also conducting for it. Not easy when ppl keeps rejecting etc. 10 more months before livin back to civilisation. I guess this flat black bar really change a person.. E pride, stress lvl, ego, demands etc.. Well.... Not completely true... But there are some exceptions.. Hmmm...
Continuing on e standby.. Everyday gotta do parades.... Shan't elaborate more....
"Hai-ya!!"
E guys are having their lessons now.. On combat trainin.. E 4 of us have learnt it before so we're just spectating them.. How funny when they are learnin breakin fall and shouting to inhale more air..
I need more air now.. Thinkin back bout e gadget that i've bought.. It was freakin expensive for its value!! Really really heart breakin..
Whats more heart breakin is that no one's talkin to me....
Dont think bout that anymore....
I miss school now.. E times during history lesson and practicing at e corridor.. Boy i miss that very much..
Monday, November 02, 2009
back back and back
After so long of mia. Im back again.. Im in e office now, whereby im readin both music text and my S0P (standard ops procedures) for e coming standby.. For my role, i've lots of things to prepare and do upon activation. Pls dont activate..
Spent one month in my new camp already (while 3/4 of e peeps here went to india for evaluation). And i now how my life's gonna be for next 10 months.. ARGH! Yea.. You heard that.. Pain in e bee hive and brain.. I looked after my men, givin them bit of welfare (well not that BIT), and also handlin their stunts whenever there's chance for them.. My boss is a hokkien beng.. So almost 80% of his conversations im havin a hard time comprehend it.. And he's good at pointin pistol at us, extras extras and extras. Every greenhorn is so afraid of that word! Extras.. One word that can actually petrified few ppl.. Yea its cos of e duties that everyone tryin to siam... I've done 3 so far and im deprived of sleep everytime.. Waitin for e mail to arrive before sendin my reports.. And everytime im sleepin on e couch, with weird pose.. That doesn matter. Im not lookin forward for this week's activities.. Boss comin back.. Two duties waitin for me.. Sat bookin out cos of change of commander.
Im back to tpo! So happy that im back to music world.. E feelin of holdin e neck of e bass was so good! Holdin my new bow with excitement and pressing it against e string and pull it to make a horrible sound for a start. Ah.. With a huge vibrato to make it wavy.. Hoho... May sound crazy but i preferred this than that.. I miss school!
Been attendin gym once again.. But its on e cardio basis.... Cycling, skipping (freakin tiring) and stepping up on e machine.. And it help for running on up slope..
My phone is real quiet now....
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Heartbroken
Its been a while since my last entry.. Been through quite tough times.. Like rehearsal for commission parade.... Its a greatest moment for e future officers to commission to become newly officers. Yes.. Throwin e peek cap seems great.. But as you pick it up, you'll start to feel e weight gettin heavier and heavier..
Now im posted to unit.. Which made me upset at first. But have to be optimistic bout it, we train together wif our men and learn together. Since we enlisted together.. We'll prolly ord together.
There's duty to do.. And we must do.. Sigh
I've been e most irritating, jerk and f-up person to you.. And i've decided.. To give you up in order for your happiness.. Thats why i've been doin harsh things to irritate you.... And now you hate me..
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
once for all....
Start off.... Happy one week and 3 days belated birthday to myself.. Spent it in thailand.. Though none of e ppl knows bout it...
Im fine with it... But most suckiest thing that happened was that e tire punctured.... Had 4 displacement.. Lots of scoldin by instructors.. Sux man.. And also didn sleep for a day cos of e bloody tire.. Oh well.. Life sux but live with it...
Anyway im back for few days already and im glad its over.. Im left with less than 4 weeks to commission.. Yay.. Just had rehearsal for e ceremony presentation.. Gettin ranks but cant wear it yet.. Sad.. Haha..
Many things also happened to me... And im still lost.. For so many things regardin my future.. Oh well..
Cant say much now since i've gotta go... More to come and i hope to get out of this place.. Stressed....
Friday, July 31, 2009
So long.....
Finally im back to bloggin... Tryin out new phone to blog... Very fun but very small in terms of e many keypads... Im usin e63... Woots!!!
Been super busy wif army which didn allow me to blog much but surfin fb all around...... Im left with 6 more weeks to enjoy life as cadets with friends and before commissionin... Cant wait!! Right now im spendin last 6 hours of spore time before flyin to thailand for finale exercise... Very stressin!! But it'll be fun experiencin real missions... Hopefully wont cock up...
Been feelib down for past few weeks.. And probs are still nt solvin.... Is it really cos of egoistic?? But sometime i felt its really unfair and very horrible... I just cant wait anymore.... I just cant wait to be back to e past....
Anyway... Im still in cab... Stomach ache due to spicy food.... I must stop eatin meat!!! I've grown bigger which my clothes almost tore... Argh!! Nvr drink protein powder also grow so big!!
