Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Its just 3 more days to get this over with...
Im goin to be crazy soon... im worried sick about the reassessment... teacher xu told me im doin very fine... just need to practice with a magical word... "METRONOME" and later teacher xu named it 'MAGICALNOME'........ teacher xu came out of the school with his gf... and his gf wearing black sleeveless shirt and with funky hairstyle... doesn suit teacher's appearence... where he looked like a 'guai guai' boy... lol..
Have been chatting with my Pan-pal.. a japanese gal student where they came for the Soka University exchange.. and Wee Liang and i have to escort a group of 3 gals.. Mayumi is one of them... its wonderful to know how wonderful japanese is... their very nice, infact they are very supportive of whatever you're doin... its nice chatting with her... Cq is so jealous where he loves japanese gals.. and i can get to talked with one... =D
anyway... nth much actually.. just been practicing from early afternoon till late night... everyday... im just goin crazy soon... really hope this time can do better... if i fail again.. i dont think i may be able to promote to year 2... sigh... what an ass man...
Ma sai came back today... and im so afraid of him now... really... but just helpin him to look for hostel and all that.. whatever things i never do before must learn in order to help him...
Tomorrow is the bbq for the year 1s... and actually free for all.. just bring 10 bucks and your ok to go in... sam and sh been busying discussin about bbq... while im worryin bout exams.. how to enjoy holiday !?!?
right.. better enjoy my 'holiday' now... recently found my favourate game.. CHAOS LEGION.. kinda old.. but nice to play..
tata for now...
Sunday, May 28, 2006
The camp fire.. see how bright the light is... hahaha...
i was foolin around with the chemicla lights... so nice effects...
The kids.... coolin themselves after all the dance.. man their stamina is damn powderful !!! all of us cant catch them up..
One of their classrooms... the planet.. made by them !! but they looked so much like a Big Bird's egg!! ahaha
Fooling around with their percussion kit in their music room...
Is it just me or the toilet cubic???
A Hand-drawn world map!! Weikang might be interested... very huge!! the kids did their part by putting the dogs where they come from....
A teaching game called.. "whats my job?"..... its kinda obvious.. for us.. but ya.. the acting is by the kids also..... a demo from Jie Sheng... seems that he got potential... =X
A mind map of how they define dogs... DAMN CUTE !!!!!
eh... ya.. i was tryin to kiss the mother whale... =X
Wei Guan... doin his lion dance pose.... haha kidding.. this chubby kid just hugs around whoever he sees at night... mad... but damn cute !!!
'The Leader'... doin this pose immediately after givin his announcement to the rest of the kids.. telling them to drink milo.. cute siaz.... whats his name?? good question.. i forgot =D
Rui Xiang, my gym core teammates... a good lookin dude...
Wei Liang, the mad artist who can draw like mad.... plus singer...
A cartoon picture of me !!! live drawn by Weiliang... jeezz.... looked like a gal !
Lastly.. to end off.... Another pic of me by wei liang... looked so... erm....
Soka Kindergarden Camp
Before i start, my mind has already set, playing a musical piece doesn mean care bout intonation only or dynamics bla bla bla, its a in the 'fillling ar'... i meant feelings.... if the piece is happy, must sing it with happy style... think of an occation of happy events... thats what i've received comments and encouragements from friends who are not fully musicians, but they have the passion of music...
I've volunteered to take part in the SOKA KINDERGARDEN CAMP to look after the k1 and k2s.... the programe is goin to the science centre in the morning... to let them explore and have fun.. until 4 pm.. and return back to the Soka kindergarden centre at tampines.. near SAFRA there... how far from my house man... anyway.. i really enjoyed myself damn much there... especially with the kids.. makes me think back of myself... but sometime i do envy them studyin in a good enviroment..
i woke up at 7 plus... and i thought perhaps i could slack abit... bath slowly and eat.. who knows the stupid bus 15 also deli-daly.... basket.. then my friend called me telling me that the bus is leavin... making me damn kan chiong.. but i cant do anything other than pointin a knife at the bus driver... i cant do anything... tell me come faster i cant do anything... anyway... i ran there with half of my leg... practically hopping around there...
the kids were so excited to see us !! the STUDENT DIVISION representatives... and they were so cute !! one of the gal... ming yue, showed us her precious soft toy.... SPONGE BOB SQUARE PANTS and PATICK... whahaha... she keep huggin them... so cute... the ride was very long... 1 hr.. sit until my car-zhng almost become pancake... the principal and the teachers instruct us what to do and our SD IC, Rowena... distribute us to each section.. mine is in the water area... meant to look after the kids when they play the water area... the water area is damn fun !!! the kids love playing the balls in the display there... its like the ball from the top, sink down while being sucked by the whirlpool... and then the sprinker pushes the ball back to the top.. very nice.. the kids love that... most of the kids almost went inside the display.. and no one must climb the display.. so we have to busy carry them back.. 5 of us takin care a group of 20... piang... the kids were so energetic !! the 5 of us tricked the kids, we pulled them onto a spot.. and we spin the wheel... and when the bucket at the top gets filled... it will pour down.. and all of them got wet... they were so happy getting wet... lol...
i showed them the rocket... filled the bottle with 1/3 of water.. and pump the air into it until cannot pump.. then i shoot the plastic bottle into the air... the kids love it!!! and they keep givin me jobs and dont let me rest....... evil them !!
their time is up... the worst part is... change the clothes for the guys !! cos we guy ma.. cannot change for gals.. so the female teacher change for the gals while we change for the guys... most of the kids were well trained by their parents.. they know how to take of clothes and wear.. keep their stuff such things.. some dont... it shows how pampered their parent is.. maybe their maid always do the changing for them... cannot like that...
there's a kid... who is so blur !!! and i myself also la... i took his clean pants and underwear from his bag and put a side... then i change his clothes.. next.. i asked him where is his pants.. he said he dont know.. underwear? he dont know also... so.. we assume he didn bring !! ALAMAK !!!!! then i went to wash his underwear !!!!!!! use the hand dryer to dry his underwear !! like mad.. then.. i found a plastic bag.. with a pants and underwear.. hope its not his.... but IT IS !!!!! cos of the same brand of the underwear !! and i remembered i took out !!!! ALAMAK !!!! so blur !!!!! .... then faster change for him... and change for the rest.. GOOD TRAINING TO BE A FATHER.. whahaha... mad...
after all the lecturing to the kids.... we finally cooled down.. and..... AHHH !!! got 2 more groups !!!!!..... so the story continues.. the same for the two groups... =/... you can imagine.. how we change the clothes for the kids and underwear all that...
one of the kid damn cute..... Ethan... his name.. before taking his clothes off.. i told him.. " REACH FOR THE STARS !!! "... the he raise both his hands... so can take out.... then when puttin on clothes on him... " BE A SUPER MAN !!! a right handed one... " immediately he raise his right hand... and so does the left hand... damn cute !!!!!
oh ya.. Rowena.. she bullied the small kids !! we were changing halfway for the kids.. and she peeked in!! and took pictures of them half bottom naked !!!!!! without underwear !!!! oh my tian !!!! she ar... no comments !!!
next we had lunch... MAC DONALDS !!!!!! i ate 2 chicken burger.. and the size is damn small !!!! its like KFC mushroom burger... but its free la... nth to complain...
next we went back to the Kindergarden... the kids went for wash up... and we have a dialogue with the principal.. the principal shared with us how they teach the kids... they teach the kids... by letting them play with learning.. meanin play to learn.... last time my kindergarden is always asking you to do spelling... all such stuff... damn stress... but this is different.. the system is different too... for nursery level... the kids tend to be keepin things to themselves.. like " Mine.. my toy.... not yours... i own this toy.. " such things... so the system is like... nursery level... the classes is differenciate by names of the plants.. as a grower... then K1... the classrooms is named by Singaporean Pioneers.... Eunos... Yusof... Tan Tock Seng... this is to let the kids understand the pioneers of our country... and also.. teaching them how to share things... goin outing.. doin projects too !!!!!! its madness.... they even have computer lesson !!!! my first computer lesson is when i was sec 1 !! lol..
next is K2... named after global authors... to let them know bout authors in the outside country... all that... and also ... understand the different religion... culture.. race... and be harmony... sometime kids tends to criticise other race of what they see.. and what they smell.. without knowing what is that... and why they are doin it... something like that...
then Mrs Tay.. the principal.. told us how the teachers teach them... talking in class is allowed... cos by talkin.. they can express themselves... rather than keepin quiet in class... then the teacher dont know whether they understand or not... and cos if they cant speak well.. Plus they cant write... they cant express themselves... and if they learn to talk.. they can express themselves even though they cant write... but of course must know when to talk la.... they have outtings all the time... doin projects... doin presentation to other classes !!! wow...
she also taught us how the kids thinks... for example if the boy age of 3 kiss the gal with same age on the cheeks... doesn mean he tries to seduce her or something... is to express their feelings ma.. if they like you they will kiss you one.. just like how they kiss their parents on the cheeks... or they look at their panties... doesn mean anything also ma... 'KIDS ARE ALWAYS FULL OF CURIOUSITY....' and that is so true.. if you think the boy and the gal look at each other's underwear are very obiang... think again.. with the age of 5.. what can the boy do harmful to the gal??? ahh...... or why they react like that? is it because of the show they watched?? or the siblings??? or even the parents who are so careless that they forgot to lock their doors when.. ahem....
after have dialogue... was really envy with them... next is dinner !!!! the aunties there cook damn nice !!! they are such a great cook !!!!! and all of us have 2nd round.. serious.. its damn delicious.. rice with cabbage.... fried fish.. fried prawns.... abalones !!!!!!!
next we have camp fire !!! a fake fire... lol and the kids were all surround it... screaming when the teacher asked them whether they want to sing or dance.. when they scream.. its even louder and sharper than the china gals...
Our SD members also perform for the kids.. doin the chicken dance??? lol... gladly all the kids love it and they join us.. the kids were so smart.. knowin the fire thingy is a fake.. and the fake flame is blown by the fan inside.. they use the fan to cool down themselves.. and played with the fake flames by tangling them.. and we have to busying untangle it... =S
After ends... we went to take a look around the kindergarden.. their classrooms... before the Kindergarden owns the building.. its a place for gatherings... choirs... and i was one of the junior choirs before.. and that building is my memory... where dad brings my sis and i there and back home... the sweetness memories...
their classroom is so POWDERFUL man... air-conditioned.... got music room.. a very nice KAWAI piano.. given by our SENSEI... though all the keys is out of tune...
then we slack around at the hall... chit chatting with the principal.. and we really really really shared alot among ourselves.. the different religions... and the differences... why arguement takes place.... the total difference where many ppl cant adapt the difference...
then Jason and i went to cope the food... since no one is eating.. we ate 2 to 3 bowls... rice of chicken rice.. then vege... vegetarian meal nia..
went to bath ....... and only 1 handicap cubical is free for the 8 of us... so 1 of us went to bath first... while the rest of us havin dialogues... they were so nice.. they really wait for you to bath finish.. at first when im the first to bath... i thought they will left me behind or something... or go somewhere else.. they just sat at the door... sharing their army days....... cos of ghost or something.... and ya... of course there is no ghost.. one of us.. Choon Fei... told us about his army dog and him sleeping at the taxi road.. cos he is a RG or RP or something... with a guard dog... oh ya.. before that.. he told us that dog actually farts !! like us.. the sound and the smell is the same as us.. and when his dog farts.. he slaps its face... so funny.. but the dog didn bite him.. cos being its master for so long... ok.. then he sleeps on the road side with the dog... and when he wake up.. his dog will always look at him.. and took a sudden breath.. and Choon Fei will slap him again.. cos of the smell.. damn smelly.. so bad eh.. haha...
next is when he get this dog.. the dog is strong and not really obediant... it will tried to pull the master with him... or something... then my friend will kick him with his boot.. and the dog will whine... and then walk with him.. starrin with him.. so my friend won.. whahahaha... so funny !!
then when everyone bath finish, we went to sleep at 4... letting WeiLiang listen to the 'MR BROWN SHOW.. ZHNG MY CAR'....... both of us were laughin so loud.. cos of the hokkien language...
at 6.15... my body automatically wake up... cos we have to wake up by that time... brush our teeth... with our blur face...
wake the kids up magically when we switch on the lights.. the kids will immediately wake up!! .. and one of them will auto say morning to us.. and of course we do that to them.... helping them to fold their blankets... pack their luaggage... and change their clothes again.. same thing... very cute kids...
then they ate their breakfast.. pork porrage.. very delicious !!!! such luxury kids....
finally they went home...... oh ya !! one of the kids... WEI GUAN.. chubby chubby boy.. always hugs us whenever he sees us... he will just hug you then hug him and hug her.. whoever he sees will hug.... very cute...
after this camp... it gives me a wonderful nostalgic feelings... and change my thinkin of the results of i get... just work hard la...
Friday, May 26, 2006
Might actually given up hope...
Been practicing very hard these few days... and my left forearm is havin more and more pain... this is sickening... trying so hard to play and challengin myself to prove her wrong - what she comment was totally wrong !! and it doesn appeal to our music...
alone in the lab myself again.. at least few ppl is practicing...... lots of my classmates enjoyin themselves watching movies.. i dont have the mood.. my appetite is getting from bad to worst... from 2 meals a day to a meal... still have MOA to do... so funked up........
been trying to cool down myself yesterday by watching shows from youtube... 'hard gay'... wow.. now i know why many ppl were talking about it.. 'hard gay' this person is actually similar to 'the rock' !!! the way he speaks... his reflexes... and his kukuness !! are both similar !! just that hard gay is gay... maybe for his career.... and he's damn sick la !! always say.. ' SAY! SAY!! SAY !!!!!! VHOOOO !!!!!!!!!" .... whenever someone dont agree with him... lol... and he make a toy into his version.. damn funny.. he actually went to the director house and spam him... the director have 2 pretty daughters.. but kinda old.... and all hardgay asked was... 'you dont have any sons' ?? wah piang.. buay ta han ar!!!!... and shockin.. he's a wrestler !!! just like the rock... watchin him reminds me of the rock...
other than that... also watched a show called 'no laughin' where its a japanese game of no laughin.. and the forfeit for laughin will be wacked on the butt... using a bat.... hilarious... and hardgay was in it... teachin PE lesson of doin that thing.. gosh.. his hips muscles damn flexible man.. keep doin the pattern in out in out... sick... lol
been sleeping very late lately... to transpose the score for yikai.. for the sake of getting the 'D' score...... today have ps lesson again... with clarence... but i came first... im getting tired already.. and i almost played lots of mistakes... worst than before.. im just tired.. mentally tired.. then had a combine with clarence... this time he let me use his 5 string bass.. omg.. i love the sound !! its damn power man... but the 5 string arrangement is confusing me.. i keep lookin for the correct string to play... piano is much better...
clarence told me if he didn make it.. he might actually quit nafa.. WHAT??? just because of the biatch??? where the comments doesn makes sense?!?!.... but why?? he didn fail before for his music examination... well me too.. i always get either merit or pass for piano... and all the comments is pretty good.. very effective... but this time is a .... HELL... told him... that in life.. there's always a ups and downs... sometime we have to admit defeat for this battle.. but never give up hope for the war... trying to convince him that ma sai's skill is because of his experience.. clarence told me that ever since he met ma sai.. he is givin up... never ever compare to a ppl who played for damn long... thats what i told him... cos i myself pick up double bass for 7 months.. and i have to play a diploma standard... thats even more stress !!! and im giving my best... to be more expressive... and he keep thinking of quiting and givin up hope... this makin me more sad.. next time if he left.. CHOI CHOI... i will never want to be a outer desk... let ma sai be...
now.. after talking so much.. i myself is getting more and more tired... i have the urge of givin up too...... im worried if i left nafa... what will happen to me.. its like i will waste 1 year... and i have to leave SD... leavin all the wonderful ppl in my ITAC SD....
crapz... thinkin of that... making me wants to work even harder... but im tired now... i've many things to do... autumn_rain told me that there's a lobang for us.. string quartet.. i think i might give sihan and the rest the job... a string quartet doesn have double bass.. and what sihan told me what his brother told him is damn demoralising.. that "better dont ask the double bassist play".... oh funk it man... im sick of that.... wonder why there's no double bass in a standard string quartet...... really sick of it... but have to face the fact....
tomorrow have a kindergarden camp... SD ppl asking me to help out takin care of the kids... bring them to the science centre.. its been few years ever since my last trip there... i love science... in fact, i wanted to become a scientist before thinkin of joinin nafa....
tonight there's a NDP practice.. and my leg is still no change... not recovering yet... sat have ZALANKAI.. and boon hao wants me to find a song to play... where got time... i need to do MOA, practice doublebass... transpose score, camp, NDP, and this... sia la.. so many things to do...
Thursday, May 25, 2006
School alone...
So freaky.. im alone in the school now.. practicing for tomorrow's PS.... practiced since 3pm.... so cool!!! no one in the school.. and the time is early.. !!
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
What a ride !!!!!!!!!!
Continue from what i have blogged while in school.......
Ps lesson takes about 1 and half hour.... kinda happy with my playing... learned new songs within 2 days.. just that my right hand will always auto change from relax mode to KEK mode... to hold a bow... must be really relax.. and rest onto the bass... not using strength... sianz la... always kena scold for that... after finish the new song, teacher xu still wont forget ORCHESTRA EXCERPTs... worst... the mozart symphony piece.. dont know which no. its very hard.... fast movement, with short bowings... then teacher xu left... telling me he will be back at 6... oh great... another ps...
practice and practice... hopefully can please him after learning for 3 hours... he came back... at 6.. zhun zhun~~ then still lecture me for my right thumb... and askin me whether did i rosene my bow.. oh well.. i lost it !! and he was like "ARGH !! how could you lost !".. so we went to buy at music essential... we walked all the way !! from peace centre... and saw a cellist from SSO... though he doesn look like.. teacher xu told me he got fired in SSO... and was joking that he pisses Lynette off.. thats why... slowly walk since my leg still not recover... then reached at music essential... saw a very nice 5 string bass.. was told that that bass is slightly better than clarence... and the cost is 6k !!! wow... very nice... but 6k... and bought a very nice rosenne... went to eat dinner..... at the vegetarian shop at fortune centre.. speaking of the devil, ma sai called teacher xu.. and asked me to answer the phone... oh man....... that ma sai...... pls ar.... im sick of it man... shall not say why... HELP ME !!!!!!!!
its 7 plus.. and i supposed to go for daimokukai at soka youth centre... but have lesson.... the schubert piece is damn difficult.. think teacher xu almost pull all his hair like that.... i cant control my right hand well.. and i perspire like mad..... finally the lesson end... and gosh !!! its 9 plus !!!!! im so late..... faster went to take bus... and got lost in the end.. the bus turn in before reachin syc..... board down and change bus again.. then got another bus.. who knows i took the wrong bus again !!!!! ahh !!! im super super late..... argh !!
surprisingly.. my chingay trainer.. 'autumn_rain'...... driving... hmmmm wonder how she drive.. must be gd... thats what i thought at first... so she pick me up... with the rest of the peeps.... she was driving perfectly... then asking the person beside her for direction.. and then to look for the signs.. she slowed down while driving the highway.. askin her why she slowed down.. she explain that she is short sighted.... asking her that she's not wearing spects or contact lens?? no!!..... AHHHH !!!!!! all of us screamin in the car.. worried that she might langa something..... lol...
reached at my house area there.. askin go straight or left?? left is facing my house.. straight is facin the place... telling her if turn left, they will reach my house... lol...
ok so here we are at the ubi avenue 3, turn in.. then saw lots of car industries.. and got lost.. in the end we went out to exit.. so cos she is short sighted... she move to the right.. lookin for turn ins....... then.... she went into the other lane !!!!!! AHHHHHHH !!!!!!! lucky no car !!!!! arbo we kena crash by other car man..... lol... buay ta han ar... went into wrong lane... i wonder how would the other cars think.. they must be blurred whether are they on the right lane.. lol... finally we reached at the funeral.... chatted happily... and make new friends... teasing me of my long hair.. until now still haven cut.. no time also...
finally.. another person send me home... whahahaha... what a ride man.. its like roller coaster =P
right peeps.. its getting late.. sleep early~
The pain
The pain in my ankle is still there... i was so afraid that i couldn walk easily just like before... oh well... rest well...
Have been practicing in school for hours... long hours... despite the blister in my left index finger.. its growing bigger.. oh wait.. it doesn look like blister.. just thick skin.. =/
Teacher xu has been coaching me for days... really touched by that... but then... its givin me more and more pressure if i ever fail again... under Lynette.. =/... and worst !!! i've heard that for the reassess marks.. will be only D !!! even if you do very well.. like WHAT THE HELL??? the problem is we are still paying full price !!! since we are paying full price... its like retaking again... so the marks for the reassess is counted.. meaning if the reassess done damn well.. shall get a 'A' mark !! not D !! its not like we are paying half price or something.... bloody helll.... money suckers... tsk... correct not correct not ?? if the reassess is free or half price.. getting a 'D' if done damn well shouldn be a prob.. but wah piang !!! $200 is not small amount leh ! can buy 100 packet of chicken rice !!!!!!!!! >.<
Have been watching anime and Whose line is it anyway.. oh ya.. recently pick up listening to MR BROWN SHOW.. and his non-policital... damn funny.. he adapt the policital incident and put it into a BA CHOR MEE stall... hilarious... and also his ZHNG MY CAR show...
nth much to blog about... and oh no!! i forgot to transpose the score !! die die die die die...
so sickening....
been trying to change blogskin into more simple one... but.. cant decide which...
today will be havin 2 ps straight !! just had my ps ... and its damn stress.. all my fingers are about to break soon... later at 6 teacher xu will be coming back again.. and then go to the daimokukai... and then goin to Shilei, my chingay trainer's grandma funeral.... kinda sad... my mom's friend dad also passed away few days back...
im running out of time...
Monday, May 22, 2006
Why not??
Just had a drink of vodka mixing with 7-up..... a rasberry vodka.... with 40% alcohol in it... and take a sip... EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEYUCK !!!!!!!!! it taste totally like cough medicine!!!...
Woke up pretty late this morning... practiced piano.... i missed the feeling of playing piano... mom called me to eat Katong laksa with her... quickly took a shower and ran to meet her.. eh i mean walked... then reached at this shop..... the boss lady was wearing some sexy clothing.. i dont know what its called.. but its a sleeveless and the lower dress like a skirt... i dont know how its called... but she's old and she's wearing it.... luckly she's not fat... i looked around the pictures and saw someone like her cos of her red coloured hair... yup.. she's pretty fat in the past.. and now she slimmed down alot... mom was somehow envy that she managed to slim down.. mom tried many ways to slim down.. but her bad habit was eat then sleep.... while watching korean shows... she have tons of VCDs in her closet.... uh oh.. i just said it... but now she start to change her habit by joggin around ECP.... while i joinned her by blading... but now.. T_T... anywayz... ordered 2 laksa... $6 altogether... give her 10 bucks..... and where's the 4 buck change?? she forgotten about it.... so blur... nvm... wait until we eat finish.... meanwhile a lady was pissed that her food didn arrived... and the boss lady said that she didn ordered.. but she ordered through the waitress.. and before her food arrives... she left.... angrily... wow... what a scene.... then i called the boss.. the boss lady thought we wanna say bye bye to them.. idiot la !! she replied BYE BYE to us... and i told her bout the change.. oh sry! thats it...
went to si han's house... and watched a japanese game show in the LIBRARY !!!! where the ppl get a card.. a loser will have a card with a danger sign.. and they will have punishment.. one of the punishment was pluckin nose hair !! and he cannot scream cos they were in the library!!!!!! oh boy.. that hurt alot... one of the players was a black guy.. he damn poor thing.. he kena forfeit 3 times in a row... one of it was to get wack on the butt... USING A BASEBALL BAT !!! they called a baseball player in a library!! and wack his butt... its so hilarious !!!! the impact was huge... lol... sihan and i couldn take it... thanks to his friend to recomment this game show in youtube... next is a guy who have to eat a WASABI RoLL !!!!!!!!! omg.. and its just wasabi!!! next is to smell a smelly gas!!!!! boy.. he almost got killed by it....
then i showed him 'whose line is it anyway'..... boy i just love that show.... their improvisation was superb!!!
wanted to do MOA pair work on haydn's cello concerto.... who knows sihan left the scores in school !!!!! oh well... shall do next day.. so we went to see the skate shop.. cool!! they sell lots of blading shoes !!! i saw my favourite kind.. the small wheels and with cool shoes... thats for doin stunts... oh well.. i dont know any stunts other than falling down.. that consider a stunt ok.. =X..
went to a basketball court.. crap i forgot the name of the place. im bad with place... saw sihan's church friend playing with 3 gals... boy... the gals played quite well... cos they were in a school team... spotted a gal.. WHO IS SO SKINNY!!!! enough to break her bone if she fall down the stairs.. =X.. kidding... hope her bf feeds her well... watching everyone play bball reminds me of my trainin during sec school... where all my teammates have this fucked up attitude... they will scold you if you dont do well.. rather than encourage... how to have motivation like that?? sihan went to play with his friend.. for short while.. why??? a ball hit onto his..... chest. and he bent down.. and that pose looked as if the ball hit onto his !!!! ya.. if you know what i mean... lol... seng fu is sick !!!!! he got lots of ideas using hammer and wack.... if you know what i mean..... and nut cracker !!!! AHHHHH !!!!!!!! stop it...
went to eat... and have a GOOD chat.. sihan!! this time i will get a 'A' for my ps exam... (i seriously hoped)....... OK?? if i dont get an 'A'.. i'll....... get a 'B' or 'C' or a 'D' ........ honestly speaking.. its damn hard to get an 'A' when Lynette seah is the examiner for my reassessment again...... its hard... i shalln't pursue this matter anymore... all i can do now is to listen to my teacher and practice damn hard... 2 more weeks... before DOOM... if the examiner is other ppl.. might have hope... ARGH !!!!!!!!!!!! i hate this !!!!! this is so demoralising !! after looking at her comments !!!! its totally demoralising !!! "definately not diploma standard?" what does she know bout double bass???????????????? since the range of each tonal is wide.... you dont expect us to play a piece of all running notes !?!?!??! you will see my left hand flying !!!! the range is wide !! compared to violin!! ok ok i shall stop... chant hard and work hard and practice hard.....
played pool with ciqing again.. at this old pool hall... 'hot shot' the previous owner is gone... an indian man.. the table is in bad condition... its slanted... shih hong came.. and joinned us.. oh boy we have so much things to catch up on... before he goes into army.. chatting with him makes me happy... since he's like my brother =D... oh yeah.. shouldn miss out ci qing la.. happy?? =/... nafa peeps also fun to chat with.. many things to talk about.... MANY.... we saw 2 transexual guys.. one at 7-eleven outside and one at bus stop.. didn know they will attack in the night.. for guys.. just kidding.. shih hong and ci qing were freaked out... and keep asking me to see.. ya... really freaky.. and shih hong got this kuku idea that if one of them come and hugged me..... EWWWWWWWW....... my hair is standing now......
i was shocked that they were talking about colin and kero blog... didn know they were such hot topic.. now all my friends were telling me bout it.. and i know it for quite some time.. guess what... kero tagged onto my tagboard once... asking me... 'why do u find mIx and mY dArlinx disgustine?'... cool spelling eh... why?? cos to think about it.. it is............ ewww? well.. if they are in love.. dont have to tell the whole world.. they even have fan club and forum bout it.... isnt it a joke?? in fact it is a joke.... its like telling the whole world HEY IM A HOMO..... something like that.....surprisingly.. many ppl commented how cute they were together... boy they cant think hard isnt it??? but then it just....!!!!!! but you two looked... kinda mushy..(if i have to force myself thinkin that one of them is a gal).. have my blessings then.... i've once read a time mag bout mayor and minister.. of sharing their point of view of homo marriage... Arnold said that love is about a man and a women... and another guy.. i forgot his name... said gender doesnt count.... but.... how can they have babies?!?!?!? well.. adopting is always the answer... but..... !!!!!!!! well.. since both of them are such good looking.... its a waste man.... for the gals out there.... but since they are happy together.. they have my blessings... =/... in fact.. i hate and very afraid of gays..... why??? i have this incident once..... when before my road run in the bedok resouvire.... my friends and i went to tampines centre... all my friends went to this comics and figure shop..... while i was outside.. at the rail looking down... suddenly something is touching my butt.. well at first i thought maybe too many ppl walking then accidentally touch or something... to think about it... not many ppl were there.. and i looked back... i saw this retard looking man.. holding an umbrella... with a kuku look..... give me that psycho look!!!!!!!!!! and with a smile..... OH MY TIAN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EWWWWWWWWWWW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that faggot... seriously...
ok ok ok ok....... stop now.... ahem ahem...... tomorrow is the release of our exam result..... i failed one module already... and pls dont fail anymore.. but if i fail they will send us letter of reassessment... hopefully got an A on any module.... HOPEFULLY !!!!!!!
now... since i have to reassess the PS... why not?? this time i will play a nicer piece... with better skill now!!....
Sunday, May 21, 2006
The ITCHY!!!!!!!!
Oh my tian!!!!! my leg is so itchy now !!!!! after bandage my right ankle for 3 days, finally taken off.. and worst..... the itch has arrive!! it cant scratch since will have scratch mark later, so im practically touching, rubbing lightly on my ankle.. but whenever i touches it, the itch gets more and more.. and the more itchy, the more must rub my leg !!!!! aargh !!!!!! this is irritating de neh!!! and now... my right ankle looks as if millions of mosquitoes sucked my blood on my ankle... oh my...
went to school to practice scales and long notes... teacher xu was half an hour late.. camped myself in the com lab, and saw Rene and her 2 cousins (i think), boys, playing the gem fighters.... she was teaching them the controls of the game and telling them how to fight each other... the boys were very cute... when rene left to take her books... the younger one lost to the elder brother... and he didn start the game.. so left with the elder one fighting against the computer.. and was trashed horribly.. the younger brother keeps telling the elder to kick this and that... very cute and innocent...
teacher xu taught me a piece by Marcello... 2 movements.. the first movement is very expressivo... lots of technique is needed and as well as feelling ar~... teacher xu is getting more and more strict.... in order to make me learn faster... thanks to my right hand.. which get tensed as always... but now whenever he says "what is your right hand doin?" i'll be started... knowing that he will get angry... think so ba... just worried that he will get angry for the first time in my lesson.. he's a very patient teacher.. he never scolds... but that gives me even more stress... my previous piano teacher always scolds me.. and im used to it.. telling me how bad my sight readin was.. cos she's always talking to me whenever im playing the piano.. eventually have to concentrate on both things.. thanks to her i can talk and play piano at the same time.. WOOHOO !!!
Before he left.. he told me to get the 2 movements ready within 2 days..... i thought he was joking !!!!!! but he isnt... gosh... so that make me practice for the next 3 hour.... until my hand very SUAN de neh !! si han came.. surprisingly... lol.. thought he's havin his SYO and church.. he told me bout his bro tellin them bout lynette seah.. funny man... shhhh... before i get sued~ =S... teacher xu also told me something...... SHHHHHH......
its Sihui's bday today... she didn invite me.. or she didn want.. cos she dont have my no,. but Heng yee was asking me few days back... and i told her i cant cos of my NDP.. but now since my leg is PAI KA.... i was thinking of goin.. Hoe guan.. that kuku helped me asked sihui.. and in the end she didn invite me.. oh well.. dont give a shit bout such stuff... anyway didn wan to see broadrick ppl again.... its like being in a different enviroment.. would prefer NAFA compared to brd.. but shalln miss out the SISTAS.... but they are busy.. and im not close with them... thats sad... aiya... im always alone.. lol.. laptop is my life now.. thank goodness..
so.. called ci qing out... since he called me too... we walked around parkway.... heard that his grandpa (maternal side) passed away yesterday... very sry to hear that.. and his mom is away to jap with his bro.. so that left him together with his dad.... he told me he have to wash clothes and do housework.. whahaha !!!!! now got another guy doin house work!! whaha... =X..
played pool with him.. didn have mood to play since familar faces was seen in the pool hall.. plus my loose pants which will drop anytime without pulling down the zip.... and making me difficult to aim... cos if i bend down.. ppl will see my smiley face underwear.. im kidding... in the end won him.. but thanks anyway to kill time where i need to transpose the piano parts to 1 semitone key lower... and the pages were like 15 !!!!!!!!!! all need to be done in Sibelius.... crapz......
better do sibelius now..... tata~ so heng i have the prog.. =D
Saturday, May 20, 2006
DOH!!!!!! >.<
i wanna roller skates !!!!! ahhh !!! so sad cant join chris and weikang for cycling at ubin!! T_T
right.... my leg is somehow getting better already... shocked to realised that i can walk normally but still there's pain... was late for PS today.. 1 hr late !!! felt so sorry for teacher xu... woke up around 9, and find myself couldn walk !! applied the cream, massage my leg..
didn do much.. just did some basic stuff.. since what Lynette commented for my playing.. can use that as a critic criticism... practiced long bowing... scale... mainly did both of them... tomorrow will have a test by teacher xu.. how nice of him givin me extra lesson...
things would be different if im majoring in piano.. this is the first time that i ever received a comment on my playing... compared to what i've gotten for my piano exams... zZzz... what is done is done.. unless i change major.. that will decide me when my reassessment result comes out...
didn do much today... other than busying watching anime... all the anime which i've watch before.. or some didn.. cos one of it is a totally gay anime.. GOSH..... i hate gays.. in fact im a anti-gay person.... did housework since mom went to jog, cooked my dinner.. fish with vegetarian duck meat... then with kimchi.. cooked rice too..... then hang clothes from washing machine.... since sis never does the housework... not say never.. seldom!... i guessed that next time i will be a house husband and taking care of the kids.. if i have one... my dreams when i was young was to have 5 or more kids.. weird dreams... then a pet dog, small one will do, but must be fierce to burglar... and of course GARANG GOONI!!! with swimming pool, car... a family car where i can bring lots of ppl out... a garden with water sprinkler... a grand piano, 3 storey bungalow .....
ok thats enough.. i dont know whether will that happen.....
oh great!! my leg is getting better by tomorrow!! i hope.. so can go blading again.. WHAHAHAHAHA... this time i wont speed and fall again..
felt so sry for pangsehing chris and weikang for the cycling trip.. must make up to them one day... come to east coast to blade?? lol...
received a email from dr kan, telling me and sihan that both of us have to do a pair MOA work.. since our late submission of our MOA group work which pulls down our marks....... argh,..... irritated...... but happy thing is HAYDN CELLO CONCERTO IN C !!!! my favourite....
shall carry on with the anime marathon now...... tata peeps.. happy holiday.. this time i wont be angry.... with the marks.. i shall work harder... after what teacher xu told me.... must work hard.. AJA AJA FIGHTING !!!!!
Friday, May 19, 2006
Pissifying........
What the heck... just saw the comments what Lynette Seah wrote for my exam... and this is outrageous !!!!!!!!! i agreed with my teacher that what she wrote is totally BULLSHIT !!!!!!!! the comments that she wrote is not detailed enough.... " v. bad intonation, tone and rhythm." what the fuck??? is that the way to write comments??? its worst than our concert review !!!!! and she also includes "certainly not diploma standard" WHAT THE FUCK??? that piece that im playin is totally difficult for a 5 month double bass learner like me !!!!!!!!! this is totally bullshit...... and worst... she is still the examiner for my reassessment.... i will not tolerate this nonsense.... we paid like 10 times the amount of school fees than the poly student.. and what i have is rubbish !!!
what i know that teacher xu and Lynette Seah's relationship are not close, but she shouldn judge us cos we are teacher xu's student!!! this is prejudice... so unfair !!!
other than that... sam still haven return the book that he owes the school library.. and the book he using was from my card and now the book is with Lee Tung, worst !! she's in hong kong !!... NAFA sent a letter to me.. tellin me if i dont return, i will not get my cert... what the hell... the most i'll pay for the books since they are such a money sucker !!!
"quit NAFA" - this thought came into my mind... i really cant take this.... but for the sake of mom and sis, who kept telling me dont ever quit things that are doin halfway... i dont know... perhaps my sec school friends were right in the first place... but they dont know what music really meant.. some of them only know music is techno... rubbish... what came to their mind when talk about music is pop songs, techno and rock.... where's the classical? they find it boring... they dont really understands them...
im just dont know what to do... teacher xu kept apologisin to me that this thing happen.... i dont blame him... what im angry and worried was bout money issue... 2k per sem wasn't a small amount...
i felt like crying.. but whats the point of crying? things wont change even if i cry...
"Namyo ho renge kyo".....
Mom helped me bandage my right ankle... telling me how careless i was... and she told me not to go NDP until my leg gets better.. i felt horrible... i love joining NDP, doin outdoor activities... told mom that i went to school today, she scold me for not bandagin my leg before goin out, also asked what im doin there for... didn dare to tell her the truth.. instead telling her me practicing in school...
went to buy food for family, since sis is SO busy with her work... keep delaying time... by the time she goin to buy the food, it will be breakfast time... saw Boon Bing and Gang in the coffee shop, playing some games.. where they give clues to the other of an item and they have to guess what item is it... quite cool game, but the item they gave was simply simple... Melvin talked about Beethoven since im studying music, and tellin me that my hair resembles beethoven? guess he didn see beethoven be4.... Boon Bing asked me a question.. " Why Beethoven doesn use his finger (4th finger on the left hand) to play the piano?" obviously i dont know the answer, Dr Kan didn mention bout that... and his answer is FANTASTIC... " Cos its my finger ma" ... -_- RIGHT....... thanks alot.. for letting me feel very COLD out of a sudden in a hot atmosphere... and have this feeling that he somehow mockin me... oh well... thats BRD...
im pissed, horrified... worried.. and undecisive... what to do now ??
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Fall and rise again...
Just came back from blading... and today only blade for 1hr.. why? i fell while blading.. and i hurt my foot... lol... i was coming down from the slide... and my right leg hooked onto the floor or something. i tried to recover, only find myself fall and roll over... my leg didn bleed that bad.. but im worried for my right ankle.. at that moment i thought i broke my ankle.. and i tried to move my leg.. fortunately my foot is still ok.. whaha... so now im resting on my bed, saw a mail by Terence from NAFA staff, tellin me to resubmit our MOA group work, i felt bad for fhairil cos he did all the work. For me, i didn do much, only know how to worry here and there.. its pointlesss to worry even though you didn do anything.. now i must buck up with all the work. im gonna help the peeps... and shockin news.. i need to reassess my principal study !!!!i hope i didn see wrong.. sigh.. my heart drop at that moment... feeling pissed and fucked up with life... teacher xu just called me, asking how it happen. and i didn know... he told me i did very well and he's pretty shocked to hear the news,.. now im waiting for his call while he call mrs santos.. sigh.. now.... its time to rise after fall... never give up...
yesterday plained to roller blade at night.. but hong ge called me last min to tell me he's givin me a pair of tickets to the ship show or something.. something like titanic... so nice of him... at first i couldn find someone to go with me... lucky sam was online and i was reminding him to return the library books, if not i cant get my cert... luckly he went.. but he's late for 10 mins and the show already started... the show somehow quite disturbin when the ship exploded and the high tide... and the rescue thingy is exciting... as for the last part... its kinda sad and that scene is adapted from ARMAGEDON.. or something...
my foot hurts now... but have to forced myself to school later to practice... ARGH !!!!!!! >.<
thanks to sis that she went down to buy food for me... im feeling so pathetic now... lol.. right... back to anime show again....
i felt sry for yi kai to trouble him again...
mom saw my injuries... and she stood there starrin at me... with a shockin look on her face... tolf her how lucky i was bout the blade thingy, mom immediately told me off that its not a jokin matter.... lol... cute mom... and gave me the oil and asked me to apply myself T_T... since her skin got bit rashes...
shocked to hear that clarence also failed his ps !!!! its quite serious,. both of bassist failed this time... what clarence told me shocked me, and made me realised that i've so much things to do.. ever since Ma sai came (comin) to NAFA, we've no fight with him... well of course since he've been playin dbass for 7-8 years !!! clarence.. dont give up.... dont ever said that your not ready for school.. if you say something like that.. then its no point for me to go school too since im totally idiot bout music... but remember this, it takes hardwork to be successful.. just like ROCK LEE in naruto, a genius of hardwork.. since he doesn have talent, but his hardwork will definately win talented shinobi... oh well.. too much anime...
didn went for Daimokukai for the SMU students... Wen Shen wants me to lead the chanting, and i told him i injured my ankle... he called me immediately, asking what happen.. and he also shocked to hear how i fell... if wasn't the blade, my ankle would have gone... T~T
im feeling so buay song now !! Mrs santos is on holiday !!!! tmd... teacher xu cant reach her to ask the reason for our failure... and they didn even tell us what went wrong..... shit... all i can say that they are money sucker.... the reassessment fee already cost a bomb !!!! for goodness sakes........
now think about it, when teacher xu told me about lynette seah... i felt pissed again... nafa should have invited an examiner with more instrumental knowledge... ok.. not to say she doesn have musical knowledge, just that how can a violnist know much bout dbass?? its also the same where i dont know anything about violin... only their open strings is in different direction compared to dbass... so to the person named 'thestrad1713'........ dont think you know everything... you have to see for yourself.. christoven was pissed with her too.... he practiced so hard for the third movement and what she do?? dont wanna say much.. Nafa souldn get ppl who have a high post... get someone with more bettter instrumental knowledge... not to say that im insulting or something... students coming to nafa is to study and get their cert... and not to do something which is not meaningful...
mom and sis just helped me apply oil and cream, ice and lastly bandage on my right ankle... all i did was yelling around... cos it hurts... and ticklish... at the same time felt the numb... mom said that my leg almost turn black.. ORH CHEH..... and now my right ankle looked twice the size than my left..... T~T
right... teacher xu just msn me..... he tried to encourage me.... and he knows im feelin down.. actually... im feelin down cos admin staff.... was it that they must inform our ps teacher bout the exam requirements or we must inform them ??? i dont know... the system is cocked up... teacher xu felt apologetic for my failure...... but he told me that i did very well.. only the system..... sigh..... im irritated now..... no no ... musnt be.... must chant more daimoku..... do well....
mom banned me from bladdin until my leg recover..... AHHHHHH!!!! no!!! i wanna blade.... i love blading now..... its very fun... T_T
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Jellyfish !!! a huge one at Bedok Jetty while roller blading! ok im being mountain turtle.. but i never ever seen one before other than TV !! its huge.. and im standing on the fishin port...
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
muauahahahahha..... my precious =D
My beloved
Oh my!!!! just had my precious pair of roller blading !!!!!! im so in love with it now.. my mother is mad man... when i told her that that blade is the latest, she quickly asked the lady there for my shoe size, without checkin the price !!.. and guess what... the price is 500+..!! oh my.. i told mom i should get another one.. maybe cheaper and better... but mom said that this look cool and nice... and forced me to try out.. the lady was smiling when im jokin with mom... i forced my foot inside the blade, and tried all my might.. and finally it enters... and blade around the place.. oh my !! the wheels were so smooth and slient !! not a single sound from it... the blade without its brakes... its a free style type... and do lots of pattern.. thats what the lady told me..
went to see another one... and found a same brand but different model... cheaper one.. i tried to force my leg in.. and this time my leg pain like hell man !! mom told me that the front were sharp pointed.. no wonder cant fit in la...
finally bought it.... shiok man !!! went to skate around ECp for 3 rounds !!!! from my house to bedok jetty... then come back to the other way and return to bedok jetty and finally home... sweat myself alot and alot.... must blade again tomorrow morning !! heh heh.. anyone wanna join me??? guess no one interested..
this morning woke up late again... mom made pan cakes for us... yummy!! with butter and honey... somehow my appetite is losing again... dont know why..... Mr Yew called me. and asked me to go back to help out... and he's not in singapore... and i realised that when i reached at his shop... so DUI~... the worker were there... and they dont need my help since Mr Yew requiested my to help them out... i practically sweep the whole place.... and man they are filled with dust and rubbish.... and i think im gonna sweep the whole place when its ready.... piang... so i spent there around 1 hr.. and sneak away when its 2 pm exactly... oh man... im such a GOOD worker... lol.... went to play virtual tennis 3 at dolby ghord again... this time i was pissed with 3 bastards..... or 3 brats..... the first one lost to me..... then the 2nd one came.... the 2nd brat played the same style as me..... he can predict where i go and where i will hit..... basket... im like challenging with myself... well lost to him.. cos i used a guy with a hit hitter... what pisses me off when that guy have no sense of originallity....... he used the same character as me immediately... and that.. i was very furious.. i almost threw the whole machine at them... serious... luckly i forced myself, thinking that its just a game.. and nth comes good if i started there...
hurriedly left to school... walked around and saw weikang playing baby grand piano and few access course ppl listening.... and i went to parkway to buy the blades.....
well.. thats about it for today.. nth much to say but only for the arcade part.... thats why i didn like arcade that much.. but i only wanted to play my favourite game T_T...
Monday, May 15, 2006
Happy MOther's day !! XD
Before i begin.. HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY !! XD...... mother is the greatest in the world..... and of course father too.... let me tell you a story... a true story !! of how great mother's love is...
there was this incident... dont know which country was it..... a baby? or a sall kid... was crawing onto the road side...... then a lorry.. almost ran over it... and his mother..... saw it with horror, quickly ran and pull up the lorry !!!! can you believe it?? it is true... it came on the news... the power of mother's love is so great that she actually turn impossible into possible.... imagine a normal lady... without any training.... manage to lift up a lorry... seriously... i was touched when i heard the story......
Right lets get back.... mom called me up at 6.30... cos i am attending a Soka member training course.... to learn more about Buddish teaching.... in order words... attending a study.. i was lazy to wake up.. and drag until 7... then mom suddenly yelled..... i hurriedly jump off my bed and off to eat breakfast.... rice with yellow beans... my favourite...
went to meet Kevin... not Kevin Seah.. he drove me to jurong.... along the way we talked bout snooker.... Kevin went to study in Scotland... and everyday he went to play snooker with his friends... guess what.... the price for the snooker per hour is S$2+ !!! wow !!! so much cheaper than singapore..... Hump! singapore.... sigh... talk about money.... sis just told me bout the election... shalln't say more.. if not i'll get sued.... =S...
the hall was filled with adults.... and few youths attended..... CHang boon wore stylish clothings.... with cap.... if he wear a chain.. he'll looked like a american black punk.. =X... like 50 cent..
the talked was bout Gosho study..... teachings of the buddhahood.... if ya interested can ask me more..... mom just taught me...
then a lady shared her testimonial....... it goes like this.... before she start took up faith in Soka Association 26 years back.... she just gave birth to her 2nd daughter...... after 8 months..... her daughter fell sick.... and her fever goes on for 3 weeks..... for a 8 month baby is quite serious. so she went to see a doc in GH.... the doc told her its nth serious.... at first.... then a week passed by., she went back again.. the doc told her its serious..... hmmm weird.... nvm... and told her that her daughter needs to be hospitalised and further more examine.. they called her back... told her a bad news.... that their daughter suffered from a sickness... something like a blood cancer... its not Leukemia.. unlike someone who told us in NAFA... oops....
its something like histori-something... its a rare cancer and their daughter is the 3rd to suffer from it.... a baby !! for goodness... and the doc said that there's no cure for it.... and the baby will live on for 6 more months.... shortest is 2 months.. the 2 previous patient died after 2 months after confirmed the cancer..
the mother, was in horror... and was desperate for a cure.... she went to temple... taoist and seek for advice... cos the doc told her that they need to open her baby's stomach to confirm the cancer... and the fortune teller from the temple told her not to.. and she's sandwitch by it... but to have a confirmation she went ahead with the opening of her tummy... and its confirm to have that cancer...
ther mother went around praying... spending lots of money... and pray for her baby's high life condition... pray that her condition will be better and have a cure for it.... but no use.... some 'feng shui' told her that the house they lived in have offended the god of something around the area.... and need to pray in the middle of the night to seek forgiveness... to me... its nonsense.... a waste of money.... you know what ??? the amount that the mother spent on the temple thingy..... $20 000 in that month !!!!! OMG !!!!! its ridiculous !!!
nvm... then her husband's admin staff... introduced Soka Association to her.... and she chanted 'Namyo ho renge kyo'...... for 21 days later..... the doc asked the mother.... "what is your religion?" the mother was confused of him asking her where she's asking for her baby's condition.... the doc said that the drug that they gave on the baby is to prevent the spreading of the cancer.... and not curing it.... somehow... the baby's condition got improved ! and its getting better.... the mother was surprised... and believed the power of 'Namyo ho renge kyo'... andstart to believe in it... initially she got doubt for it cos it came from japanese buddishism....
Her first prayer was answered: To have her baby's condition improved...
next her prayer was to have her baby brought home from hospital.. cos her daughter has been in the hospital since birth.. and at that time.... her baby was 1 and half years old....
another weeks later.... her doc called her that she can bring her child home.... there her 2nd prayer answered.... she's glad and more confident in chanting... and her doc add on... that she must take precaution for her child.... the drug that injected in the baby got her bone weakened... if she falls.... her bone will crack... and will never get healed....
however..... her baby's condition got worst..... its decreasing badly.... and she kept asking her leader why it happen..... her leader just asked her to carry on chanting.. weeks later.... its still not improving... still must jia you, her leader told her. then..... the mother start to wake up 1 hour earlier and earlier each day.. from 6am to 3.30 am just to chant for her baby's condition... while her husband was sleeping and snoring SHIOKLY.... she struggled and struggled just to chant... even though she slept 2-3 hours a day ! she slept at 12 after chanting and woke up at 3.30.... and to prevent her from sleeping, she wet her face and chant, so that she wont fall asleep.. but the condition is still got worst.... she went back to her leader and cried..... why it still happen even though she come out for activities... and helped many ppl... her leader answered... its because of her previous bad KARMA....that she had now.... its like a drain where the dirty stuff stuck in the drain... and the water.... (which is 'Namyo ho renge kyo') washing it away.. and the other side of the drain, got dirty cos of the dirt.... so this is the result for the bad condition of the baby..... to clean the drain must have more water right??? so the leader encouraged her to chant more...
the next day when she goes to work... she received a call from her mother... that her baby fell off a chair!! and the baby landed on the back of her head !!..and fell unconcious.. they rushed off to the hospital... and the doc told the mother off that she didn took care of her well... and told her.... be mentally prepared.... if the baby doesn wake up in 12 hours time...... she will die....
the lady's mother scolded her... of praying a new religion... and told her to pray back to the temple.. and waste money again... (indirectly).... but the lady refused to listen to her.. and wont give up chanting.... and her mother told her... if she still chant this religion.. and her granddaughter dies.... she will disown her as her daughter... (WTF???)... but the lady still wont give up.... then her mother left the ward...
the lady cried very hard in the ward... looking at the baby... and started chanting very hard... she didn care of the doc and the nurse where they asked her to lower down her voice... instead... she chant louder and harder... with intense... with desperate... she went to her baby.. and shooked her.... telling her to wake up and call her 'MOMMY'... (at the point of time... everyone of us tearred.... Changboon was tearing..... and mine too... both of my eyes.... even now i might tear anytime...) and kept chanting.. telling the GOHONZON that if her baby daughter lives... she and her husband will do lots of activities in the organization... and her daughters.... including this one... will become a great leader...
she chanted from morning to night.... and fell asleep... she lost her voice after chanting super hard and loud.... the next day... she saw her daughter sit up.... lookin at her.... calling her 'MAMA'....
and there... this is the power of mother's love..... im not advertising my religion..... im just sharring a struggled that a lady got.... and the power of mother's love..... its true.... the lady even showed us the photos... of the baby got her stomach open.. (ewwww).... but its really true..
then i went to grandma's place with mother... mother was sharring with me more bout buddishism... and now i finallly understands it... more to add on... there's no such thing as ghost.. why ppl see ghost? cos they kept thinking of seeing a ghost.. and eventually their mind project the image of the ghost in their eyes... if a person in a group saw a ghost while others didn... dont tell me that guy is special???? thats nonsense...... for those who disagree with me... im sorry... im telling the truth.. its either you have to face the fact.. or be that way... i dont believe in ghost...
grandma cooked a delicious WAN TON MEE.... she gave us extra lots of wan ton.... and MEE POK for me... whahaha.... she's surprised to see my braces...
next... mom, sis and i went to EAST COAST PARK..... both of them were walking slowly.. while i rent a BLADER..... mother looked interested when she saw me wearing the blader and blade... she looked happy..... =D...
oh my.. so many ppl in ECP today !!! well its mother's day... im not surprised to see them celebrating.... but many ppl walking on the road !! they should walk on the predestrain way... blocking the road only... causing us difficulties to blade through... i almost fell 3 times to prevent myself from knockin the kids.... if i hit the kids and fell..... their parents will scold me instead of their kids..... cos nowadays the parents are so pampered on their kids..... nvm..
i blade two rounds from parkway tunnel to bedok Jetty and back..... and saw sis and mom... sis is very interested to learn now... and so does mom.... WHAHAHAHA...... cos i told mom that blading will slim down faster than walking..... you need to waste lots of strength to balance yourself and blade...
and now... im sitting at home....... changed into a new person..... perhaps more enlightened??? maybe... and i will not be so childish as before....
im looking forward to NDP now... NDP training life is so much fun... you can see the peeps enjoying themselves with their friends... and joke around..... my group consist of many adults... and im the youngest one.... and all i did was laughin non stop.. they are hilarious...
right... today's entry is kinda long.... and im not offending the temple and taoist thingy...
to all the greatest mother.... HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY... XD.. without you.. and of course dad.. the kids wont have today... (i think)....
mother is so funny !! i was pluckin her white hair... and she was telling me that sis does it so slower than me... then she told me to find a GF.. and get married and bare her a grandson.. so that he can pluck her grandma (mom)'s white hair..... mom got her suddent change of thoughts.... telling me not to find a GF now... and next moment telling me to faster find one and get married..... so funny... =/
Sunday, May 14, 2006
>.<
Just returned home from NDP training, the attendance is pretty bad... 700 out of 1200... needed 500 more ppl... due to the shortage of man power.. we all always have to change team and roles inorder to let everyone know what they are doin.
After the guy came to my house and do the singnet stuff.. i felt so much happier... can use internet wherever i go in my house... toilet, bathroom... and my room.. whahaha... -_-
anyway, have the urge to play VIRTUAL TENNIS 3 today... and upgrading the card... on 2nd thoughts... its so childish doin that.. perhaps im that bored.. hurried rush to dolby ghord... and saw someone playing... he looked tensed while playing... so i decided to play along with him.. forgetting to insert the card.. >.<>
spent 2 hours rotting there... and saw few typical lians and bengs playing para para... sweating themselves and showin off...
left for Kranji camp.... the trip took about 1 hr.. and i was late! the trainer quickly asked me to position myself as a safety guard for the top man.. they are putting 2 layer human tower for now..... and guess what.. the layer has been confirmed.... 5 layers on NDP day !! 20, 10, 5, 3, 1.. oh gosh !! nvm... must do it !
everyone almost done it well for their formation..... just that they need to train themselves up so that they can carry ppl up...
my group had a new comer.... a jap guy..... think younger than me..... and guess what..... he's a pretty boy !!! oh my tian !!! he looked pretty for a guy... his hair is slightly longer than mine... and he facial features looked like a gal !!!..... at first i mistook him as a gal... and i was shocked to see a gal in ndp trainnig..... cos the ppl required male to join..... gosh.... i guessed many ppl also shocked when they look at him....
oh well.... funny world.... and that just make me recalled bout the colin and kero..... i just..... have no comments.....
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY !!!!! XD
The mess
Was enjoyin my anime non stop hits yesterday.... went to have dinner with family at the FISH AND CO. ... sis know so much bout their food there.... and she's a regular customer there, while im just being 'mountain turtle' there.. didn know what to order... and didn know what is nice.... to put it simple..... i dont know how to enjoy food..... i only eat what i love.... lets say, SUSHI, RAMIEN, FRIED RICE, and most of all, mom's cookin. i'll be comtended if i have myt favourate food in front of me... so.... pathetic... i think...
Anyway, yesterday my Student division member and ICs came to my house, before that, i had a most tummy ache i ever had. i was crying in pain in the toilet. The pain was most unbearable!! its worst than giving birth.... im kidding..... =X...
sis came back in the tmorning....... she called me on the phone after i had finish my business and forced myself onto bed. she was at the airport, sending her friend off to korea.... such luxury life...
the group had our praying session at my living room, and they called me to lead them. crapz, i messed up in the front part..... and i was so embarrassed.... cos.. i seldom pray at home, thanks to my lazyness..... at first i was reluctant to pray....... cos of what happened to me.... but this is how you sees it... nvm...
oh.. just received a call from the Singnet ppl.. they are coming to my house soon to fix the thing up.. so.. lets get things done faster....
we went to ECP....... some of the peeps went to cycling.... and i, ROLLER BLADING....... its little different from ice skate..... where for ice skate, you skate i step... you'll move a little.... but for roller blading, the rollers is so smooth !!! and it can last for 20 secs..... no wonder i kept goin faster and faster whenever i skate...... its scary..... PLUS the crowed at ECP !!!!! its a holiday...... many familys or friends enjoying themselves at ECP...... the Mac there was fullly pack.... including the toilets..... zZzz
so if you ask me, ice skate or roller is better..... ice skate is bit safer, cos you wont have scratches when you fall but for blading ya~... ice skate is cold but its ok cos you'll feel hot while skating...... but.... blading can blade anywhere and everywhere...... and there's only one place for ice skate... hmmmmmm......... maybe blading is better for me..... cos im staying near east coast park.....
went to eat with family at evening....... Parkway Parade was fully packed with ppl again..... irritated... the 3 of us ate bout $67+......... not so bad.... then mom and sis went for shopping spree....... i went to look for roller blades....... si han.... now im totally interested in blading..... it reminds me when i was young where i everyday cycling and blading.... i lost 2 pairs of my blades.. cos they are too small for me... i saw few very nice blades..... there's one for hardcore bladers.... $999 !!!!!! whoa...
mom told me she'll buy for me in later time.... she wants me to study hard.... ya she's right..... i cant manage my time well.... but i love music and sports at the same time..... im trying to balance my life... if there's too much music everyday... you'll get sick of it.... but what to do?? im walking in this line... haiz......
finally bought a tooth brush for ppl who wears braces.... its smaller than the normal one, and the shape is weird..... but its effective after brushing it !! its much better for me than using the normal one...
right...... i better get prepared soon.... before the guy come.....
anyway..... didn went to work for 2 days....... felt weird now...... life is in a mess now... so worried that i cant make it or something... *CHOI CHOI*.. Received a letter from NAFA, and i hope its not bout my reaccessment or something... i opened it, its something bout the library book that i have borrowed... i dont remember borrowing it !!! and its bout trumpet stuff... SAMUEL !!!!!!!!!! and yesh.. is indeed with him... sam !! pls return it !! if not i cant get my dip cert in NAFA !!!! pls pls pls ...
my life is such a mess now..... cant balance out well...
Friday, May 12, 2006
Skating..... memories....
Hmmmm... today's a tiring day... quite.... woke up late in the morning.... weikang called me.. and i thought its my alarm rang.. i tried to off it.. and came to my surprise weikang calling...
"Eh where are you now???"
"Erm im on my way now"
"Sure or not?? or you just woke up?"
"eh ya,. haha.."
"do you know what time is it now??"
"what time?"
"ITS 10.40!!!!!!!!"
oh my tian !! i woke up late... supposed to meet them at 10.45 at jurong Mrt station and im here still sleeping... brushed my teeth and took a bath... and flew to the bus stop... the train ride is boring... everyone kept starring at me... was it my attire?? And1 bball pants and a orange shirt.. does that look weird to you?? finally i reached the shopping mall.. weikang and rest were laughin at me.. cos of my attire... indeed... weikang was asking that what are we supposed to do.. watch movie?? i replied ice skating.. and off they laughed at me.. cos short pants will make us look cold.. DONT WEAR SMART ma.... thats i remember.. kidding.. its for NDP tonight...
the hall was filled with ppl.... mainly teenagers..... felt so embarrassed for being late... wore our skating shoes.. damn they are really tight..... everyone was complaining..... and keep changing the shoe size... i went for a round.. and they were asking me whether have i skate be4... yup i did... bout that was 2 years ago... but i still remember how to skate... phew.. weikang is so funny !!! cos he didn know how to skate.. and he was screaming everytime he almost fall.... whahaha... hilarious... we even video tape it in Qing lun's phone...... ask for him !!!!!! whahahaha... its hilarious...
i was skating in fast speed... dodging the people.... suddenly i run into a malay gal.. and she was screaming.... pulling my hands.... and mine grapping hers... to prevent from her falling... in the end i fell.... on my butt.. it was freaking cold !!!! i tried to pull the gal up.. but its making worst...
but it was fun overall.. but skating for too long will hurt our feet... sihan is interested to get a skating shoes... hmm.. i wont get that.. we dont have much time to skate too..
went off...and wanted to play virtual tennis 3.. but someone is playing it.. and i dont wanna have a bad record on my card... so.. let it go... but saw virtual tennis 2.. but christoven was kinda want us to leave fast..... to eat..... so si han and i played daytona... very pissed... where a idiotic crash onto me..... making me in 5th rank out of 7... initially was first.. oh well.. its just a game..
si han and rest left to orchard to have a buffet... im on a saving mode.. and i dont wanna be my mother's money sucker... left with qinglun and andy to parkway.. met mingwei.. man he's getting more and more vulgar... keep scolding hokkien vulgarities... even in MRT.. ppl were lookin at him.. but he doesn care... cool...
went to play pool in classic... had a round with him.. lost to him by 1 ball... indeed he's good.. a opponient whom im searching for...
went home.. and didn attend NDP.. felt very guilty... didn even attend a member's dad funeral... dont wanna attend funerals anymore.. im sick of it..
oh btw.. i lost 4 kg.... surprised... my initial weight was 82kg.. this morning weighted myself.. 78kg.... perhaps its my decreasing of appetite... very stressed out...
Thursday, May 11, 2006
Different Mindset...
Just came back from tonight's Daimokukai to pray for the SMU students for their exams... whats Daimokukai?? its a chanting session... sounds scary?? nah...
After chanting and not chanting is alot of difference... you see me felt so angry this morning... and calm for now... i find it weird for myself... after chanting... i felt alot better.. think optimisticly... and felt courage... courage of what?? to face difficulties...
went to Mr Yew's house.. which is my teacher's house also... my teacher is staying at Mr Yew's house cos he's broke after buying his favourate double bass... which cost a bomb !!! .... it took me a hard time to reach there... Parc Palalise... its at bukit batok there... near hillvivle... near audrey's house... oh ya.. i saw her brother in the bus.. wearing long pants for his school U.. hmmm he grew taller now... anywayz... his house is quite a mess... full of harmonicas... and boxes... he gave me my salary for 2 days work... wow... shocking... its quite erm.. ya... its not a salary actually... its for my transportation fee or something where i can use it for taking cabs...
my task for today is packin harmonicas into a box which is like keeping a spect... 400 of them !! but i mange to do 3 boxes... one box got 48 harmonica... 3 boxes... hmmmm... i left about 5.45.... happily... running to the busstop... and got lost cos all the bus no. i dont know where its heading to.. in the end i board of the bus at newton and went to dorby ghord.... you should know why.. VIRTUAL TENNIS 3 !!!!!!!! XD....... its surprising that there's so many ppl today !! though its wednesday ! nvm that.... i played the game.. its harder than i thought compared to virtual tennis 2..... i lost to a guy who uses the card.... where he modified his player.... power strokes and serving.... wth...... so unfair !!!!! and i lost.... there's one round where i run like crazy dog chasing a ball.. i think he's pissed cos i managed to catch all his shots.... whahahahahaha...... nvm... i lost in the end still....... feeling having handicap round.... i bought the card...... and wanna try again... but oh dear... look at the time !! its 7.25.... im super late for the daimokukai..... went to harbour front and eat duck noodles...... and reached there..
the ppl ended the chanting session when i reached there... only managed to do the praying part.. but missed out chanting.... then we have a dialogue.... talking about MENTOR AND DISCIPLE teaching..... they asked me what i know about mentor.... i told him simple...... and they said.... indeed a simple answer.... i was so embarrased !!! cos i know nth !!! though they kept talking about it ever since i stepped into ITAC SD group..... the rest gave a complicating answer.... and indeed its true..... mentor.... is someone whom we look out for.... the one whom you tried to follow and seek for.... whether the mentor is gd or bad... you still seek for him... cos you think he's the best? i dont know.... until now im so blur bout it.... it seemed simple... but its actually complicated. kinda contradicting...
we ended our session..... and Wen shen.... my institution IC.... came and told me asked me whether is it ok for him to give me 3 person's no. so that i can look after.... and share dialogue... in my first thought... i was reluctant.... cos i myself still dont know anything bout buddishsm teaching...... only believing it.... then wen shen told me that its a cause and effect thingy... to put it simple...
took a bus with Shilei... my ex chingay trainer.. who is also my ITAC friend.... we shared lots of things in the bus.... telling her bout NDP... cos this year our association wants guys only.... gymnastic core..... and my group is the only one who will be building human tower..... oh man.... in addition... im the youngest there..... WHAT??? nvm.... everyone is young.. we also shared bout studying mindset.... her absorbing of knowledge is slow.... and im facing this problem too... but there's always a way to absorb things fast.... i can only absorb things when it comes to rubbish... kidding.... only when comes to practical... but not theoritical.... so i told her my way of studying... its best not to study like 7 hours straight?? cos in the middle there's always a distraction.... and i get distractied super easily... sigh~... finally.... we board off and i went home..... this coming fri they are coming to my house to do morning gongyo.... and go to the beach for outing.... anyone wanna join us?? =D
for my mother's birthday present.... its simple.... im givin her half of my 'salary'... cos i dont wanna burden her too much..... its time to grow.....
Anger..
Didn have the mood to blog yesterday.. watched few movies that i've rented....
it begin like this..... i went to telok blangah twice.... and back home and went there again.... Mr Yew was at first pissing me off.. why cant he call me in the first place rather than me goin there and have to wait for him..... nvm.... he's busy i guess.... didnt do much..... and went home... only to find mother resting in the living room..... she told me some sad news...... and thus makes me angry bout it..... my allowance is decreasing..... cos mom's salary is decreasing..... SCREW YOU S.I.A !!!!!!! mom's workload is increasing daily but her pay is decreasing gradually.... na bei !! what the fuck is this??? this is nonsense !! if ya dont have much money then dont build new planes all stuff !! saving budget?? by decreasing your worker's pay??? to the hell with you ppl !! mom's salary was initially 1k+ .... then i realised that it decreases until 700+ !!!!!! what the fuck???????????????????? this is nonsense..... that's the reason why i hate spore policy.... stuff ilke that...... they are money suckers..... the income for the ppl is getting lower for some..... and now the rate of selling things is higher...... how to afford?? when i grow up..... i will migrate...... i dont give a shit of what will happen to spore.... this is frustrating..... SIA somemore..... i bet the head is earning big bucks..... with the addition of the ppls pay....
mom's resigning at the end of this month or this year.... i dont know....... looking at mom... she's getting more and more tired each day..... im helpless... i cant help mom other than work and study...... and the 'work' that i have now....... its fucking pissing me off... i dont even know will i get paid in the first place...... if i dont.... my teacher gonna get it..... and Mr Yew too....
Mr Yew just called me..... and asked me to do some stupid stuff..... like assemble dbass...... and thats it??? once he asked me whether im interested to invest some money into this shop....... hell no..... im a student MIND YOU..... i've no comments now....... shall see later...... im frustrated now....... im getting depression each day...... and i'll get moody easily...... Shit....... i didn want this to happen...... if dad is alive..... things were so much different...
so much anger within me..... so much for holiday......
By the way........ its mom's birthday today.... and mother's day is this sunday.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM !!!!!!! the woman of my life...
