Tuesday, February 27, 2007
disappointment...
Returned back to singapore last sat... its a sad parting for us... and for the first time in my life... im missing my grandparents though i dont know them well... i can hardly know them well since my cantonese wasnt that good..
life in school is getting more and more busy... had sleepless nights and slept pretty late...
concert was boring.. but the vocalist is good.. very very bright voice..
why must she come?! why must i have to see her again ?! why ?!?!
presentation sucks to the core... i ruined everything.... im clueless of what im doin... pissed with myself... social life............ somehow sucked too....
i .....m....... such a disappointment....
Monday, February 19, 2007
Day 2
Another boring day here... was awaken by my 4th aunt while she was calling me... everyone in mom's family are all the same... loud and loud.... their way of communication sounded as if they are scolding each other... scary...
was brought to a nearby coffee shop to eat breakfast... Ipoh's bee hoon is delicious !!!　mom made me mad... telling me not to eat so much... then after that tell me to eat more cos its breakfast... i was confused.. and kinda pissed... and all my aunts were telling me to eat all of them.. bah...
went to grandparent's place to slack again... really nth to do there.. other than watching tv...
luckily 4th uncle was smart enough to go shopping for slippers... yes.. i bought myself a new slippers.... and its real cheap... but the quality wasnt that good.. but its good for the price... S$ 10
their best and good quality shopping centre is somehow similar to parkway's... but not as good as orchard.. but its considered good in malaysia.. singapore kids are soooooooooo lucky... and spoilt.... really... malaysia kids arent that lucky to go such places... thats why they are rich.... for my cousins... cos they dont spent much on shopping... but !! they spent most of their money on games..... bah...
the cost of the foods in foodcourt are soooo cheap.... S$1.50 for their famous hotplate noodles... singapore will be selling about S$6.. tsk... money suckers...
went back to grandparent's place... really really really relaly bored to death.. i rather stay at 6th aunt's place to do my compo... ah Kang is smart (eldest son of 6th aunt)... stay at home.. pretend to be sleeping dead... so that he can stay at home... geez.. how i wish i've done the same thing... Ah Di... was pissed for unable to go to shopping with us.... cos not enough space for him....
Ah Boy is so lucky i tell you.. his gf live just beside him.... wow... so so..... so........................................................
ok... better do my work now.. tata~
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Malaysia truly asia~!~
After 9 long hours of travel from singapore to IPOD..... i mean Ipoh.... my butt is gonna grow some pulse... or palse.. or something... its horrible... the weather is very cool outside and you can see the stars clearly here than in malaysia !!!
all the aunts were soo happy to see us and kept telling how different we looked compared to last visit... and all the cousins here have changed too... all grew already... taller.... and looking better...
Grandparent's place is sooooo kampong like !!! this is where mom used to grow up at!! wow.... oh ya... just realised that mom's family have 10 kids.. not 8... didn know where that 2 come from... we ate.... ate.... and sleep.... after the 9 hours of journey... is making us feeling letargic... very tiring.. my cousins taught us how to play majong... hmmm won 4 times straight in the beginning.. and later start to lose real bad... anyway im not into majong.. heard that it's addictive..
ate real alot today.... and thats all we did today... eat eat and eat.... im so sad that initially i wanna do compo here.. but i didn bring my thumb drive !!! darn it !!! luckly i've remembered them...
all my cousins have grown prettier and more handsome... basically all of them have dimples !!!! including the guys...so it is true that kids in ipoh are very good looking... except for me... oh well... doesn matter.... im pretty upset at my 2nd cousin... whom i dotted the most... cos he's so obedient and stuff.. now he's rather rebellious... have a motobike.. since licences are not compulsory... all the kids here have motobike... and its funny... like our bicycle... anyway... im just upset... hope he'll change.. shall pray for him...
now... im so sianz.. cos i cant settle the connections to my laptop... and blablablabla...
lastly... im goin to bathe now.... tata~~
its your choice...
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Last
Concert is over... and its very sad.... a farewell to the year 3s.... our wonderful seniors... im gonna be so lonely... in my section.. and hatred will grow in me..... !@#$!#$ nvm...
anyway.. concert was great.. i hope..
haha... weiping's face..
ahhhhh better one..
My wonderful senior... will always remember him!!
the switch!!
Lower string sect..
hah... the triooooo
and lastly... eh !!! sorry... wrong one.. sa lah !! wrong concert... hah
Ah.. better....
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
What went wrong ?!
He has never fail to make me pissed and upset......!!! yes !!! you.. .and i mean you !!! the baldheaded good C*NDUCTOR of heat !!! accusing and scolding wrongly once is enough already.....
and yet.. today i received it again...... darn it..... its so not my day today... i did most of the harmony presentation stuff like previous year..... this is probably the 3rd time doin most of it.... why must i be a leader ?! i dont and i cant manage ppl well....... sigh..... its not them.... its me.... i can handle it.....
thought by goin rehearsals and practice.. will relief the stress of academic work..... i guess i was wrong.... i hate mozart!!! for being such a kuku to be a genius !! seriously....... his genius almost killed everyone..... and i mean everyone of us !!! ......... and so beethoven...... nvm them....
i almost flared and walked out of the hall today.... i seriously almost did that..... and argue with him....... why must he always always always pick on me ?!?!?!?! why do i looked that ugly to be picked on ?! why ?!?!!
arghhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want holiday !! to do my own stuff!!
it'll be very very sad that not many ppl interested for tomorrow's concert where everyone of us get scolded every every every everyday to make it a wonderful one......
pity......
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Downhill...
As i have expected... i might not get in... "it wont be a surprise if i cant get in.... or if i can get in.." Sounds weird... but i agree with ps teacher...
audition was horrible... many of the peeps were able to audit until the sight reading section whereas mine.... "ok thats all for today.. you may leave".........
so damn!!!...... though its not the end of the world as if i cant live without AYO... but it'll be a great experience... anyway.. there's always another time...
im able to say that.. but i cant do it... my mind is full of frustrations... i tried to console myself.. pray... chanting... but still no use.... i needa sleep... a good sleep especially..
i often compared myself to other ppl... cos they are too good... whereas im just a tiny dot to them.... its really really hard to progress two instrument at the same time.. yet there are many ppl who can... I hate it.. that my abilities werent that great...
Ironically... for 2 consecative days... i came across few books... saying that.. "Don't let yourself to compare yourself to others... You have your own qualities..." ya... my abilities is to compare myself to others... and felt demoralising...
but they deserved it... for the talented ones and hardworkin ones... my hardwork have gone to waste.... i hope not.. felt like giving up... yet i cant.... its horrible.....
anyway... I really wish to run at the beach once again... to scream and to clear the horrible thoughts away......
darn it... i hate myself to fail many times....
still... work hard once again~
This frustrations are killing me.... everything..... and i mean everything...
Friday, February 02, 2007
Its over......... in some sense....
Back to bloggin again.... and many many things have happened... busying prepare for AYO audition.... school work... school concert... bunch of presentations are waiting for me... this is just killing me...
still.. i busy myself by watching prison break even though i dont have much time left... crap~ but the plot and all the plannin is way attractive...
right now...... im super upset... stressed again....
Help me God.........
