Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Handling rejection of friends...
Been feeling terrible for the past few days... composition for Song writing competition have yet to be touched... Competition for PAYCO is coming and i have yet to memorised the pieces... school work... yet to be touched...
everything have yet to be started or done...
Nvm about that... im now feeling the rejection of friends now.. maybe its me or something... maybe i think too much..
My leader have appointed me as a emcee for the Kenshu camp.... i really didn want to accept... thinkin of the busy schedule that i've.. but, i remembered back then where dad used to accept anything with his fullest heart... no matter how busy he was...
Just read a book by Daisaku Ikeda Sensei... a section of handling stress, confidence... etc..
perhaps this is the only thing that i can depend on now..
Sihan's dad is hospitalised... feelin sad for him... he's home alone now.. but no fear... there's always us to entertain you..
I really hope this sansho shima will end... i really want life to be just like last time..
perhaps.. this is the only way..
Monday, November 27, 2006
Mein unspeakable Gedanken...
Feeling more and more motivated to practice.. and start doin homework early now...
This morning mom was at home.. so glad.. helped her to clean the house... ppl coming for meeting again.. monthly meeting which is..
so erm.. ya... promised zq that i'll play for his band.. and its quite torturing of transporting the dbass around places.. life is like hell i tell you.. waiting for a cab is one thing.. the other is when people kept starrin at you.. its like as if you stoled some gigantic Gems... anyway.. the first cab ride is.. horrible at first..
the driver was like abit pissed when im trying to stuff the giant piece of wood in it.. tellin me that need to invert as he need to see the mirror.. well.. tried to.. but it just couldn get in.. so i tried again and he repeat his last sentence... with a little frustration.. i was sweating like mad... nvm.. he come out of the cab and helped me..
so both of us were like.. carrying black faces... and he didn know how to get to toa payoh... tried to call zq and rest... none picked up my call.. how great..
chanted in my heart... before taking a cab i was praying that i will meet a nice driver or get a driver quick..
how lucky... that driver happens to be a member.... the flag.. and the logo... at first my thought was... well... doesn matter...
so i asked him all that .. and we chatted until we reached... not so bad...
the band is loud !! very loud.. and i tried to play with all my might in order to be loud.. but its pointless... 3 tuba and 1 string bass.. kinda pity the conductor...
teacher xu gave me 2 freakishly hard pieces for my exam... bah~ super hard....
and the etudes were finger torturing !!!
mein schlechter Finger!!
finally finished my harmony.. for the first time to complete 4 days before the submission..
lost 5 kg again... hah...
and ordered wrong food again !!! whats wrong with me ?!?!
[Je déteste ses sentiments indécis..]
Friday, November 24, 2006
Solar Eclips..
Did i ever mentioned that i like solar eclips much more than lunar? well.. why i like is because it somehow represents my heart...
like the sunny and cheerful boy... (PUI ar..).. somehow faces many.. ermm... obsticles? but what kind? somewhat matters to the heart... not physically..
anyway... my ever-first-time-performing-in-platform was over... my left hand couldn stop shivering... as usual... but i managed to play them all.. my first experience.. heard from few peeps that i've improve alot... i hope so..
Somehow.. its hard to have a few close friends... its hard for me.. maybe its just me.. ya.. its always be me..
my teacher's nick scares me to the core recently.. hoped he's just kidding... looking at his character.. im sure he's just kidding around..
composition is getting harder but more interesting.. i wanna potray my feelings into it... the initial joyfulness to sorrowfulness....
i needa improve my english... as im depending on it for my future usage...
Im actually in school com lab, almost got myself frozen by the air-conditioner.. its getting more and more cold !!... Mr Hartung have been MIA... and so as Masai... i understand how chris is feeling... its unfair.. i tell you..
my teacher is bald now !! and he's beside me.. didn dare to speak to him now..
anyway... more to come soon...
Friday, November 17, 2006
There's more than a way
Once and for all, once and for all........... once and .... for .. all..............
i completed my composition HALFWAY? and im still couldn carry on since the day when the lights in sis room fell. Now the piano is like an antique, for decorations to the house looked homely. I just walked passed a shop which sells tons of lighting, guess what, its 70% discount! i shall drag my sis all the way there !
Today's mini performance at yikai's piano accompaniment wasn't that bad afterall, in fact Mrs Phua liked the piece !! (i hope!!). I thought 30 mins is too much for us, but we took up 50 mins! Poor Wee kiat, we took up his time. Komeh!! (sorry)..
Not much for today actually, just that i couldn have my breakfast and lunch. So just had my 'brunchner' (BReakfast-lUNCH-dinNER) after lesson.
After all the talk, i think i needa improve my english~ doh!!! >.<
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
madness.....
Finally get to practice the basics for almost 3 hours... provided 15 mins of walking around.. have been practicing open strings all the way.. yea.. its boring.. but thats the way to practice bowings, and the holding position of the bow... for me...
Lim Yan's skill is madness !! he's good !!! and also Fredi... its a good concert tonight... finally forced myself not to sleep..
im just glad that the strings have improved alot.. and also the recent concert is really a bomber!!! the strings are good !!!... but volker is kinda strict... but if that what it takes to make a good orchestra.. we are ok with it... the part where the string bass always out of tune~ its not like we wanted.. its darn difficult to be in tune.. especially in low pitch.. very very hard to hear when standing near the instrument.. but im working hard on it...
the celli-basst duet piece is rather interesting... where both of us are playing same theme but in canon like.. i think it'll be a good piece to perform...
im starting to get pissed with people... who took other ppl for granted.. darn you ppl !!
just read from someone's blog, it seems that he hate homophobic ppl alot to the core.. well... if you want to be a gay.. just be it.. dont!!! and stop screwing what other ppl think!!! or even criticise their religion!! just be a fucking gay !!!
and to ppl who condemn homos.. dont be a fuckin jerk!!!.. and just let them be... its a free-for-all place.. there's no law of no homos allowed...
i personally think.. that you should appreciate what you are.. and dont change what you are... if your a boy... just be a boy or mommy's boy... a gal.. just be a gal or daddy's gal.....
Monday, November 13, 2006
oh..... great!
Oh yea~ its been long time that i've blogged... being busying myself with anime... and anime... and..... practice of course ! muahaha.. -_-.. anyway.. south park is cool~ whaha..
this semester is kinda.. tough!!!!! but its kinda interesting i must say.. composition, meaning i can get to compose music which i always wanted to do.. and history... the exam will be oral instead of writing.. but need more research.. oh man...
composition lesson is very interesting.. you can express yourself through writing music... and the tough part is.. i dont know how and what to start with... i've wrote 1 piece.. which is merely halfway done.. and.... oh !! gosh... weiliang had wrote my name in the composition competition... and i really dont know what to do... ahh! but im glad that he's using one of my composition... so must work hard on it..
student division is... making me to crack my brain very hard.. and my commitment must be high... sigh... what to do?!
history assignment have been sent out.. and i've finally done part of it.. but still have to ask our dr kan..... its hard to find resource !!..
im so sad what teacher xu told me during PS... nvm.. must work harder and harder for the basics..
it seems that homos is increasing... interesting topic...
Sunday, November 05, 2006
New sem.. New start...
Oh boy... its the reopening of school tomorrow.. just went to meet char for her arrival.. and she got for me a cool binoculars.. and a mozart tissue.. its nice.. thanks alot !
ever since the canoein incident.. i feel like kayaking in singapore more now.. hahaha... sihan.. lets kayake !! im not afraid of the waves in singapore now.. desaru is the place to train your worst nightmare.. for me perhaps.. haha.. crappy
Yup.. the shocking news to everyone.. Xue min is coming back.. the taboo of the class... i overreact when i heard about that.. actually.. i have been thinking.. its no big deal.. as long as we dont bother about her or just ignore her nonsense... she wont come and kak jiao.. or fake fainting infront of us.. or real.. or something la.. its not that im happy for her arrival.. i hated her ever since our year 1 orientation.. when she said that sentence to me.. and i know her character since then.. and about her dumb action and her ungrateful towards others and me after the incident of stayin at my house.. i hate her even more... she's an freaking dumb idiot... but.. everyone has the right to be treated as humans.. we all do mistakes.. and so.. im not gonna bother about her anymore.. or think about it... or curse her.. just study and practice !! thats what im in N*FA for !! to get my money sucked... oops.. heh
oh ya... from what i heard.. she changed her name ?!?! hmmm... interesting?
anyway.. its a new start for me.. im not gonna make the same mistakes again..
ciao dudes~ smile~ =D
Hah... boooooat...
Our hall to practice.. heh.. thats fhairil..
the pool site... and some plants..
Our room in Day 1.... hahaha... nice.
Our Balcony..
Our Toilet.. heh..
Our room in Day 3.. see the difference... mine is at the most right hand side..
Nice plantation..
Saturday, November 04, 2006
Im back !!!!
Im back... after the ferry ride back to spore... i still miss my bed... the bed at the hotel is... soft ! and springy... funny thing is... the bed broke and slant to right side.. making me feel.. sinkin.. now.. let me tell the story that happens within these 4 days..
Day 1:
anyway.. the ride to malaysia was quick than we expected !! i was enjoying my nintendo DS game and have a little chit-chat with weiping... funny guy !
We reached at the ferry terminal there.. the rest left first while the bassist and fhairil have to stay behind to wait for their lorry... interesting lorry i tell you.. its smaller than singapore's lorry you have thought of... and its unstable while driving !! its like.. a piece of metal on top of wheels !! anyway.. its small.. and they have this huge sign board in it.. so they have the hard time squeezing our instruments in it.. we wanna get a cab since we cant squeeze into the lorry... the funny thing is... THEREs NO CAR ON THE ROAD !! haha
the scenery of the plantation is pretty!! the land is super super spacious... much much more space than singapore.. you dont see much cars around... thats why waitin and takin of cab is a joke..
well what do you know... desaru is pretty... its like a condo.. but much much bigger.. of course.. we hurried dumped our instruments in the hall... totally in green... well not totally.. but you'll get what i mean.. the buffet is WOW... i ate plenty of food...
then we rehears... nth interesting.. just that the basses were invited to the front.. standing behind the conductor.. as if we were the soloist.. why? cos.... better attention ma... hahaha...
we checked into our rooms.. i shared with fhairil and sihan... wow !! the room is pretty cool... and their toilet is nice !! they have bath tub too !! WOOT !!! my first time taking a bath !! and they have all the channels from singapore !!! woooooot..
then... we ate our dinner... indoor buffet... YUM YUM.... i love their food.. just that the water tasted weird.. its like swimming pool i tell you !
we saw edward playing tennis with the rest.. and i joinned them... its been long time ever since i last played tennis..
since its the first day.. we spent our time watching tvs.. and unpackin... oh.. our rehears schedule is madness.. morning.. afternoon and night.. until 9.30.. but we have enough time to have fun..
sooo.. we went to sleep.. fhairil snores...
Day 2:...
Both sihan's and my phone alarm rang... and disturbed fhairil.. the funny thing is that mine comes after sihan's.. so its continuous ringing.. since 7am... whahaha
the breakfast is as usual... YUMMY !!!!! Fried rice.. noodles... sausage.. baked beans.. scramble eggs.. etc etc... we ate 2 times....
practice practice and practice.. as usual.. stood at the front.. but its a great place to hear for the music.. and we got improved..
lunch... WOOT... and we went to swim.. the slide is fun too !! we make lots of stunts there too..
dinner... we went to play tennis again and got ourselves sweaty..
practice... then go back to room play monopoly.. whahahahaha.. fhairil won.. =/
watched few shows and went to sleep..
fhairil snores again..
Day 3..:
This time.. sihan's phone rang.. i off mine.. took a shower and went to eat breakfast..
but this time the breakfast not so yummy le... sigh..
practice and all that..
Later sihan and i got stuck in the middle of the desaru sea.. we were canoeing halfway and was capsized while turnin and the attack of the waves..
well... im feeling little guilty... i made the jet ski capsized twice.. and i think the guy got headache saving me.. T_T
Went back to pray...
at night.. eva and rest came to our room to play monopoly..
Day 4..
Since the capsized of the canoe... i have a weird dream.. that i left my passport book at the safe while i was at the ferry.. and got stuck in malaysia.. and also.. the ferry got capsized !!! oh gosh~ oh my science..
but thanks to my dream.. i saved fhairil's butt.. hahaha.... ya.. he left his passport there... lucky i went to check..
but anyway.. im back to singapore.. home sweet home !!!!! KADAIIMA !!
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Yippy!!!!!!!!
yay!! no more exams... i mean reasses.. heh.. my room is totally not my usual room... and gd news is that mom's friend is moovin in 2 months time... still can sleep in my room longer...heh..
sis gpt herself a new laptop... yay... no more invasion of her... haa kiddin... NEC brand with input camera... so good...
and im usun her laptop typin.. standin cos she's sleepini on the table... heh.. damn difficult to type standin..
Tomorrow trip to desaru!!! yay... my first oversea in 3 years.. heh... will be back this sat...
wow... shockin.. i lost 5 kg!!!... i didn know.. perhaps is cos of 1 meal per day and the stress of reassessments.. haha..
right gtg sleep now... ciaoz...
OH!! in case didn see you...good mornin, good afternoon, good evening and good night!!
