Saturday, October 28, 2006
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHRGHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!! IM goin crazy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what the hell has my room become ?!?!?!?!?!?!
where am i gonna sleep !?!?!?!?!?!
Friday, October 27, 2006
Green Screen...
Haiz... its 3 days more to the reassessment day... im feeling petrified now... only studied 2 essays... 2 more to go... and until now i still dont know what to study for german romanticism !!! ahhhhhh.......
oh no oh no oh no.......
no one wanna study with me in library.... T~T.. perhaps this will helps me concentrating harder...
Desaru trip is coming soon.. and i have yet practice my orchestra parts... cos i dont have the score.. sigh~ so dead and doomed..
Drew carey green screen show is GREAT!!!!!!!!! its much better than whose line is it anyway... cos this time they have added animations on the spot according to what they are saying !!! its so much funnier and nicer !! cos this time we dont have to imagine the scenery of their play and plot.. this time the cast is more.. but WHERE IS RYAN ?!?!?! the tall giant !? oh boy;..
i cant stop laughin while watching.. its super hilarious.. their lameness and their quick thinking amazed me.. and of course the animations.. you guys should watch it... hahaha i cant stop laughin now.. but something that saddens me.... the connection is laggy !! took soooo long to load..
yup.. since my room is renting out... i'll be sleeping at sis's room... its much smaller than mine !! ahh... im uncomfortable in smaller room.. feel so locked up...
i guess i better rush to school to study now.. sigh
all the best...
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Haiz.. what should i say ?
Finally... get my butt down to nafa library to study... and finally studied 1st question.. weber which is..
oh !!! i found a best place to study now.. NAFA library... heh heh.. since no one goin there now.. thats good.. and since the library fine had been settled.. i can borrow books again ! heh..
oh.. just got back my results... 4 Bs, 3 Ds, a C and a F... F history.. =/
i know.. its very bad.. must work harder..
just watched Death note movie with sis... at first she very troublesome.. ask here and there for place to watch.. but its ok.. for the sake of saving time.. and thanks for her treat.
i would prefer the anime version of Death Note... much much better.. trust me.. but the move is perhaps funny in a way.. the shingami (death g0d)
just heard from mom that she's renting my room out.. NOOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!
no way !!!!!!
sigh...
Monday, October 23, 2006
No. 10
Another day just went pass... watching anime whole day.. heh heh.. randomly... im just glad that sis managed to finished her first assignment where she needed my help to do the voice recording about a counselling session.. surprisingly... i never know my voice is... that weird in a audio.. while sis saying it sounded nice.. weird..
very sadly... my charger is spoilt !!!!! and i just bought it a week back... DS charger.. sigh.. gotta buy USB instead..
watched this anime, a soccer anime.. about a trio, entering a high school and joined soccer club.. well they are the best back in elementary school.. hmm which is pri in singapore school system.. the trio, goalkeeper, best dribbler and lastly the main character (super left leg !)... the best dribbler and super left leg have this crush on a same girl and they were at times mad at each other, almost spoilt their friendship.. but then again.. they are still beest friends..
why am i so enthusiatic about anime? perhaps its their drawing.. but its their moral that im interested in.. some is much more realistic than the rest.. which is abit more on GBR?
Hari raya eve, i almost got killed in the crowd by the smokers and the insufficient of oxygen... my friends and i could barely move a steps.. and the heat almost killed us, and now the SMOKING ?!?! smoke machines.. tsk.. the 'bazaar' in paya lebar is soooo humongous !! if it weren't my friend who escorting us... we would have gotten lost and died there... but ya... luckly...
we went to his block.. a place where it links two blocks together... and there's a playground in it !!!! so interesting.. ok here's the cool part... in the past, gangfights occur there, drugs, smuggling and free show (couples having 53x there) in a corner... so there's a police partolling there... while we were still chatting our interesting story.. well for mine.. nth much.. so dont bother ask..
didn know my old sec classmates had an interesting life after O level.. heh.. its fun hanging out with them.. other than seeing them smoking.. its so uncool? but anyway.... should hang out with them more..
went to meet shaun.. but... before that.. i have to walk pass the market again inorder to take bus.. so in the end.. i got stuck and LOST !!!!! and from paya lebar i ended up at EUNOS !!! where i realised im at xue ming's house area... ok dont remind me of that incident... oops.. i just did.. ARGH !!
ya... played pool.. interesting at the ending part.. which i won ?! by luck.. but i predicted it.. gosh.. 6th sense !! heh...
anyway... finally managed to settle the LIBRARY fines !!!!!! why thank you soooooooo much after all the stood up for 2 weeks !!!!!! and i can get back my result soon tomorrow !!!!!! whahahaha... -_-..
ahhh... gotta study tomorrow... managed to read through ? and nth goes in !
anyway.. SELAMAT HARI RAYA peeps !!!!! heh heh..
why is this so ?
Sunday, October 22, 2006
Full moon sways.....
Yooooosh... finally.. i know what im gonna do during this final week of holiday..
im gonna practice hard..
im gonna cook my favourate dish again... perhaps invent some dish..
im gonna continue composing my song..
hopefully.. im able to accomplish all of them..
and also study hard for reassess.. sigh..
yup... thats all i can say now... im very impress and inspired by this anime.. "BECK"
the songs are wonderful!! it gives me some chills.... not those 'ewww' chills.. but.. WOW !! that kind... i cant put it in words.. but its terrific... i wanna play songs like that.. heh
Friday, October 20, 2006
Limitation..
There's always an limit whatever you do... and if you went overboard... things wont work out too well and might get hurt..
After what has happened... i must be very careful of whom im helping... and also.. choosing friends...
im really really pissed now.. i've been stood up again... nb...
this is the most ridiculous things i ever encounter... where the hell is your integrity?
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
oh no !!!
Its getting more and more hazy in singapore.. PSI shoot all the way up to 100+... doh!!! i haven start studying yet.. argh...
thanks to sis... dont know what she did to the com~ she have to invade my laptop... SUGEH MENDOSEK!! (so troublesome)... i wonder what the hell did she do with it.. its like.. your clothes got torn.. instead of sewing it.. you injected anesthetic in your body.. and try to remove it... it sound weird but thats what she's doin... so frustrating !! and she have to invade everytime... nvm nvm calm down.. must help her right ? its for her assignment.. oh well..
Been real bored these few days... sighz and sianz..
Sunday, October 15, 2006
What a day!
argh..... this is bad.... very bad.... such a boring day today...
Received a call from you... tellin me you'r going to bang the kok... and argh !! nvm..
its a boring day today.. intend to study at library but decided to slack at home.. watch some anime.. and getting bored of it... didn practice.. maybe little but just sit infront of laptop...
Com gone haewire after deleting some graphic drive that sis just installed... argh !! jia lat.. and she wanna use my laptop to do work.. well at least this is what i can do for her after what she have done for me...
right... its just another boring day today.. tata~
Ciao..
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Somehow... Im goin crazy.. why? many things have happened.. other than reASSessing history, i still have lots of things to settle... library.. library and library..
this is the final week and im already blacklisted in their 'diary'...
i've been waited for you but you didn appear and i dont know what and how to settled it.. but im just getting more and more frustrated..
cool down cool down...
yup.. today's crowd and the slow arrival of bus and finally the darn haze at harbour front.. is killin me... haze and history have already spoilt my plan.. plus the library to increase my burden... jia lat man..
be cool... breath more....
*GASSSSSSSSSSSP*....
*chokes !* Wah haze !!! *cough cough*... jia lat..
Truth Hurts..
It was lunch that he was asking about,
Walked while we chat,
See while we walk,
Laugh while we joke.
Ate our lunch finally,
Milo and curry puffs he ordered,
Sweets and candys for the kids.
Finally walked our way back there.
I decided to tell him the truth,
of what we saw before he did.
A wooden stick might be piercing through thou heart,
thou might feel hurt and i know,
But action speaks louder than words.
Truth hurts i suppose.
Ever since i know about it,
Im feeling regretted,
of the action i've done,
in the past days.
Now lets think about it,
From what i've read in a book,
which gives me a soul reflection,
makes me realise of my disgraceful action.
"Friendship is a relationship where,
You empathize with your friends when,
They are suffering and,
Encourage them not to lose heart.
And they, in turn, do the same for you."
Thinking about it,
its all about trust and promises isn't it? in order to keep it.
Once you break it,
you might unable to repair it.
I might being a loner again,
though friendship is true wealth.
I don't wanna upset anyone anymore,
this is final.
Friday, October 13, 2006
I stood in front of the board,
and staring blankly at it,
found tons of name at A3 size paper,
the wanted names perhaps.
I spot my name in the list,
to find myself shocked about it,
reminding myself of the times of writing stories in A4 paper,
to score some marks perhaps.
I waited for you at school, daily,
and waited until white threads grows on my head,
thinking of the favour that i've done,
this is what i deserves, perhaps?
I have been harshed and rushed by it,
a letter which is filled with black and white,
thinking of it agitated me,
this is not i wanted and expected.
I think again and again,
to recall why is it so,
and making myself feelin ARGH!,
maybe this is my life perhaps.
a JOKE...
Thursday, October 12, 2006
When life is feeling better...
Just when im feeling much better after few days of feeling down... the pain in the ass have returned... my life is just like a mountain... for a moment im feeling up, next im feeling down... life is such a joke for me... it has always been..
Met Dr Kan while eating dinner ? or lunch.. anyway its around 5.30... i asked her about my result... to my disappointment, i need to retake history... its due to the late submission of the programme notes and the irrevelant answers that i've answered during exam... Dr kan saw the change of my expression and tried to explain to me.. told me to study question 1a,1b,2a and 2b.... THATS WHAT I'VE STUDIED ALL ALONG!!!! its not as if i didn studied ?! i spent almost all my life in esplanade library just to find sources and tried to squeeze all the infor into my small little brain...
Sadly, for the 2nd question during the exam, she didn come out the question that i've been spending all the time studied... i gambled by studying Weber itself rather than German Romanticism.. i dont understand what German Romanticism is about..
Im feeling greatly sad now.. its the 2nd time that i have to reassess.. first is thanks to that.. that... you-know-who, who cant comment properly, by just writtin 2 pathetic sentence of her SWEET little comments... "intonation is bad. Definitely not Diploma standard"..
Cq was right.. im very irresponsible.. and i didn know it until he told me off.. waking my bloody idea up.. if i was more responsible, i would have handed in earlier and would have passed my history.. i dont know what to do now.. to be honest, my language is very poor.. compared to science and D&T which i've always scored straight A... i dont comprehend what i've been studying...
If wasnt for my irrespondsibleness, i would not have upset him... and im truly sorry about it.. and im very upset about it now.. i know he's pissed with me... and i cant do anything but sorry..
My motto and dreams was to "spread a little happiness" throughout the world.. but i dont know how.. i wanted to be like Yokano, Lester Torrus and Shunzo Ohno.. the musicians who can bring tears and happiness to everyone..
Now, all i can do is try hard again.. and i've known my weakpoint.. which is easily distracted.. i cant study for straight 3 hours.. i have this hyperactive syndrome... thats why people said im a big baby... how can i change about it ?! its a syndrome hello ?!
anyway... im goin to change.. not for anyone but for myself... im always alone when in need... its ok.. i'll get over with it.. try harder.. im goin to cancel all my activities.. if i have one.. to work on it...
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
American football
Finally... im as happy as ever =D... im back again !
went back to school to settle library stuff.. but unfortunately the library closed !! earlier than before.. ahh.. met samuel just to settle the library stuff.. but ya... closed.. so we went back to our campus.. and eat... rice with vege and carrot.. yum.. i love carrot.. but isn't too expensive for them to sell carrot ?!?!
oh well.. oh! saw ma sai... bringing the bass to the food stall.. yup he's playing for SLO... so much for the confusing that they gave us.. but anyway im not playing for SLO.. instead. PCO !! but.. Mr Lim.... i still remember that incident clearly.. but its all in the past.. just work hard and gain new experience in a chamber orchestra rather than in Chinese orchestra.. heh...
went back to practice.. the piece that im gonna carry on working on it.. though its OK.. but its not totally ok ... clarence's bow is so sticky ! or is it the rossein that masai bought is too sticky ? anyway... tried practice for 1 hr.. and went to com lab.. how unusually quiet in there... im the only one in there...
watched my favourite show WHOSE LINE IS IT... since the last time i ever watch in last month... i watched a episode where they didn cencore and all the out takes... there's a scene where Greg almost fought with Drew.. oh gosh... so petty... but anyway.. its just a show..
went home and watched a anime.. EYESHIELD 21... an american football anime.. very cool ! i suddenly have the urge to run.. wherever i go.. cos of this anime, i feel like running.. so cool.. its a cool anime... which is about a american football game.. this guy.. who's speed can exceed 4.2s for 40 yard run.. which is the speed of light.. perhaps he can run faster than the speed of light..
anyway.. there's more to watch !! total of 81 epi.. and i've downloaded epi 44. the epi 44 is killing me.. i cant watch it !
The fight...
Something is wrong with me.... why cant i accept critics? when i receive, i have this grudge feeling...
I might have gone into this wrong path unknowningly... the path where im not used to be.. this 'wake up' call indeed given me a soul searching.. after a whole night thinking and fighting with myself.. its cos of pride.. the face.. that i dont wanna lose... which lead me into this... it has to stop...
'Never put your selfishness into other's happiness' ---- something that i must know and learn...
yyyup... felt so much better... and it takes hell lots of pain in the 'beehive' to fight this...
i felt so bad about this... but
Sorry... and thanks....
SMILE =D
and i understand what true friends are...
Monday, October 09, 2006
Tight..
This month is very tight for me...
im very pissed..
if only i have the 'death note'
its all about me.. im in the wrong... im not blaming anyone...
its time that i shouldn run away...
Sunday, October 08, 2006
nothing at all....
Today practically done nth at all..... didn went out... and just rot at home... doin many many stuff that i wanted to do during holiday !!..
watching anime...
thats it?! hahaha thats what i did today.. didn practice.. argh... must practice..
mom not goin malaysia this month... so cant visit my cousins and relatives.. T_T..
sigh.. i dont know what to do now..
Saturday, October 07, 2006
The last of the last...
At last... the end of the mooncake festival concert... the haze almost killed us.. especially the wind players...
the audience loves the performance... and they want more... initially we are giving 3 shows... but due to haze they cancelled the last one.. but they were like... HUH?!?!?! and they asked for more encore... making us more confused and tired.... haha...
saw some other concert held at esplanade too.. interesting... dance and 4 chinese orchestra pros..
surprisingly... we will be paid for the performance... 30 each show... but sad thing is.. we will be receiving it in 2 months later... !!! interesting..
Interesting costume i tell you...
a big yay.....
sadness
Day 1....
Today is very hazy!!!!!! argh !!! .. its horrible i tell you...
Woke up by some people screaming and yelling YAM SENG in a house... in the next block !!! it sounded like from my block.. but its next block !!! how loud can that be ?!?!
decided to get up and jog at ECP.... for the first time... there's not much people there !! its very empty... and its saturday today...
run and run and run... clearing my doubts and many stuff... and i couldn see the ships at the sea !!...
saw a group of people doin baptism at sea...
carry on joggin.. and feeling terrible breathing... and the choky feeling..
decided to take a break and walk back all the way..
its a beauty at the sea right ?!!?!?! definitely without the haze.!! i cant see the ship !!
right... anyway.. tonight got 3 show again.. more to say later.. tata~
Friday, October 06, 2006
The attack of Haze....
Im feeling terrible now... its horrible...
the haze is killing my eyesight... and the smoke is choking everyone...
Heard that forest fire occured in dont-know-where...
Just sent off ba gua... felt both very envious... and more envious !!! hahaha... no la... its good to take a break somewhere. but alone... kinda scary... but anyway.. tc... Godbless..
Today's performance is so-so... somehow felt out cast... and deserted alone... anyway... im always alone...
was asked again to join back Payco... sorry.. i cant... i need to move on... staying in CO wont make me grow... musically.... but will grow BLISTER... im having blister already... since 3 years..
anyway... felt very frustrated with many things.. its just *cencored* frustrating... and sad..
i have no one to turn to..
but into the mirror..
but why ?
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
YAY !!!!!!!!!
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOYAAAAAAAAAYYYYYY!!!!!! never felt hyper before..
Today is the last day for my living-hell period... portfolios have been submitted.. yesh !! PRactical is done...
Holiday !!!! here i come !!! im gonna do lots lots of things !!!
im gonna run at ECP !!! ... bladding !!!!! gymming !!!!!!
and whats more.... practicing dbass and piano...
today's exam is a scary one... before goin in.. im feelin sad and sorry for chris... cos of hw that he didn have time to practice.. but thing is... should have done work earlier.. if you get what i mean... not being one sided.. but neutral...
Dr Goh and Eric Watson is the examiner... luckly Hartung is in Germany.. or maybe sad that he left there.. cos he should have seen it..
they said i did very good... can tell that i've been practicing alot... PHEW.... started doin scales 3 days back... and today.. outta sudden.. i forgot thats A minor scale !!!!?!?!?!?!?!?! how can this happened !?!?! im so nervous... and got excited... and worst !! i mistook Dominant of D as Diminish of D !!!!!! ahhhhh !!! blur blur ...
Sihan told me in order to get into Germany school.. must have good resume... so.. im gonna perform in platform !! to gain experience !! yay... im gonna work hard this holiday.. build up everything that i've been building on...
folks... all the best and take care..
in case i didn see you.. GOOD MORNING, GOOD AFTERNOON and GOOD NIGHT =D
ciao..
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
The final...... fantasy...
Yeah.... final.. is drawing nearer and nearer for the end of the examinations !!! im still stucked at my piano repertoire work, and completely forgot about my scales !! how fantabulous...
Im goin to work hard each day... i've mastered Haydn's piano sonata in E flat major, first movement in 2 days.... very nice to play.. the second movement is slow and expressivo... the third movement.. tried out but the timing is slight difficult...
After playing scale for d.bass... my intonation is there !!! woot... scale is good indeed but very ma fan.. still i have no choice but to play them for tomorrow !! ahhh !!
today's dental is erm... as usual... funny.. i told my orthodontist of how i put the rubber since i lost the hook that they gave me... you know the eye brow plucker ? ya.. i used that... and its my mom's... provided she dont know about it... HEHEHEHEHE... but not to worry !!! i've washed it every before and after i put.. so its 100% clean...
and so.. they laughed.. again... my life is a joke... kidding...
feeling much better... after all the 'counsultations'... hahaha... im just gonna be myself... =D
all the best everyone...
Hungarian Rhapsody no.2 ... 60%..
Chopin Scherzo no.3 - 30%...
Haydn - 70%
Bach - 90%
Beethoven - 20%..
sheesh... so many things to work on...
ahhh... finally... time to hit the gym..
Monday, October 02, 2006
Nostalgic...
Well... what can i say... history is repeating itself again..
all the best folks..
smile...
finally,.. i've got my hands on piano for 3 hours... it felt so much better, clearing my stressness, the pain.... and more pain...... and moreeeeee pain.. piano is a good medicine... though reading 'abcdefg' too much might drive you nuts.. but its still better...
