Monday, May 18, 2009
Is this truly e end?
No words can describe how devastated i am right now.. After a downfall.. And recover once again after a chance given, My emotions aren't pretty much stable as before..
Had a talk with mom two nights ago, talkin bout me and what i wanna do in e future.. Mom was pretty much worried for me after all e trainin and e depression im going under. I confessed to her bout my fucked up attitude and what i've done to become like this.. And cos of that.. My social cycle isn't gettin well and worsen my emotions.. And broked down once again to e core.. None will understand how it was like..
Im feelin very very lost now.. Im clueless for this lost, great lost that im gettin.... And i hope you'll read this.. Cos i cant put it into words to describe how desperately sorry i am and how painful to lose someone dearly.. My mind is gettin wild day by day and soon i'll become crazy.. Its a tragic of what i've become..
Cos things wont be e same ever again after losing you..
Sunday, May 17, 2009
just because of it
why is it so unfair?! Why is it hard to understand who ppl didn pick up e call when they are busy?!
Tuesday, May 05, 2009
lost.. E pain of losing you....
For e past few days i couldn sleep well.. Prolly cos of stressfulnes from e trainin and many pains in my mind.. I really couldn sleep well.. I've been feelin lost over and over again, hating myself everytime for e stupid mistakes that i've made.
I really dont know what to do and how to solve it. E more i say e more it'll ruin. What should i do? What can i do to make things right again?
When you told me to get lost.. Im really feelin lost already cos im feelin doubliy hurt inside and wanna kill myself.. Many times i tried to be calm but none of them succeed..
Everynight i dreamt bout e past and happy times. But now things changed.. Cos of my complacency and idiotic thinkin. What was i thinkin?! Its too late for me to repent now cos you've already left me.... Im going crazy....
I wan a time machine.
