Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Day 2
Now... im at susy's house... stayin overnight... and she's leavin back to NY tomorrow... cant bear/bare? to part man... sob sobs.... haha
anyway... today morning is kinda boring... didn went to visit 4th aunt... (mom's sis).... dont really like her attitude... totally bossy man~~ anyways.... think i'll be visitin uncle then... since he doesn have any son....
went to Soka Kaikan at tampines.... mom was pissed with both sis and i... for being so slow.... haiz... cant blame... IM HAVIN BAD STOMACH ACHE NOW !!!! >.<... cos of digestion problem.... and cos i didn chew all the food.. only swallow.... so... practically... what it come out is what i've eaten.... o_O???
anyway.... prayed for 1 hr.... then went to eat porridge... again... oh boy... can lose weight can le =X...
went to meet ci qing.... oh ya... be4 that.... practice dbass infront of mom... guess this is the first time that she ever watched me practice dbass... and all she comment was.... "very nice" !!! very romantic??? well maybe... thanks to my PS teacher man.... gave me a exam pieces with 2 kinds of movement.... first is "intro".. then followed by "rondo"... the intro is kinda COOL... which he exclaimed.... then rondo is SUPER FAST LA !!... and the highest note that i've to reach is TREBLE CLEF HIGH 'G' NOTE !! omg... which means... i have to reach my fingers all the way near to the BOW !!! wow... lol....
anyway... went to bugis with ci qing first... every shop is closed... boring !!... then go PS..... also closed..... then.... cineleisure.... and lots of ppl hanging around there.... smokers.... bengs.... lians... anyhow....
so... both of us were bored... then decided to play pool.... as usual... which ci qing is dying for....
i was super tired by then... first 3 round lost to him.... in the end catched up... and won him eventually... lol....
then.... faster went home... mom didn cook... sadded.... and then and then... faster went to meet jane....
right now... the sistas are playin black jack now... i decided not to join.... since i dont have a pair of lucky hands... lol... first round lost my 20 cents already... hahaha...
anyway.... hope things goes smoothly.... CHINGAY IS COMING SOON !!! XD
Monday, January 30, 2006
so much bout CNY.....
just came back from gugu's house...... (dad's sis).... not much ppl went there..... since dad's bro-in-law passed away last year be4 my bday...... that sux la....... dad left be4 my bday too......
anyway....... sis and i reached there the earliest...... 1 plus..... and no sign of other relatives there......
then gugu gave some ang bao to us........ and sis carry on with her "BAK GUA" while i watched =/......
soon...... dad's step-bro came....... dont know which one....... got so many of them..... then their daughter is not feelin well....... and her bro...... was shocked to see me...... a giant maybe....
then they gave us ang bao....... but no conversation between us....... boring~~
then they left very fast..... and at the same time others came........ all the uncles are growing bigger man....... just big......... fat or musclular...... i cant tell...... then they shook hands with me and sis........ and carry on with their conversation....... and while i sat alone on the sofa.......
that suk man....... no one is speakin to me..... or even recognise my existence.......
then ah ma came...... (mom's gugu..... how coincidental man...... dad's dad married to mom's gugu)......
as usual....... everyone is practically ignorin me la........ dont even know my existence....... even though im the tallest there........ zZzz
received some ang baos........ but no converstation........ not even a question of where im studyin... only my sis..... =/
then there's one grandma..... dont know mine or who's.... what a complicating family tree i have.... DONT EVEN KNOW WHO AM I!?!?!?!?!?! ...... and asked my relatives there...... until they told her...... and she was like..... " OHH !!!!!!!!!! forget to give ang bao.... "
best man........ she even thought sis is my mother and im her kid......... BLIND OR WHAT ???
anyway........ everyone left......... and im just sitting alone..... whole day starrin at the sky.......
then mom finally came........ and the atmosphere changed........ while she kept disturbin my baby cousin........ lol...... cute mom~
then my cousin elleen....... heard that she's gettin married!!!! and she's 21 !!!!!! same age as sis !!! power...... cant blame......... cos uncle left..... and left both of them...... so its better to married faster......
anyway........ gugu was like tellin sis........ to bring a 'boy-boy' if she found one......... and not forgettin bout me....... and mom was like..... aiya.... study first..... lol...... then talk bout gals again !! findin what kind of gals bla bla bla ......... so contradicting man !! lol
then we finally left....... since mom is super tired...
and wow..... received lots of ang baos........ but its reallly sad that no one recognise my existence...... well.... what to do~~~ im not close with them...... since granddad is such a play boy =X....... married 3- 4 wifes... and each wife dont know gave birth to how many kids....... =/
right..... today's menu....... BUDDHA JUMP OVER THE WALL !!!!!!!!! XD AHHHHHHHH !!! better go enjoy now...... whahaha....... but still.... can only swallow T_T...
oh boy...... better practice piano and dbass super hard now........
Sunday, January 29, 2006
*sobs sobs*
right........ today's menu for porridge is 'ABALONE Porridge'........... yesterday is chicken....... day be4 is fish............ all of them taste great man !!!!!!!!!!! just that............. ONLY HAVE TO SWALLOW !!!!!! T_T......... hahaha......... but cos i didn chew........ it will make me feel more full.....
anyways........ yesterday slept super early !!!!!! 7 plus pm....... then woke up at midnight....... cos mom was tellin sis that HOW COOLIN my room is !!!! ya...... so loud la........ enough to wake me up.... whaha....... no wonder i was freezin middle of the night........ hahaha......
so.......... drank some milk........... and anti-biotics........ then ........ CANNOT SLEEP LE !!!!!!! SO SAD !!!! T_T....... full of energy man haha......
so....... i rest on my bed........ thinkin.......... thinkin....... and thinkin..... of what happens after i put on braces..... hahaha...... just funny la........ think so much while cant enjoy food =X....... but what to do......... as my dictionary goes... ' it takes pain to look good'....... sounds familar??? ya....... thats what i've learnt after watching "complete make over"........ "swan"......... bla bla bla......... after all the operation thingy........ all the hardships of pain takin......... the ppl look great in the end...... haha......... man......... im still schoolin......... what for think so much bout that ??? beats me...... and also have other thoughts........ that.... i suddenly felt myself distance away from the rest...... quite sad la actually...... holiday didn talked much with peeps....... and school just started 2-3 weeks ago and didn have much things to talk about...... plus the operation thingy..... oh boy....... sighz.....
after mom left for work at 4 am....... i went to watch 'FULL HOUSE' in her room....... BOY !!!!!!!!! mom's room is the best to watch DVD MAN !!!!!!!!!!!! big tv !!!!!!!! DVD SET !!!!! BED !!!!!!!! FOOD !!!!!!!!! (which mom just cooked finish ABALONE porridge).............
so....... i watched until 6 plus...... and decided to sleep........ indeed i was tired...........
time passes super fast lo !!!!!! after i close my eyes........... my hp alarm ran !!!!!! and its 8 plus !!!!! wah piang........ its like havin 5 mins of sleep....... lol......
went to eat abalone porridge again........ so sad la........ i can only swallow it........ CANT CHEW !!!!!! T_T....... i mean...... its very tempting to see a abalone infront of you......... and you wanna chew it....... but you can only swallow it...... haha nvm la........ abalone can always eat later......
cos mom's gonna cook 'BUDDHA JUMP OVER THE WALL!!!!!!!' after puttin on braces....... hehe.... YUM YUM !!!!!!!!! (i think so....... from what i've seen the ingredient that she've prepared)...
went to Alexandra hospital......... the waitin is super long man..... ppl kept starrin at me........ must be my swollen face....... in the bus also....... so irritated.........
"Mr Li Yongrui!!!!!!!!!!!".......... wah piang...... super loud........ then i went in........ Dr Hu is her name....... she told me that she will be teachin me how to wash my gums FOR THE DAY......... DOTs...... i thought takin out stitches...... haha....... in the end is 6 feb...... so~~~~~~~ guess i'll be missing aural and string sectional again..... whahaha........
Dr Hu took out a huge injection tube........ when i looked at it..... i almost fainted !!!! i thought she wanna inject something into my gum...... who knows she told me that....... thats a syringe........ so embarrassing ~!!! hahaha........ and she opened my wound........ and spray some water in it.......
ouch ouch ouch....... all the dirt and some little food came out......... and of course blood la....... so pain.......... and the wounds...... ewwwwwwwwwww =X
then......... she gave me the syringe.... and i left home.......... 5 mins !!!!!!!!!!!! while the journey is 1 hr !!!!!!!!! lol.....
met sis at parkway.......... walked around......... bought some soft pizza bread from breadtalk........
so.... just ate finish 3 bowls of abalone porridge.......... BOWLS ar....... not plate ar........ hahaha......
right........... tonight will be eatin at grandma's house.......... dont know what no. grandma......... but she's the best grandma that i've known........
didn i mentioned that i got lots of grandmas ???? thanx to my paternal's dad....... so play boy la...... and damn bloody rich....... but all his "chai chang" never give to his sons..... only wifes...... =/........
right shouldn talk much bout past....... back to TV now.. tata =D
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR XD
really wanna watch movies man......... 'fearless'??? 'zodiac'??? appearently no one wanna watch with me........ sigh~.......
got a pair of chingay tickets...... wonder who wants to go.....4th Feb..... 7pm must reach..... it would be a waste to throw that away...... market selling $40 each for actuall day........ tsk tsk...... singapore......
cant wait to hit gym again.........
Saturday, January 28, 2006
saw the 'Lobang' on my teeth?? and the swell T~T
Recovery
right...... back from BROADRICK sec........the new buildin is indeed new la....... with big capacity........ but....... INSUFFICIENT ROOMS !!!!! lol........ waste space only
anyway....... nth has changed since our graduation....... students there are just sucked as be4....... or should i say worst?!?!?!........ got stealin case man today..... what a disgrace??? stealin BASKET BALL ON CNY CELEBRATION????? LMAO !!!!!! WHAT A JOKE !!!!!!!!!! WHAHAHAHA......... if they wan just ask from me la....... i'll surely give them one......... LOSERS !!!!!!!!! whahaha........ this is the best joke i ever heard of........
anyway ate scramble eggs only this morning......... never bite at all....... just swallow the egg =S......... and its like very full cos you didn chew the food and just swallow........
oh ya......... today skipped school....... cos mouth is more swollen than yesterday....... doc was right...... the swollen will swell to the largest on the 72 hr....... oh my...... swollen like mad ar...... but happy thing is....... my face is slightly slimmer than be4 =D !!!!!!!!!!!!!! woo hoo........ so....... if i lost weight....... i mean somemore........ heh heh....... lalalalalala~~~~~~~ ahem ahem
been eating porridge these few days....... surely can slim down...... whahaha.......... bought "men's health" yesterday....... got lots of useful tips........... and this comin wed will be hitting GYM with Clement and Lester...... WOO HOO !!!!!!!!! back to action........... but but ....... hopefully the swell is ok~.... tomorrow is the removal of the stitches....... =S....
Right........ CNY is comin..... hope can collect lots lots of ANG BAOs =D........
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO YOU GUYS !!!!!!!!! =D
Thursday, January 26, 2006
No.8 pain......
just came back from hospital...... discharged there at 3 plus...... now...... i look like a pig head......... and looked like when i was fat......
went there quite early this mornin...... at 9 plus......... the waiting is quite long........the nurse kept askin me questions bout allergies..... last eaten.... bla bla bla ....... and they made me wear the operation clothings...... wow..... i looked lik a GEISHA!!!!!!!! lol....... or maybe a SUSHI maker !!! the clothing really makes you like a japanese...... gal..... =/... lol....... then its my turn...... mom left first.......... i was talkin with one nurse...inside the operation room cos of the blackout which occured out of sudden be4 they start........ then the light came back and the doc injected the anesthetic in me....(pain like hell la the needles!!! T~T)... and asked me to countdown from 10 to 1.......... when i started 10!!!......... i felt very giddy and slept.......immediate..... lol
i suddenly woke up from a dream.......... and a nurse got shocked....... and i straight vomitted blood...... lots of it...... and i feel my mouth is totally numb......i cant even say 'where's my mom' or even 'thank you'.......... all i can say was...... 'h.....i.... *SLURP*' thanks to the blood and saliva....... and of course the cotton which they inserted into my mouth..... both sides...
the nurse kept changing the cotton in my mouth........ and the left side of my teeth kept bleedin....... while the right is ok........ very irritated....... i cant swallow...... cos of the blood clot that stucked in my throat..........
my lips is very fat now....... fatter than ANGELINA JOLIE !!!!!!!!! serious........ my lips is really really fat now......... then sis disturbed me....... sayin that i've more sexy lips than her now........... =/......... rubbish..........
anyway....... all i can enjoy now is ice cream......... WOO HOO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tata~~~~~~ dont think i can go to school tomorrow........ as well as friday....... 8 teeth man !!!!!!! lol....... wanna see them????? man........ my wisdom tooth looked like disfigured man........ got 4 roots ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! and all the holes in my gum now...... ewwww..... can put pencil in it =X
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
However......
just reached home after shoppin with mom and sis...... i finally bought my new year clothings and pants !!!!!! and they are very cool man~~~~~~ thanx to my 2nd uncle who gave us new year money to buy clothing..........
today's lecture is fun....... Mr Yap practically joked all the way....... makin everyone laughed....... especially the professor who got big fat fingers that looked like sausage....... 1 finger play 3 notes???? thats.......... COOL !!!!!! lol.......
anyway..... after school....... i went to Alexandra hospital to meet mom and sis........ the waiting is quite long........ mom was freezing....... and wearing the sweather...... i was like........ feeling hot....... perhaps nervous bout tomorrow........
anyway...... sis come out of the surgery room....... she showed us her tooth that was extracted........ i was........... like......... havin goosebumps after that......... some of her gum stucked onto the wisdom tooth....... ewww........ then i pressed it....... soft man..... like a jelly...... =X..
went to eat after that......... mom bought bull frog porriage for sis....... while im eating fried food....... tryin to temp sis......... hehehe........ then mom and i ate fried oyster....... YUM YUM! !!!!!! and sis was like........ "ARGH >.<"
took bus with mom and sis........ and kept askin weikang bout what bus to go to Ang Mo Kio....... i think i somehow kinda disturbed him or something......... cos i know the peeps went to watch movie..... no wonder never pick up my call........
anyway........ the waiting for bus is very frustrating........ waited for half and hour......... then went back to school outside......... then waited for 20 mins....... then 166 came........ idiot......
met up 2nd uncle and aunt...... and i saw them chatting bout the hospital payment......... while lookin at them...... my heart softened........ cos...... both of them are the only child of my dad's mom left........ while dad and eldest uncle are gone......
then uncle pass me the new year money....... and gave me some allowence....... very touched by him..... and he's a grandfather already....... my cousin got a boy...... wow...... im a uncle??? lol...... never thought of that.......
went shoppin with him after that......... chatted alot alot .......
maybe bout CSCO thingy....... after the practices..... i'll visit my aunt....... since the CSCC is near her house.....
then went shoppin with mom after that..... bought some clothes and pants......
so sad now....... no one tags my blog T_T....... sigh~~~~~~
somehow...... my EQ is fallin...... pretty badly....... and i find myself drifted away from everyone....... i just simply hate myself...... for being shy easily???? and speechless all the time...... Boon Hao once told me to be open....... stop keepin things to yourself..... and its important to be sociable....... well..... i guessed....... im back to my old self again....... where....... im speechless...... perhaps...... im used to it since pri school....... where i've no gd..... close...... or even best friend........ and since fat...... its easily being bullied by ppl....... secondary school........ hmmmmmmm...... maybe some gd friends....... but no best friend to share my thoughts or everything....... now in NAFA............ everyone is cool~~~~ they are funny..... cool...... and funky??? just sad that i cant fit in... and crapz...... i cant open my mouth all the time....nth to say..... ARGH >.< ........ SISTAZ....... they are just cool...... i love them~~~~ but..... imma late comer...... and i think im missing out lots of things.....
so...... for now...... piano and dbass is my best friend....... not to forget my blog........ its gettin quieter now.........
well...... tomorrow is my operation......... startin at 9.45am........... maybe i'll show everyone my 8 teeth after my op =X......
just hope that everything goes smoothly......
tata~~~~~
Monday, January 23, 2006
+_+
just reached home from shoppin with mom......... and my pants almost dropped as usual........ and mom was like.... "why never wear your belt??? for a guy....... belt is their best friend......" and i was like..... got such things meh ?? lol
anyway.... this morning went to CSCO........ met weikang at the mrt station......... and we talked bout some CC that had combine with KC gals be4...... and i just realised that......... we both played in that CC and we didn notice each other....... lol....... cool~.....
anyway....... waited for weikang to end their commitee meeting while walkin around........ camped myself in the toilet.... (which is always the best place for me to hide)....... then we went into the room.......... the ppl are friendly there....... just that i couldn open my mouth to say hi...... just smile........ why???? simple as easy........ im super shy.......... basket =/.....
then i received bunch of scores......... hmmmmmmmmmmm quite easy i can say........ just that got fast runnin notes....... and im emjoyin myself playin all these notes.... whahaha...... while playin one of the songs........ i suddenly thought of PAYCO....... and the feelin is bout the same...... just that CSCO got lots of players.......... but the feelin is about the same.......... very nostalgic...... whahahaha.........
after we end......... they were discussin bout trip to Sydney..... well..... of course i didn wanna go..... couldn bare to leave my mama~~ =p..... and of course...... same budget.... after doin braces for me...... which cost bout 3-4K..... plus my sis...... and my operation....... which is comin wed....... sigh~~~~ how worried......
then........ i left...... without eatin lunch with weikang and his friendly dudes......... cos....... 2 reasons........ im suppose to meet my sis....... which i have promised her......... and the other......... never bring money......... whahahaha......... and cos of that....... i didn join them....... not that im anti-social~~
anyway......... sis's pluckin teeth and my op is comin soon.......... guess wont be enjoyin food after that........ 8 teeth in one day !!!!!!! omg !!! ........ a friend of mine told me that after he pluck out 2 wisdom tooth........ he didn eat anything........ cos he's in pain....... really pain........ and he applaude me for bein darin to pluck out 8 one day.......... aiya.... dont know what im talkin bout....
anyway..... thats all folks........ oh ya....... weikang........ im actually enjoyin myself in the co =p..... hahaha tata~
Sunday, January 22, 2006
hmmmmmmmmm
OH MAN !!!!!!! I JUST LOVE CHINGAY !!!!!!!! its so fun today...... whahaha........
the weather is makin fun of us man.......... after we wore the crops........ the rain started heavy...... so boring...... and everyone went for shelter....... prayin that the rain will stop....... in the end we went to auditorium........ to have our dinner.......... asked Ming Quang bout the gymnastic.......... OMG !!!!!!!!! i should have went for the interview man !!!!!!!! im so regret now......... the practices that they had........ is totally fun..... but dangerous......... have to flip here flip there....... roll here and roll there........ so fun man !!!!!!! nvm.... i'll join when they havin recruitment......
anyway....... after dinner........ rain stopped........ so happy rite ?????? ya man....... before we start our rehearsal........ RAIN STARTS AGAIn...... zZzzz......... then........ Mark......... and i start to ask Jia wei bout his love life.......... basket......... this fella got total of 4 gal in his life.......... lol....... envious...... =X...... 3 are the ones who wooed him....... while that last one is he himself wooed...... lol......... SO ENVY !!!!!!!!!! =X
then rain stopped........ and our item starts since we are the first....... the crops were heavy and too small for me...... very small........ cant move properly..... but thats good cos can do robotic movements better......
after our item....... rain start again........ WHAHAHAHAHa.... crazy man.............
then.......... Mark and i continued with our lover boy....... lol.......... and Mark start asking the gals bout BGR thingy.......... man.... nowadays the generation is getting......... erm......... hahaha......... gals woo guy now..... hahaha........
after that.......... we went home...... met sis on way back.......
oh ya......... we are in TV man !!!!!!! whahaha..... lots of cameaman took lots of pics of us........ and video cam also......... heard that we will be in tv......... whahaha....
our item got lots of breeds of dogs........ chi wawa.... robot dogs..... blader dogs...... dalmations...... bla bla bla ........... and my other gym friend..... actin as humans........ got super nice packs man....... very obvious 6 packs........ 2 more on its way......... so envy !!!!!!! and he askin me to join him to gym tomorrow....... but sadly....... i promised weikang to go for his co.......... very sad............. very very very very very very very very very very very very very sad.........
sigh........ nvm............ must train super hard now....... both in piano/dbass....... and gym =p........
right......... off to NARUTO now..... tata~~
Memories
still got some time be4 i goin to chingay rehearsal..........
right.......... woke up at 9 this morning.......... cant sleep these few days.......... looked myself into the mirror.............. and got shocked.......... my eyes are very small now....... and it looked very sleepy......
listen to some music....... especially from "suikoden"....... super nice song.......... the one that my blog is playin now......... trying to play that out in piano.......... sadly...... my aural isnt gd enough......... i only managed to play the bass part......... while the melody still " hay wire"....
played my ATCL pieces....... jia lat man........ it my teacher were to listen...... she'll definately murder me........ thats what she always like to say " I'lll murder you !!"
lol........ yup........ that brings back memories.......... like how i started learning piano from her...... i remember the first day when i met her.......... she's a big lady.......... big........... but nice....... but when she's angry......... is very scary....... like a witch....... =X........ thats what i used to think when young...... her studio is quite small....... but enough to fit in all the rascals kids...... includin me.... =p..... lucky~ as i used to be super fat........... lol.... and also... her studio looks like a orphanage home....... where all the small kids play together and while she get to scold everyone of us when misbehave..... whahaha.........
during sec school......... she made me play all the waltz pieces by Chopin....... she loves Chopin.... i guess....... and she always told me that my sight reading nt bad........ but still bad........ o_O? ..... and always told me how gd my sis is.......... sight reading is superb...... everything.......... and thus...... makin me envy and jealous.......... and have this inferior belief....... sad rite ??/
during sec 4........ she made me play all the "songs without words"........ on the spot....... guess she's trying to help me in my sight reading........ and always told me not to use the right pedal..... which i always loves to use.... =X....... and also make me play all her sight reading books......... and of course ATCL pieces........
oh boy........ just practiced all the Walts in the Chopin's waltz book........... and still remember how she lectured me....... hahaha......
without her........ i dont think i will be able to study in NAFA....... and meet all the friendly peeps...... and without her........ i dont think i will be able to find my path.......
wonder how's she now....... now she's 70 plus...... but she looked in her 60s..... cool~~ perhaps i should visit her again.......
so...................................... to repay my appreciations to her......... must practice super hard now...... though i used to say that upteen times =X......
i missed her man~~~
Saturday, January 21, 2006
Progressing.....
Feeling slightly better now....... thanx to VIRTUAL TENNIS 2 of course XD............. which i went to play in X-zone at dolby ghord or something...........
bout yesterday........... have a gatherin with my chingay peeps........ well........ i reached Plaza sing on time.......... finally..... =X......... and was walkin to meet them in the MRT station....... who knows i went to the wrong one....... i went to the North-East control station there..... while they are in North-South lane.......... blur~~ @_@
watched them eat at the Banquet......... and Jiawei and i went to buy drinks for them........ like a waiter...... lol....... and had some gossips bout Faye and her EX........ seen her before at the Youth Gather Meetin......... i was performin while she's a trainer for the MASS DANCE............ guess she's 2 years junior of me...
went to play pool............ and finally i get to go to the pool place beside the orchard plaza buildin there......... Mark.......... my group friend,.... not NAFA Mark....... haha............. and i taught the gals how to play pool............. its fun to see beginner's luck.......... serious............ the shots that they made.......... is unexpected........ and its hard to imitate them....... whaha......
then we switch ppl from team to team......... and i was teammed with Faye......... she's pro man....... but we lost to Mark and Jiawei........ that kuku Jiawei....... keep makin me lost concentration by keep sayin..... " SAY MY NAME !!!!! SAY MY NAME !!! XD"........... well..... that line is from Russel Peter's stand up comedy.......... basket man........ lol
we played for 3 hours............ from 8 to 11........ really really enjoyed myself with my teammates.... though i never ever communicate with them much........ except for Mark and Jiawei........
anyway....... today went to school super early....... to lend evan aural book.............. so happy man........ no need to do hw le....... cos i've finished in advance..... whahaha.......
practiced piano.......... Liszt's Hungarian Rapsody no.2 and Beethoven's 'Pathetic' Sonata....... which i can only think of.......
went to have breakfast with Jwen and Evan........... never talked much........ cos too sleepy....... very very sleepy........ and sad case........ havin diarriea............ and i end up in toilet 3 times today....... SHIOK rite??? =/
Had singapore art scene lesson....... went to see paintings again.......... saw Wee Liang on the way........ had a conversation with him and carry on with my journey to the exhibition......?
right........ went to Dolby Ghord station to play Virtual Tennis 2 in X-zone..... guess thats the only way to vent my frustrations in it.......... sad thing....... they changed the difficulty to normal......... and i prefer hard.........
saw some ex broadricians on way home........... very irritated by the site of them.......... such f***ers exist.........
anyway...... im speechless now.......... tata~~~
Friday, January 20, 2006
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in school now... ended harmony 5-10 mins earlier............
miss yohanna's teaching was like uncertain.... and many kinds of rule will come out... funny~~ still... i preferred Mr yap... and his teaching....
anyway.... slept around 2 to 3am....... cant sleep......... and partly cos of the show which i finally completed watching..... the ending is... kinda sad... but weird....
haven been feeling well past few days since last sun... today might be the worst......... feelin feverish.....
yesterday is a long day...... and first time reached school on time...... havin history lesson...... feeling very sleepy and frustrated..... dont know why......
lucky played pool with shaun and sihan.... ease the frustration a little......
platform was good....... the students who compose their work are genius..... but i like alan's work...... very nice....... weikang played well too..... sounds nice.....
went to had sight singing lesson....... still feelin feverish.... so try to enjoy myself during sightsinging..... by listenin to weikang's jokes........ si han...... me and christoven were laughing all the way.....
next is methods of analysis..... feeling frustrated already..... everyone have their snacks....... havin campin man.... then audrey and lee tung bought theirs......
lending my staples to the peeps..... kinda irritating man...... after keepin...... others still askin me...... why dont they just ask together rather when i keep my staple in my bag......... then after lending ting ting and shi lian....... my bag accidentally hit audrey's drink and spilled it....... so sry audrey !!!!! both our bags kena....... and cos i just bought the bag..... bit heart pain ar...... so clumsy of me........ shit bag...... went to throw the tissues away....... just feeling frustrated..... of everything........ somehow i know audrey's angry...... no wonder she kept scoldin me stop being ah gua or something....... and that word is a taboo to me....feelin more irritated.... but still im in the wrong to be so clumsy and whinning about........ very sry audrey...... now both of our bags are sticky enough.... just read her blog bout the incident....... and ya........ truly sry audrey..... maybe they didn know im havin a bad day...... so..... things might be mistaken alittle.....
perhaps i should shut the f*** up these few days......
chingay is kinda ok........ but....... got yelled by trainer........... even worst now....... feeling like run and get banged by car.......
just practice finish dbass....... my ps teacher just gave me a score....... for my exam....... SUPER HARD...... its 'introduction and Rondo'... thats what he call it....the introduction is kinda smooth and easy....... then comes to rondo........ the joke is...... im stuck in first two bars....... and i spent like half hour figuring my fingerins....... so stupid i am...... lucky my teacher got patience...... if not...... he would give me hours of lecture...... right now havin headache...... mom also havin fever..... and sis was tellin me not to be sick...... cos of the op........ aiya......... whats wrong with me man........ feelin so frustrated these few days.......
very very depressing now......
now my eyes is very small....... tryin my best to open wide..... but still small...... lol.........
Thursday, January 19, 2006
sighded
didn blog for few days....... being gettin home late few days.....
yesterday went to watch movie with sam and guys.... The Heirloom.... trust me.... you wont wan to watch..... out of 5 star... i would rank it 1.5 ..........
today just came back from chingay....... guess today is last day of practice..... sat is full dress rehearsal.......
tomorrow is the meeting of my groupmates..... playin pool i guess....... think everyone is lookin forward to it...... but im not sure bout mine....
anyway.... feeling kinda tired already....... really tired... just heard that few ppl have quited school..... well.. im shocked...... one of them is a history top student in our class..... and its kinda sad.........
anyway...... tomorrow will update...... super tired now. wanna watch "sang doo... lets go to school" already...... very nice.....
ciaoz~
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Whisky
just came back from chingay....... the peeps decided to have a gatherin...... playin pool around katong there....... so cool...... near my hs =X.....
anyway....... had my fun chattin with jiawei... and weiwen.... told them some lame jokes....... and they can burst into laughter until face red.....
our trainer..... told us a more lame joke...... didn expect her to give really lame joke =X....
anyway....... just found a whisky that mom bought........ she told me once that its mainly for moisterising hair....... of course that whisky can be drank.....
so...... i give it a sip......
WAH PIANG !!!!!!!!!!!!! super hot !!!!!!!!!! at first the drink is very cold....... when it reaches your throat........ it burns man........ then you can feel it inside your stomach !!!!!!!! i finally know exactly where my stomach is =X....
then....... after awhile......... my mouth will have CHAR SHAO BAO SMELL !!!!!!!!
didn know whisky will have char shao bao smell......
dont worry...... im not drunk...... just being so 'mountain turtle'...... since this is the first time i ever drink whisky....
right......... im crazy now......... better sleep soon.....
tata peeps........
be sure to flood my tag !!! its meant for ya guys to flood........ the more the merier...... MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA
down... distance.... awkward....
com is down....... totally down....... the desktop is just blank...... just my wallpaper.... "the pianist" wallpaper......
no icons..... no "start" button........ just nth...... no time....... no internet explorer icon.....
just nth.........
lucky... i pressed 'ctrl' 'alt' & ' del'....... and clicked 'run'....... and i just typed anything which comes out...... lucky......... it came out winamp....... then internet explorer........ how pathetic.......
anyway........ start to feelin down anyways......... felt distance........ just uncomfortable.......
now...... the only thing that i wanted is.... 'virtual tennis'....... thats all i craved for........
dr kan gave me some extra work..... asked me to find scores...... double bass concert score by "capuzzi'........ went to esplanade yesterday with weikang...... sihan..... evan and dora....... and i couldn find it....... think the one that lian wei got is the only one in the esplanade...... hope he can lend me........
next...... she asked me to do some research...... on double bass......... i dont like double bass at all....... i just dont like.......... still....... look on the bride side....... double bass is rare i must say....... though its hard to master it...... little finger movement couldn tell the difference of the intonation..... compared to violin..... little movement.... the intonation changes alot.....
went to dolby ghord or something........ X zone....... and play virtual tennis 2....... with si han...... must must interesting........ we played until last stage...... though we still lost......... its more interesting than previous........ then went to x box to play....... watched han and his friend playin star wars....... then we play tennis....... i love tennis man........ couldn miss it......
this morning...... ci qing came to my house,..... all he told me was reformat com....... i strongly agree so.......... but...... have to wait for sis...... to back up........ she said that from last time until now...... still no progress... lol........
gonna attend chingay practice soon....... last 4 practice........ and op is on 25 jan....... worried that cant make it for chingay........ but who cares...... my role is small... totally right at the corner....... and unnoticeable....... plus the mask everything......... its like a oven........ the clothin is like a diver suit....... super tight and slimmy.... like a frog........
just now went to shop with mom at NTUC...... bought back lots of stuff..... for new year....... and two 10kg bags of rice...... wah...... lucky i went with her...... if not i dont think she's able to bring back 10kg of rice bag.... and lots of stuff back home
anywayz....dont know whether will i able to blog for next few days........
depressing mode.......
Friday, January 13, 2006
Sharks........ crap.....
wah piang........ com crash again........ msn cannot on......... only mozilla........ explorer also got prob........ sianz....
today went for check up....... the doc is an indian lady....... she's funny man ~~~~
i went into the room....... her right hand is bandaged..... and she asked bout my sickness or something..... which i didn have.....
doc:" open your mouth and say AHHHHHH"..
me: "ahhhhh....."
Doc:" now.... open your mouth bigger and say AHHHH louder....."
me:" AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"...
doc:" ok.... thats loud enough......."
next...... she checked my heart beat...... my heart sure pumpin very fast..... dont know why so worried when i stepped into the room.....
doc:" do you smoke??"
me:" no........"
doc:" good boy !!! keep it up...... dont ever smoke ok??? nowadays youngsters think smokin is cool....... dont know what the hell are they thinkin"
whahaha....... i laughed when she said that....... next she check my blood pressure..... the result is 155..... dont know whether its gd or not...... she only said "this kid is excited to have a 155"
think i heard wrongly...... but sis told me its quite high..... uh oh.......
anyway...... we went to eat beef meat balls....... super nice man !!!!! at IKEA buildin..... super nice......
oh ya....... be4 went to hospital....... i went to play VIRTUAL TENNIS 2 with shaun...... super fun man......... the difficulty that they set is SUPER HARD.......... this is first time i ever have to crack my head to play this game......... normally i complete the whole game...... but this time is super hard........ one match takes me bout 7 - 8 mins....... omg....... everytime deuce....... deuce...... deuce....... sianz.......... lol........
right......... right now im super worried and scared...... dont know bout what......... sigh....... just have this worried feeling sigh......
think its cos of homework that scares me....... sigh......
right gonna do history now...... tata~
stupid com crashed again....... tmd..... @*#^%@^*#
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Still rainin...
haven been blog for days..... just came back after printin the scores at the esplanade....
today....... late for school as usual....... have been wakin up late...... sigh...... leg still hurts.....
had history lessons...... revisin all the things Dr Kan taught last week...... lucky still remember... but damn embarrassin is that i gave details that is unrelated to the points........ sianz.....
went for music platform...... the music tech ppl....... did their best....... Lu Heng's is the nicest..... among technos...... haha...... then the first item...... sharks i forgot his name out of a sudden....... is really realistic....... can imagine first person view....... serious......... Darius one is....... short and fast...... ahahaha....... the rest ok ok ........ but still nice.......
attended sight singing...... combined with year 2s........ somehow refresh my childhood memories when i was in junior choir........ the mouth shape must be very oval..... then must be hollow inside......... and sing through diafrum ( what-ever it spelled like).....
attended methods of analysis...... very sianz........ but understood what Dr kan taught......... but that module wasted lots of time man....... find scores and printin everything...... zZzz
that explains our chaotic events in the esplanade with wei kang....... whahaha........
but i get to play virtual tennis 2......... and crazy taxi !!!!!!!! both are my favourate games......... woo hoo !!!!!!!! XD
right......... its exactly 2 weeks from now......... to next next wed........
countdown........
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
rain rain rain
today rain again....... and im late for my aural class... 20 mins late.... zZzz
Had string sectionals with Mr Robert... his accent super funny..... i will always laughed whenever he said " TONG TONG TONG TONG TONG" its just funny......
went to esplanade with si han, zheng qiang and the rest... to do history and methods of analysis hw... first time do hw so early..... no more last min work.......
saw Jane and two other gals.... must be either her sis or friends... haha... say hi to her while i was in the escalator.... pai seh never talk much...
ate meat ball claypot rice.... meat ball super nice....
play virtual tennis 2 game..... enjoyed myself...... but stupid guy challanged me....... out of 5 rounds i won him 4....... so irritated........ wanna end my game fast but he couldn just let me go... bastard... but nvm la... 1 credit for 5 games...... muahahahaha........ si han was like "oei what you doin??? faster win..... dont lose !!" lol.... thanx ar........ im just sianz when i won him 4 times.... lol...
had orchestra practice........ cant stop laughin....... serious....... his 'TONG TONG TONG' really funny...
went to eat KFC......... talked alot.......
saw a bag which i wanted to buy...... really wish to buy new bag.... XD..... cant wait to buy..... but must think twice......
had hair dyed...... finally...... dyed twice..... and got the colour which i wan.... lucky hair still soft.... sis very envy.....
tomorrow holiday....... gotta attend leadership meeting...... very sianz...... dont wanna go....... but must go....... hope to buy nice and gd bag..... =D
SELAMAK HARI RAYA...........
Monday, January 09, 2006
shop shop shop
yesterday....... its the first time that i shop for my things........ whahaha....... so cool...... especially with shih hong....... he's best in killin price..... lol
met up with weijue.... and we played pool........ sigh...... playin with him.... lol.... shouldn say much....
then we went to meet sh and we went to peninsula..... i was so embarrassed when i told him that i dont know whats and wheres peninsula...... and he was totally shock and laughed..... zZzz
anyway... we walked around the whole place....... aimming for things we wanted...... and weijue found his boxers.... and bought it..... and...... i found a belt which is simple and nice....... whahaha..... purely white....... but shih hong told me that the price stilll can be reduced..... hmmmm true true.... but i still bought it... we continued walkin....... and i foudn a bag which i wanted very much !!!!!!!! ahhhhhhh !!! but shih hong told me..... "mai mai mai"..... its either buy(in chinese) or dont wan (in hokkien)....... at first i almost buy cos of that 'mai mai mai'..... lol......
then we went to suntec........ and bought a wallet which i wanted long ago........ glow in the dark..... heh heh heh......... and the sales gal there were very funny....... i gave her my atm card..... which i put a game character sticker........ and she was shock at first...... and then askin why the card so special....... at first i thought she was askin her collegue..... then...... her collegue asked her who she's askin..... and she was sayin bout me........ which she thought im disturbin her as i didn answer her question....... whahaha........ then i faster reply no no no..... bla bla bla .......... then next..... her collegue told her....... "dont flirt with costumers ar"......... o_O.......... lol...... nvm.
next..... we went to arcade....... i played "marvel vs capcom 2'...... but lost halfway..... lol..... next..... the three of us played 3 kingdom........ and a china guy joined us...... but we three died quite fast....... wahahhaa....... very fun man.... first time 3 ppl play together...... then...... i play crazy taxi !!!!!!! whahaha...... i pity the both of them....... cos i play that game pretty long........ half an hour for 1 credit ??? ehehehe.... and shih hong was tellin me....... if next time we ever go to arcade....... i better stay outside =X.....
then we went back to parkway..... to find ci qing....... and boon bing joinned us......... and we played pool...... chang boon also joinned us....... so that makes 6 of us...... 2 ppl per table........ whahaha...... i almost lost to ci qing......... 2-4....... the game is race to 5..... but in the end i won him.... whahhaha..... sudden change of luck i guess...
then we went home........ i still wanna buy a bag !! T_T...... and shop shop shop..... so nice to shop..... whahaha.......
Sunday, January 08, 2006
Boring......
Bored as usual........ woke up and nth better to do........ just practice finish piano.......... went to the kitchen......... no food to be found....... only the smell of the "Kimchi" which is full of garlic smell...... and the smell is strong enough to chase away all the vampires......
yesterday........ bored to death...... think slept quite early...... but still disturb by the garlic smell.... had a chat with mom...... first time we ever talked so much..... and first time i ever see her smile..... and her smile is very very very sweet...... sweet enough to make me faint..... =X.... ya... we were talking bout operation thingy...... then comes to music....... then....... diet..... she notice i haven been eating much lately..... smart mom~... and she told me that its important to eat..... maybe she's worried i will be like last time...... where i didn eat anything for a week..... and she was so shock and angry....... lol.....
felt so touched by her concern.... though im always stuck myself into com or piano...... sis brought back a book of 100 love songs...... wah piang...... 100 songs....... enough to kill me..... and i tried a few....... all of them very nice...... but the difficult part is bout timing..... not the notes..... tricky....
just now also watched Naruto epi 166(special epi)...... as usual...... naruto saved the day...... somehow i envy him....... friends..... bravery..... and of course surprise......
dont think will be goin chingay tonight...... wanna go out..... but no one to find to go with....... sigh~~
yup....... thats all....... tata~~
Saturday, January 07, 2006
o_O...
Yesterday didn blog...... came home late as i was helpin Jane to record a song for her sis to perform for her friend's bday... i think the recordin didn went well...... played wrong all the time.. =X...
yesterday is the best lesson for me... only 1 hr........ and then ZOOOOOOOOOOOM back home.. i think im the first one to leave the school........ but i went to clinic instead....... the queing was soooooooo long man..... sis and i waited for 10.30....... then everything finishs at 2......... zZzzz....
Teaching under Karen was soooooooooo gd !!!! im really evny the dudes under her......... weikang they all....... sigh.... my group.... 4 gals and me... and i being their leader........ Mr yap is bullyin me man....... zZzz
when he called out group A....... the first 4 is gals....... and i thought i wont be with them..... who knows Mr Yap called out a name which is similar to mine......... and its mine... =/..... i mean.... how come man..... sigh~
at night...... went to geylang kaikan......... (ya la... near the AHEM AHEM place)..... lol........ and test out the costumes..... wah piang....... the clothing and pants....... make me look like a scuber diver man......... super tight...... and got the slimmy slimmy look....... but the robotic outfit is cool man.............. me...... as usual..... being big size....... givin the peeps lots of trouble..... to find the actual size for me... whahaha...... sry peeps....... and my left leg hurts like mad when i wore them...
then went to susy's house... played few songs there......... and left..........
now........ my lessons....... with mr PHILLIP (i think)...... starts at 11...... and here im still at home....... its 4 th day since school starts.......... and i start to feel drifted away from the rest.... perhaps its the holiday that causes this........ i didn talk much to the rest to them....... dont know why........ its not i dont wan........ i've nth to say....... its just sad...... like i've been missed out lots of things...... still...... i dont want the to happen..... Jovan have quit school........ and i think im the last to know..... and i was shock like mad....... jovan called me on tuesday and asked me for bus direction to parkway..... i thought he didn come to school cos he wanna slack or something........ then i heard from others........ i mean... its quite sad for ppl to quit....... but anyway...... all the best to Jovan........ somehow....... i have the feeling of givin up...... studyin in NAFA........ just felt inferior to the rest....... felt like....... being stupid that i cant understand the modules....... but...... mom and dad always told me not to give up your dreams..... etc etc........ well...... maybe just give 'WHATEVER' best i've got.....
think i've nth to write bout now....... tata~
Thursday, January 05, 2006
Chingay..... XD.....
I 
WAS
HERE
now.. we spotted more inside the cage.. =X
The three of us spotted something above the stairs... (and the guy drew very realistic !!)
uh oh... its not what it seems..... hahaha... i need two more of that to complete the "WOLVERINE" image.. hahaha....
This is the art by...... oh sharks.... i forgot his name.. anyway... the black thing looks like a century egg... haha =X
School....
Yesterday cant sleep... but i slept early... at 9 plus... and i really cant sleep T_T....
tossing myself around my bed for every hour... and cant stop yellin cos of my leg ... boo hoo...
woke up 7 plus... mom didn go to work today... havin off... and we both talked bout the operation thingy and the braces thingy.... and told me bout the foods that sis and i gonna eat during holiday... really sad.. no 'buddha jump over the wall' for chinese new year. SO SAD !! T_T.... mom is really great in cookin that...
then... she applied cream on my wound... she's damn violent man !!! T_T....
then... went to school.. history is boring as usual... worst... got new portfolio to do... 'score-reading'.... sigh..
went to eat... think today is the last day that i ever ate so much.. really have no appetite since yesterday....
that idiot si han... keep disturbin my leg... GRR &@#$&@#^$&%@#... nvm !!! i shall have my revenge... muahahahaha... kidding...
went to theatre to listen Mr Adam's speech... jia lat man.. talked alot.... and that si han still kak jiao my leg... grrr..... nvm... then next we will be havin sight singing together with year 2... cool man... but 2 hours !!!.... but for today... we will be goin GAI GAI !!! whahhaa... some art musium...
now im in com lab... that kuku si han disturb my leg again... zZzzz... lol
right.... gtg now... this com is freakin lag.. =/... tata~~
very nervous for operation...
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
First experience.....
yesterday didn blog....... had my leg bandaged....... why ??? cos i fell down while chasin ppl...... cos of flour !!!!!! lol...... and the scratches........ is scary....... the wound is super red lo....... even when the blood is dry..... i thought still got blood..... scary.......
and....... worst..... i cant have my beauty sleep !!!!!!! oh man !!!!! T_T....... tears really flow out from my eyes.....
woke up at 7..... really cant sleep...... worst..... i cant get up........ my left leg is kinda serious........ but for my right is gettin better...... even the medic told me to see doctor....... T_T.....
anyway....... had our harmony lessons..... watched a video bout harmony...... how its form..... and how it was improved one...... lazy to tell more details.....
went to pay school fees..... really cant walk properly....... then went to Alexandra hospital with my sis.......... the waitin was kinda long.......
my dentist is Dr Vivien Tan........ when she first saw me... she was shock that i looked different from my ic...... haha....... funny thing is...... normally a patient sits onto the special chair through the right side....... well...... i walked one big round....... and goes in from upper left........ Dr Tan looked at me.......
"wow...... how ya managed to get in by there??? your the first patient that ever goes in by there.... it shows that you never visit dentist regulary ar..."
oh my....... she got me !!!!! whahahaha...... so embarrassed man !!..... then...... she asked bout my school...... studyin in poly??? nope.... its NAFA...... and she looked at me again.....
"NAFA got music course??? i didn know !!"
hahaha..... funny........ then comes to the funniest part...... she was shocked to look at my teeth...... then asked me to follow this nurse..... whom she called her 'astronauts'...... cos she dress likes one..... and the three of us laughin non stop........ super nice man !!!!!
then took my x ray..... and went back to her........ she wanted to make a mould for my teeth..... but....... my teeths are super big !!!! and she couldn get the exact size for my mouth..... she asked the nurse to get the biggest size......
when she brought....... i was shock...... bigger then my mouth !!!!! but she said...... "hahaa..... NO.... i think its still smaller than your mouth.... or even fits nicely..."
and she put it in...... the mould taste HORRIBLE MAN !!!!!!!! and she was right...... the mould fits my mouth exactly......
"what a big mouth you have =D"
oh my..... so embarassed !!!!! T_T....
next...... my sis and i went to scaling........ the dentist..... was also surprised that im from NAFA...... why ??? cos he also learnt piano be4..... he failed grade 7 & 8........ then....... her sis is also in NAFA !!!!!!!!!!!! takin music piano this year !!!!!!!! well.... today is her first day of the access course......
and we both talked alot while he was cleanin my teeth..... he wont blame me for the extra dirt in my teeth....... he also couldn get them out or not....... the location is very bad for my teeth..... sigh....
next..... went back to Dr Tan....... explained to me and sis bout the procedure of the operation for our wisdom tooth..... ya...... we went to Dr Wu later......
she told us the same thing.... but more exact...... boy...... i needa pluck out 8 teeth !! T_T...... while sis is 4.... but mine is bit cheaper than her...... cos i'll be doin 'General Anaesthesia'..... which they will KNOCK me into sleep.... (thats what Dr Tan told me)....... then they will do the rest.....
now....... im worried that durin the operation...... i will get up and go toilet........ very scary like that.....
and now...... im super giddy...... thanx to the X-ray........ think im gonna sick soon.....
and..... my operation will be on 25 Jan..... 11am...... sadded..... its be4 chinese new year.... and my face will swallon like mad....... 'red pig'?? and its my first time goin operation...... =S
right..... im very tired now..... night guys....... =D
Monday, January 02, 2006
Before countdown...... after everyone get wet.... =X whahaha
After steamboat at susy house...... XD....... argh..... what a blur pic =X
My story.....
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS !!!!!!!!!!!! its 2006 !!!!!!!!!! forget the happenings in 2005 and head ahead in 2006...... let bygone be bygone!!!!!!
right...... just came back from Susy's house.......... had steamboat.......... really fullin....... the sistas stop their eating..... but i still continue for them....... whahaha..... what a pig am i ........... hahaha......
then we had our fun playin water balloons..... and played guessing games....... if the player lose...... will have to be splashed by water...... but if the reaction is fast enough...... can prevent the splashin by openin the umbrella....... yup........ we played "hei bai pei"....... then "HAI DAI HAI DAI"......(very funny !!!) ....... and then "jiou jiou cheng fa biao"....... its a number game... whahaha..... its very very fun....... in the end everybody got wet themselves......
later~...... its 11 plus pm already !!!!!!!! and we went to see the fireworks....... hahaha....... be4 we knew that the countdown starts........ we were yelling happy new year......... much much earlier than the actual count down....... =S........ whahaha....... so pai seh lo......... cos we were the only one that yell like hell...... whahaha......
haiz........ time flies really fast than you actually expected......
we went back to susilo's house........... and we ate her "tiramisu"...... specially made by her....... SUPER NICE !!!!!!!!!!!!!! with cherries......... then li ting told us that if we were able to tangle the stem of the cherries using the tongue....... means that your a good kisser......hahaha...... then chang boon, me, li ting and jane try it out...... jane tried a few times and puke the stem out...... sayin that its disgustine..... haha........ chang boon wont give up..... he die die must be a good kisser..... whaha....... then...... li ting done hers......... hahaha congrats la for bein a good kisser.... =X............ then........... i manage to tangle the stem !!!!!! whahaha......... =X..... then finally chang boon.......... haha...... all of us are good kisser =X......
then....... we talked bout family thingy...... li ting shared hers bout she and her sis....... then her parents..... then jane bout her parents.......... followed by chang boon's dad and his relatives....... and they asked that if we are closer to mom or to dad..... well... majority of them is mom.... but mine is definately dad...
after hearing all their stories...... i felt quite fortunate........ that my parents never ever had a serious quarrels until divorce thingy...... but sadly..... he left us....... i couldn tell my stories to them......... my tongue was stucked........ not because of the cherry ar....... its because........ i keep thinkin of the past........ almost cried out loud.... but i ran out of tears......
so...... SISTAS............. i will tell my story here......
my mom left malaysia and came to singapore when she was 14...... and my dad's dad was her guardient...... then....... thats how they met each other........ until they married...... so romantic man !!!!!!!! well...... dad is 6 years older than mom........ but i never ever see him bring out his ego whenever mom tells him bla bla bla bla ~~~.....
anyway.... dad's mom died when he was 14..... its really sad...... then his dad??? HAH!!!...... foolin around with women...... and in the end got 5.. 6.. or 7 wives....... includin dad's mom.....
well...... cant blame..... he's bloody rich..... he once opened a ACID factory...... thats where my dad burnt his arm skin bit.... but my 2nd uncle??? he fell INTO THE BIG POT !!! and his right leg skin was cooked....... ewwwwwwww........ nvm......... when he make a fortune........ he opened another factory...... soup factory....... then all his fortune....... gave to his wives...... not to his kids...... idiot....
dad really had a hard time earn and study........ his eldest brother took care of him...... and ya..... he's very strict and fierce !!..... he once beat my 2nd uncle with his belt..... cos of his reluctant of studyin......... and now...... my 2nd uncle is workin in a company..... highly paid.... cool~...
well...... mom and dad got married...... then first gave birth to my sis.......
my sis was born very chubby...... and once ppl said that she's " FEI NIU !!!"...... and she got mad and lost 2 kg for 3 years old gal !!!! thats serious !!.... hahaha....... then..... mom had me....... dad and mom asked my sis that whether will she mind to have a younger siblings..... she didn mind..... and when i was born.........
life's a living hell for her....... =X....... i kept bullyin her..... bite her........ and ya bully her.... until now i felt remorseful.... lol.... i was a rascal back then...... but mom and dad really pampered both of us....... dad loved us very much...... and he really feed me until i damn fat.....
when he was drivin from work........ he got a heart attack...... and almost died when i was 4..... luckly........ with the GOHONZON....... (my religon thingy)......... dad manage to escape death......
i give lots of problem to my parents....... but they still loved me....... and now im really really touched when i think back...... of course mom did beat me... punished me...... whenever i did something terribly wrong........ won a fight with a P6 guy when i was 5 (dad once taught me tekwando)....... OMG LA.......... thats serious man........ lol..... i couldn believe that myself...... i was terrible........
oh ya......... dad's temper is really bad....... whenever he comes to angry..... its hell........ once mom and dad got quarrelled...... and he raised his right hand....... then....... mom said something....... "my husband will never ever hit me...."....... then.... dad laughed..... since then....... dad didn raised his hands on her........ thats a guy i admired....
i was very close to dad.... compared to mom....... but..... if you asked me to choose between them...... i die die must choose two........ if there's no choice...... i'll leave alone......
my bond with dad was a unbreakable one...... of course dad with sis........ he let us study music...... and everytime whenever i got practical or theory exam...... he will always bring us.... and wait.... for the good news......
sharks....... tears is flowin now....... ahem... anyway....
my PSLE result got 170+...... but dad didn scold me....... instead...... he bought me a PLAYSTATION........ its quite popular back then...... and i really cherish that playstation..... until now......
when i mixed with bad companies durin pri....... he will scold them....... and of course lecture me.... when secondary school......... i got top position for class... but 5th for level........ dad was happy...... and i received scholarship award...... have to shake hands with Mr Goh Chiok tong....... haha..... ( for 5 years !!!! XD).... whenever i got bullied in sec school.... dad always stood up for me...... even in pri school.... i was once accused of copyin SCIENCE paper..... and i was ganged by the teachers.... forcin me to say i copied....... SCREW THEM....... but dad didn scold me..... he went to principal... and sort it out...... luckly...... the principal is very nice...... she also believed me......
on the day of july 17 2001....... dad looked very exhausted....... he even scolded me..... i once always wanna break my voice..... cos i wanna win my friend....... nonsense man... anyway...... he told me this "Breakin voice doesn count whether you are matured or not....... what counts is your head....". Until now i remember that phrase.... After my school...... he called home..... he really sounded exhausted.... and i know something is funny..... nvm........ at night..... he came home...... he brought my sis and my favourate show !!!!!! TAXI 2 !!!!!!!!! a france show....... its super nice..... i love cars back then...... and dad was super high....... he's super happy and highy spirited really scares me...... its out of sudden...... and he ate dinner with mom.... happily...... and went out for religon meetin.........
he's a conductor of Men division choir..... a chapter leader of my religon...... and got respect from everyone ...... includin the General director of Singapore Soka Association..... he was a respectful man....... and i looked upon him....
anyway..... that night..... sis received a call from Aunty jessie..... dads friend...... that dad fainted.... and was sent to Changi hospital......
the three of us rushed to the hospital...... and all the leaders was there..... guiding us to the operation room..... and i knew it..... something did happen...... all of us prayin in the hospital...... and a stupid nurse came and told us to lower down our volume...... SO IDIOT LO !!!!!!!! ARGH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then..... the red light was switched off...... a doctor came out......... told us....... "we tried.....but its too late........ the body lacks of oxygen" something like that.......... and mom told me in chinese..... ( she doesn speak english)...... "your dad is gone......." ....
and my sis and i cried on the spot..... lucky for sis...... she got a hug from Linda jie jie...... while....... i cried against the wall...... i've no one to go to..... and mom was......... cryin....... for once....... i seen her cried........ and its very loud......... mom is a very smart woman...... but she's fierce.... and i didn dare to speak to her...... cos...... she's the one always punished me......
we went into the operation room.. mom held dad's hand....... cryin super loud....... and speak something in cantanese (they always speak with that language... thats how i understand cantanese).. and.......... since i was so pampered....... my first thought was...... "omg...... who will i turn to? who will i share my happiness with?? who will i share my troubles.... who will support us.."..... all sorts of thought came into my mind.....
then sis and i went back home...... while mom went to do the procedure....
i looked into the com.... (dad was a computer freak)..... i watched the videos that dad took with webcam...... of the converstation between dad... my sis.. and me....... i was super shy towards camera.... and they laughed at me...... that i act like a stone....... and i kept cryin non stop...... talkin to myself...... really.... its terrible..... i've no one to turn to now...... a man to man talk.... (dad once told me that)....
mom came home..... she looked at me talkin to myself..... and she came and hugged me..... tellin me that.... dad's a wonderful man..... and its damn true....... and tellin me that how much she missed him too...... she also cried on the phone to 2nd uncle..... since he's the closest to dad.. and he treat us super good..... gave the house to us....... GAVE...
for the past few days.... i've done something wrong.... and made him angry..... and i didn have the chance to apologise to him....... or even say..... "i love you"... though we always said " OHAIOTSUMINASITE (meanin good night in jap)"....
then sis called the school that i couldn make it to school...... and i just remember back then...... that i had a Piano-yang qin duet performance with Zhineng...... the teachers asked me to perform some piano songs during essembly....... the next thing i know........ my friends called me....
during the funeral........ i kept standin beside dad's coffin...... keep talkin to him.... and every relatives of mine told me that.... my dad looked really pretty and handsome..... even though he died....... i was touched....
then the most touchin thing i knew was........ mom told me....... "dad had bought you a handphone.... he supposed to give you on your birthday...... but now....".......... then........ i started cryin very loud....... that i really really touched by his surprise..... but....... i didn wan handphone now...... i wanted dad.........
dad always loved the rock songs..... especially by AEROSMITH..... and a song by brian adams "everything i do.... do it for you...."........ then i sang the song beside his coffin.....
i've skipped the NDP 2001 practices cos of this....... and he always brought me back home and there... and durin the ride..... i always share things with dad...... we both really talked alot..... he sometimes taught me some dialect..... vulgar..... =X..... naughty dad..... haha..... but other than that...... he really teaches me life....and often brought me to his work...... and our bondin have been tightened each time... but now...... im all alone...... no one to share to..... i've no bro...... only sis and mom...... but sometimes..... gals dont understand guys....... but..... its ok to share with them.....
durin the last day of his funeral...... lots lots lots of ppl came !!.... they flooded the whole place..... ppl from my religon....... and his relatives..... my eldest uncle (an actor once)..... told me that..... he watched him born..... and now.... he watched him died......... and his tears flowing...... includin my 2nd uncle..... he told me that if he's selfish and didn go to the meeting that night........ he might be still around......... ya.... i did think of that..... but dad still insist to go...... why ??? cos..... he wanna tell the ppl a message....... that " there are two kinds of ppl in this world....... 'hao' ren...... and 'ao' ren......) i still remember that....... he wants ppl to live happily.....
no wonder lots of ppl came durin his funeral....... mom told me that...... he once helped lots of ppl...... and lots of ppl cryin durin the funeral...... they were shocked dad passed away...... one day he looked healthy..... next...... he's in his death bed..... i was shocked too..... no once expected that....
durin the day of burnin his body........ at Mandai....... lots of ppl went..... includin my mom's siblings from malaysia...... lots of them......... they cried very badly....... friends of my dad..... also cried badly when his body slowly enters the fire........ only mom.. me and sis kept cool...... we ran out of tears back then... really no tears...... then we left and went back home......
when i go back to school....... everyone pad my shoulder and tried to console me....... and i realised that on my performance day...... my item was cancelled..... and my dicipline master.... told everyone the news on the stage...... omg........
no wonder i received lots of call durin dad's funeral......
and now....... 1st january 2006....... studyin NAFA......... couldn have the chance to tell dad how much im proud of him as a father..... tellin him how much i missed him.....
whenever ppl asked me bout my dad.... i lied to them...... i didn wan sympathy from them...... i didn wan to let ppl know...... i didn want...... i dont know why.......... Sry ar Evan....... that i lied to you.....
but since dad left...... i start to learn and live independently.... i've always relied of him..... took things for granted........ and now..... i hate myself for that....... i really really hate myself.... how i wished that the person who died is me..... not my dad..... a wonder man...... but since im alive....... my dreams was to be like him......... a lovin father....... a loving husband..... and a gd man...... i wan to bring his name up when i grow up in my religon.......
yesterday 31 dec 2005..... a award will be givin my dad..... something bout leader thingy....... and sis went instead me........ i dont know how to face the ppl..... i once believed that it was my religon that took my dad's life away... and i once neglect it.......... until this year's YCF........ mom told me that dad was once in a gymnastic also.....
now..... i missed dad really really much........ everytime whenever i go out...... i always sees a happy family...... a dad laughes with his son........ jokes together....... and showed their care for them......... i really missed mine........
how i wished that i could see him once more and tell him and mom........ " F-ather A-nd M-other, I L-ove Y-ou"...... *FAMILY*....
peeps... sry for the long blog today..... well... its new year..... and life start afresh......and pls...... treasure your family..... dont take things for granted..... until you regret...... like me....... how much i've regretted...... but now...... im treasurin my mom....... since she's alone now.... i shouldn let her worry so much..... but im really glad she's happy now..... since sis and i start to communicate with her daily....
now... im feelin better after sharin my story.... ^_^.....
well have a fun holiday... ;)
