Thursday, April 26, 2007
Oh yes !! i may not be needed to go school to practice anymore !! whahaha.. since i have new bass at home for me to slowly devour the time to practice..... whahaha.. after getting all my gadgets from school... really no need for me to go back.. heh
so many things have to do even though its holiday: practice..... practice... and practice...; teaching... teaching and teaching; rehearsals here and there and comes to performance... this sunday havin performance at ICA... the duet is cancelled so comes to my Dbass solo... heh heh my first public performance for dbass solo !! heh.. and i'll bet no one there will ever know there's solo for dbass... i've asked few of my friends..... and none of them thought that dbass can produce a wonderful solo sound !! heh..
Just borrowed Phoenix Wright 2 from my pianist..... woot !! i just love that lawyer-investigation game !!! its fun to use all your brain cells and become 'senile'... where i'll forget things easily after playing that game.... sharks !!
haven been touching anime for long time already... sick of the waiting and its kinda childish already... heh .......
anyway..... there's not much time to waste !! lets work hard !!!!!!
Sunday, April 22, 2007
The Phanton of the Opera....
INDEED..... the musical was fantastic !!!!! I LOVE IT!!!!!!! WOOOOOO........ there's too many to compliment about it !!!!! but all i can conclude was that their singing was very strong !!!! powerful !!!!!! that my soul almost left my body !!!
however... there's an ass who's phone alarm went off..... and keeps on ringing... without take the initiative or even feel paiseh to turn it off !!!!! what the hell..... so frustrating... not only once !!! twice !!!!! and trice !!!! it always went off when the climate almost went to the top !!!!!
really the PHANTOM OF THE OPERA man!!!! see the joke? phantom of opera is when someone disturbs an opera.. just like the show..... the phantom disturbs all oepra...... and NOW !!!! THIS DUDE's IRRITATING NOISY PHONE WAS DISTURBING !!! SO HE's ANOTHER PHANTOM OF OPERA !!!
argh!!!!! nvm... its over....... but i really enjoy it...
I LOVE IT !!!!!! all the cast are so funny !!!! hilarious.. and i cant stop laughin.... wow
i spent 80+ for their goodies..... CDs.... glow in the dark shirt.... their programme booklet (25)...
ok i wanna listen to the songs now....... i really enjoy it!!! WOOT !!!!
Love, Compassionate, Courage
Yesterday for the first time.... actually roller bladed from my house, all the way to chang area... through dangerous mini adventures i had with the peeps... cars were busy horning at me especially where i almost fell and get crushed by it... cos of their horn !
roller bladed and cycled for 4-5 hours !!!! wow..... how much sweat we've lost.. heh
anyway... i went to Music Therapy workshop in SYC.. too bad they didn attend... its a very good workshop where Hui Min, our previous IIC, returned from UK (sorry my mistake for those whom i've told Germany)... she taught us the reason of Music Therapy than other... basic reason was... " can you cover your ears for very long period? " and another reasons were "it was rhythm that keeps us moving" & "Kids can use songs to communicate when they cant speak" (to certain illness where the left-side of your brain unable you to speak but you can actually sing)
She attended this kid who is (to me) anti-social... where his teachers and friends wanna communicate to him, yet he either turned his head away or stares at them blankly...
so what she did was... first taught him a 'hello song' to say hello to ppl using song... and then communicate with him through playing percussion (its for the effect of attention).. and its hilarious where Hui Min played a symbol when that kid was still wacking the drum... and then stared at her !!! so cute and funny...
and after their 6 sessions (its like an attachment), that kid actually tried to communicate with his peers and teachers !! and when she came back to see him.. he was actually screaming around the room, running around !!! so interesting !!!!
for those who having hearing disabled... they will ask them to sit on the wooden floor and play percussion.. its because of the vibration on the flooor.. but she never continued how it was done..
ok today... for my 2nd time.. i went to Kbox... i sang horribly... too soft when sang higher pitch... and got memory lapst... anyway.. i shall never sing again... must try..
yay.. i bought new bass !!!! wooooot.. its actually the one that i've used for my exam.. i like it... this time... really.... i must take good care of it... i really hope it wont happen again... the damage and stuff... really.. i have this phobia...
ate steamboat at marina bay.... whoa.... darn filling !!!!! as usual... the first one to be the weakest link... where i ate the least.. but drank the most (water)..
ok.. Wee Liang shared with me about being compassionate towards others... that we must be compassionate by loving one an another... without saying 'i hate you' 'i detest/despice you'.... when you see someone doing wrong things.. especially your friends... you'll inform them... however towards stranger... the modern days are very tough.. where ppl will find you weird, irritating or will reply 'MYOB' (SBS bus's favourite advertisement)
Love... its not by saying I Love You just being by your side... or bla bla...... loving someone is when you want them to grow... allowing their dreams to come true by support them.. and not because of your selfishness that spoil their happiness... its like father teaching his son crossing a drain compared to the one carrying his son over..... on the surface..... the one carrying his son over SHOWS he love him..... however that wont made his son grow by thinking of ways to cross over..... the one teaching his son crossing over... is the love that is actually PURE.... thats for an example..
giving a person a trial and making him think of a ways to overcome is the true love...
Courage is most essential part of our life.. being courageous to start something new is where you learn, have courage to 'trial and error'.... have courage to accept failure..... have courage to perform (for my case), have courage to..... OOPS MY NOSE IS BLEEDING !!!!! must be too much steamboat..... go take tissue and stuff into nose..
ok... as i was saying... have courage to pursue your dreams.... thats important.... have courage to listen things that you dont want.... have courage not to hate..... have courage to accept change..
there's alot of courage catagory.... saying is easy than done...... but to have courage.... must be compassionate !
ok... after all the talking.... let the photos tell more.....
The rejection.. ho ho ho !! (Dont worry LT.. you still got chance... heh heh)
Bagus !!! with my hand..
Hmmmm o_O?
when you had too much steamboat.... whahahahahahaha..
hmmm.... *chewing chewing*
when you chew too much.. hah
what the food sees from inside-the-mouth inside..
Finally.. US !!!!! XD
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Incredible...
Went back and forth to school from my student's place.... taught for 2 hours again without noticing.. hah.. and free dinner by them again... its so embarrassing !! and they bought me a gift.. some delicious mini-egg and a sweater from taiwan.. ooooo i love it !! thanks a bunch !
never knew that holiday can be still busy as ever ! just glad that i managed to contact my pri friends.. even though some of us quarrelled/ fight in the past, but now all of them are so nice to each other and stuff. Hah.. ppl grows...
Never knew composing a song can be hard... bunch of my songs are halfway done... and of course im lazy to continue.. which is.. a NO NO! (not referring to taiwanist host)
anyway.. im happy that i'll be having another student !!! ahhh... my prayers have been answered !!
thats all for now.... very tired and faminished... bah...
(If only you could see..... the tears....)
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Con-Vict-im
Just had 3 hours of lesson with Xu L*... time passed real quick without noticing !! both of us were busy havin lesson.. and i know, my right hand, as usual, the core problem of producin good music... ran through the third movement of Dittersdorf's concerto.... i love it.. the music of the piece is wonderful..
talkin about which..... im purchasing new bass... yes.. i need a new one.. and its 1st hand of course.. no more being a con-vict-im.... meaning 'im a victim of being conned'... prayed for 20 mins that i must sell away the one that im owning now... plsssss.....
learnt alot in lesson....
oh ya... its a joyful day~ i've settled the reassessment thingy.... its ok that i've lost the receipt !!! cos they do record it down..... but what's the main problem?!?! hah..... Dr K*n didn record it down !!! Jasclyn told me that normally the reassessment records is recorded by their lecturer themselves... see whats the prob now ?!
anyway.. im happy that i didn fail anything... great.. woot.. ya hoo~ booooo !! blahhhh.... bleagh!!!
i shall work even harder..
off to reading now.. tata~~
"Advance preparation is the root of Success"
Oh my goooooodnessssss !!!!!! receipt ar receipt.. where are youuuu
Finalllllly !!!!! Dr K*n replied my mail.... she too, was shocked that i failed! where i've confortably passed with 64%. (a C grade?! wow improvement from D grade !!! ).. she thought so that it was the admin's mistake that they didn keep it record.. all i have to do is to show them my receipt and VUOLA !!! but then.... Oh my....... im soooo frustrated and pissed with myself !!!!!! that i didn keep the receipt of the payment that i've paid for the reassessment last sem!! argh !!! >.<
i still cant believe it !!!! they didn keep a record !!! darn it !! blast you !!
finally.... today's study meeting is over !! i merely take a breathe there during the skit.... i was practically memorisin all the scripts..... where i was told that i dont have to where i can read it from script..... phew.... but stilll....... kinda sad that im not sure whether they have enjoyed it.... the girls seemed serious down there.... while minmin.... kept laughin.... but the guys laughed... the same dudes who we knew.... as usual... being myself, acting like a monkey samurai of this samurai Shijo Kingo... a faithful disciple of Daishonin.... He was so faithful and hardworking to his boss lord Ema... until the rest of the samurai got so jealous of him.. (ah hah!! the devilish part of human beings) that they ill speak of him to lord Ema..... for example, he received 10,000 yen of 'protection fees' and paid 2000 to the lord while keepin 8000 for himself to drink sake (thats where i acted like a crazy drunked monkey)...
in addition... shijo kingo was almost assasinated by some samurai.... until he almost giving up his life and wanted to become a priest.... Daishonin told him that:
"Kingo, u only think of escaping from your problems. That is cowardly. Though worldly trouble s may arise, never let them disturb you. Take every possible precaution. Those who hate you will be increasingly vigilant in watching for a chance to do you harm. Put a stop to all drinking parties at night. It is rare to be born a human being. The number of those endowed with human life is as small as the amount of earth one can place ona fingernail. Life as a human being is hard to sustain – as hard as it isfor the dew to remain on the grass. But it is better to live a single day with honor than to live to 120 and die in disgrace"
whoahh!!! after i hear this praise... even i myself got touched and inspired.....
Oh ya... i was mentioning about the books that i've started to pick up readin on.... First was comics... a boxing, though ppl says that reading comics might not help to improve your language... hmmm not really.... it does helped.. like introducing new words (to me of course, or maybe others?) and using weird words that i've never ever encounter before... like 'retaliate'.. yes yes i know.. im slow ! but hey.. to have reading as a hobby, i have to start some topic from your interest.. like for me... curry, romance and boxing comics...
now.. i've moved on to Roald Dahl's books.. Matilda... hilarious, The witch... laugh until cannot stop, Charlie and Mr Willy Wonka... dont even mention about it !! i cant stop laughin in the bus !!
and now... !!! the super now !! im reading on SHerlock Holmes... super chimilogy i tell you... but its fun to sit back and move your brain cells around in my shallow head =D ... however.. im still back in my boxing comics... im tired of anime... cos i always have to wait for a week for new episodes !! ahh !!
and for now again ....... i better solve this darn issue.. (the reassessment mistakes) to the office !
receipt ar receipt.. where are you ?!!?! T~T
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
A Joke ?!
Right... back again about the reassessment of the History.... i think its some kind of joke !! the reason i so-called have to reassess is due to the 'overdue payment of the reassessment fees' that i suppose to pay before reassessing some papers..... but the fact is that i've already paid before i retake that paper !!!! i remembered clearly that i thought it was 126.. and they told me is 100+ in the end...... then i have some extra pocket money........ (heh heh)
but nevertheless.... i did pay !!!!! and now i have to pay again ?! and retake again ?!?! some joke....... i must check it out..... its a must ! im not goin to pay 100 bugs for them as pocket money.... and not goin to sit that dumb paper again !! history shall be history !!!
so frustrating !!! felt so cheated ! T~T
practiced in school once and for all again... finally manage to get my butt to school rather than 'gai gai'..... suppose to roller blade yet this lazy butt of mine doesn wanna get up.... oh well.. tomorrow ya =D
its always tomorrow.. and 'tomorrow' never comes..
i've read the mini scripts for tomorrow's skit for the study meeting.... i think its hilarious.... i have to act some kind of a mental illness patient.... where i have to run around like a retard.. well i can act like one.... the problem is whether i overdo it.. and its hard not to...
its a joke..... totally !! in other words.... I DIDN FAIL ANYTHING FOR THIS SEMESTER!!!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Down~~town....
Went to IKEA with the sistaz....... haven been seeing them for quite sometime.. they looked the same as usual... funny.. as in they are funny.. not their looks hah... C.B's hair grew so long!! like a girl... with cq along... IKEA was flooded with people.. and we went there to eat... waited for seats for quite sometime... was really pissed with singaporeans at times... cos of their 'kiasuness' ! we waited for this seats for some time... and after the family ate finish and about to leave... some another aunty stole it from us.. cq was really pissed... so we starred at them... really into their eyes..
anyway... i dont really care.. thats how they wanna live it...
we were talking about our previous looks.. from fat to now.... and really.. we looked at our ICs.. and we cant stop laughin at it.. especially cq's and c.b's one
see what i mean?
walked around and laughin at them.... jane and liting was squeezing their arms around... measuring their fats level.. hah... i wanted to buy some clock for my room.. but looking at the crowds and the supa-long-devilish queues... forget it..
went to downtown east for some BBQ... and i forgot how to go there.. cos im not their regular and im not chalet typed person... its organized by the roti-boy girls.. boy have they changed alot... they've grown horizontally... must be living with luxury now.. catching up with them and shared with our school and stuff... quite fun.. i dont mind having an outing again =D
and now... supposingly having some meeting for the concert.. and i didn go cos i was reluctant to... i didn really want to perform.. cos im not fully prepared and the duet thingy is not confirmed yet.. im super worried now..
later having practice.. and its about acting some skit... the hand outs that they gave was so huge ! i cant finish reading it sooner... and their usage of english vocab was so powderful! sigh....
and now.. the comics website is down... wondered why it always happen... sigh.. guess it was meant for me to read the hand outs... ya.. have to....
tata peeps..
confusion stage
Friday, April 13, 2007
Pride of tomorrow
Just come to fond of this song... 'Pride of Tomorrow' that you are listening now... its from an anime DGray-man.... its basically about exorcist annihilating 'akuma' (demons in jap.... )
sadly... this wasnt the original key... original key was in C major... but cos of the size reduction the key is lowered down to B flat major.... C major sounded so much nicer and lively !!
anyway... yesterday didn get to practice... all the rooms were occupied and it was raining super super heavy.. thats why i reached school late... so played a little LOTR game with sihan.. though i didn really like playing lan games... but LOTR is fun...
the rain was raining heavy again... and the fequency of bus 131 was a killer... but i was enjoying my reading of 'the witch' to compensate it... the bus was crowded... and i had to miss my stop inorder to get down the bus easily... and singaporean are just so kiasu and always-in-the-rush... kan jiong which is.. then a teenage girl fell...
was doin daimokukai until 9 from 8... so most of our legs went numb after kneeling down and chanted earnestly.... for the students who will be having their exam... and for some who have finished theirs... like mine~ to achieve a good grades... my practical results went well... was shocked in fact... but disappointing... that i could have done it better.. and the other was that... THEY DIDN COMMENT ME !!!!!!!!!!!! THE PAPER WAS BLANK!!! B-L-A-N-K !!!!!!!! 0% of comments !!! i was wondering if their ink went out !!! omg !!!!! how can h*rtung do this to me !! why !??!?! why he always picked on meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....... T~T
anyway...... im gonna be busy again and again... like.. preparing for 29 april concert in ICA.. which i didn really wanted to initially... but oh well.... its for the happiness of 1000 people on that day...
next tuesday's study will be on 'Respecting towards People' though i'll be doin the skit.... i really need to study on that... its important in the society.....
oh man its gonna rain agian..... spoil my day of bladding....
enjoy.... the song which is~
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Cosi Fan Tutte
Well... cosi fan tutte, im not referring to the opera.. im literally mean it.. i just cant understand women/girls well... yesterday there's a minor misunderstanding between my mom.. sis and i .... mom wants to go parkway to fix her spects... she was asking my sis to go along.. while i wanted to since im goin to teach and why not tag along.. but my lazy sis.. just being herself... didn want to as she said she was totally tired and stuff.. after 1 student ?!?! come on... she can do better than that...
my mom... on the phone.. heard her complains.. so in the end my mom was fared up and said forget it.. like WTH !?!??! i didn say i dont want to gooooooooooooooo........ argh !!! i tried calling mom again and again.. she just hang up on me... sigh.... i was so pissed !! i scolded my sis for being a lazy bum and bla bla bla... like as if mom wasnt tired at all after long hours of work... while she just glue her butt onto the chair and watch some show.... i mean its like... have to show some respect abit right ?!?! sigh i dont know.. i just dont know women.. and they are like that.. cosi fan tutte..
i was glad that my friend improved alot from last week.. he's able to play all the scale without prob.. only the G# minor melodic and G minor contrimotion..... but im worried... no.. petrified about his sightreading... have to buck him up by make him play bunch of songs.. heh .... since our concert is coming soon.... 2 weeks!! duet......
meet up with John past 2 days.... my pri-school best friend... boy have he changed alot !!! so much slimmer.... but skin complextion still the same.. bad.... and now im taller than him whaha.... but sadly he smokes.. heavy.... same as seng poh.. thats what he told me.. they were so much innocent and obedient in pri school !!! but now... hmmmm.. anyway we went around peninsula plaza, trying to sell off his bass guitar... cool he knows music too!! just that its metallic rock and stuff.. he sold off his bass guitar for 250 where he bought it for 600+.. jia lat man...
we went to the cambridge language school to ask for infor about the teaching and stuff. 26 floor !!! freaking high!!!... John was trying to you know... guy stuff where he trying to be friendly with girls and stuff... tsk... Belinda, the one who attended to us... looked like a malay!! and i was shocked when she spoke chinese.. just that with ang mo accent.. so we were kidding around and stuff.. and finally i've made my decision.. heh heh...
i've registered for german class !!!!!!!
we went to esplanade to watch RGS string ensemble... the solo violinist is from our Singapore Young Talent school... very talented... young... and i remembered her when Nafa String played with them.. ya... talented. thats all i can say.. just then we saw this indian couple... infront of us... fooling around taking pics of themselves.. while the guy grab her... *ahem ahem*... as if holding a soccer ball... tsk.. where are their publicity ?!?! though john was watching free show...
anyway... we went to sit outside esplanade and catching up.. while he smokes again and again... i, as an audience.. suffered the most.. cos im smelling the leftover smokes while he takes in the better one... but its still bad... now im having sore throat...
i tried to make him quit... though its unsuccessful for the first time... i'll try...
been practicing new concerto and third movement of dittersdorf... boy were they difficult to the max !
oh ya.. sis bought few of Roald Dahl's book... i've completed 'Matilda'... very very very nice.... though its for smaller kids.. but inorder to make myself love reading.. i have to start from scratch... before i can read Sherlock Holmes.... now im reading 'charlie and Mr willy wonka' and ' the witches'... perhaps thats why i hardly use the com... its boring now for me...
sometimes i just really dont understand certain things... really... women...
dont worry... im not gynephobic... im just being dumb for unable to understand them... T~T
Saturday, April 07, 2007
So wot?!
Another boring yet 'learnt-something' day for me.. about Amway.. a company where networking is very essential.. i tell you... its interesting.. however i dont think i can do it.. maybe after school like perhaps..
their products are healthy... cost saving... and effectives... what really attracts me was the water filter.. the filtered water that i drank compared to the normal tap are soooooooo diff!! its so much lighter in the sense when the water flows down through your throat... wow.. really delicious... im serious...
but after all the listening and talking.. i was so tired and drained out.. i shall consider whether should i buy......
shared with cq in the bus about... bgrs... yeah.. after army...
went back to practice.. brought cq along too.. gosh.. didn practice for 2 days really depressing... cos whatever i've practice i could not play them.. or played out of tune.. bah... tomorrow's the rehearsal for PWB... so stressing!! heard that they are playing contemporary pieces !!! ahhhhhhhh... i hate them !! i never like it.. if i make mistakes.. gosspin will happen!! mark told me before what they said about me when i was in year 1.. wah very demoralising!!! but now.. not so bad cos i've made it into their permanent player.. and for that i must work harder...
sis bought a 2nd hand Roald Dahl's books!!! woot !! there's a book of charlie and mr willy wonka!!! yay... my favourite.. why?! cos its CHOCOLATE !!!!!
i shall devour them to my brain now!! tata~
yeah.. so wot?
Steamiboadic-phobia
Steamiboadic-phobia.... a new phobia that i've come out with.. basically its a phobia of steam boat!! imagine having steam boat for two consecutive days... not healthy food.. but full of bacons... beef... prawns... dumplings... with little vegetables... whoa.. scary.. now my mouth is filled with garlic smell...
actually that's ok.. but i've never ever seen such a disgustine customer !! i tell you.. a china lady... dumped her left overs.. (little bit.. uncooked) into the raw chicken meat !! i saw it clearly.. its like adding toppings ontop of an icecream... yucks... and i saw the prawn filers in the raw meat tray... gosh...
anyway... i ate little as well.. but was enjoying the 'dong fen' and some dumplings... i wonder why they call it 'dumplings'? is it cos its a dump!?!?! hmmm... i didn eat prawns as well... seeing the peeps eating the prawns really freaks me out! imagine 4-5 peeps eating 40-50 over prawns! sucking the brains out of it as well.. hah
didn practice for 2 days.. feeling uncomfortable... really.. im addicted to practice.. i love the concerto that im working now.. very fun to play with.. i just cant wait to master few techniques... and able to play tons of notes and stuff... i just cant wait... to learn german as well.. heh
been reading jap comics with english translation... many of them... romance (between students age.. over 20+), sports, adventures, food!, guns and stuff... really stick into them.. especially romance... i even feel pitiful... angry for one party where the other hurts them by havin 'adultering'.... its crazy that i'll feel pissed for it... and its partly of this thats why i was quite in bad mood... goodness!!!!!!!!!!!!
and because of the leisure of reading comics... i've start to pick up reading books!! wow... initially i dont even read... dont mention about novels... or textbook! i only read science encyclopedia... where there are tons of illustrations.. i only love to read books with tons of pictures... comics... nah... dont like them... but now its for the sake of reading.. and killing time..
however.. reading them enhances my brain cells to think harder... of what the 'hell' they are talking about ... oh ya.. speaking of book.. i've just read Sherlock Holmes... it's super fantastic... his intelligence was sooooooooooooo high! and his prediction was zhun zhun!! however.. heh heh.. there's a case whereby this client of his... suspect that his wife is having an affair with her neighbour.. or having some 'activities'... but there's isnt any man.. so couldn be an affair.. but i felt anger for this client... but its pointless.. its totally one-sided view..
his predictions were that his wife's husband was still alive.. and found her and her whereabouts.. and stayed near her house.. blackmailing her that he will spread the news of her current husband(the client)... and blablablabla....
but mine was that the child is still alive.. and the lady whom the client saw was the guardient or so... then the hundred pounds was to pay for the guardient who looked after her child.....
therefore... i was right.. muahahahaha.... except for the hundred pounds.... which was suppose to pay for the nursing fees where her child got some illness... forgotten what was it..
anyway... im just being bored...
before teaching... i was praying/chanting hard that these thoughts of mine will vanish... its crazy.. it must be the comics who agitated me!! ahhhh..... i hate it.......
my friend/student improved his scales... woot.. wonderful... and his playing style was so similar to mine when i was younger.. where my teacher always wack my hand to raise it up.. and bla bla bla... so i used my left arm as a template where his hands must raise and stuff... his mother is so cute... keep offering me drinks... and food... last week was Beef ramien.. my favourite !! taiwan style... yummy... and tonight was sushi.. i taught my friend and his bro the correct way of eating sushi.. to bring out the meat taste.. where you invert it and place the meat on your tongue first.... it'll be more spicy if you dipped it with wasabi.. the lesson was about 2 hours without noticing it.. .and i charge the price for 1 hour... it doesn matter if i teach more than 1 hour.. as long he gets it correct im contended..
i was also praying hard that the upcoming friendship concert on 29 Aprill will be a successful one... its very hard to play duet with someone who's sight-reading was... hmmm.. anyway he's my student.. i shall train him.. this concert will depend on my teaching.. and my planing of repertoire.. its very tough..
i have start to have a fond of practicing.. and not watching anime or goin out.. its boring for me... gosh!! its weird.. im goin to be lifeless soon.. where i dont watch tv.. play games.. or shopping.. only practice... practice... practice... and roller bladding.. and reading... sigh... is this the right way of living ?!
im lost..
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Being dumb and dumber...
As usual.. results are being delayed again... the office need to check Hart*ng's comments before returning to us.. might be harsh perhaps.. saw few happy faces of the peeps... some got A... high B and stuff... while some didn achieved what they wanted... for me...... as usual.. disappointed and disappointment... im too depressed to have an outing or have some bball games until all the results are out.. why cant they just understand it?
its also depressing when i cant put my thoughts in words... i really hate it.. i depise it.. myself which is... my dream was to 'spread a little happiness'.. until now i have yet spread some of it... cheering ppl up is what i always wnated to do.. yet i cant do it... im trying hard...
probably lost some weight again.. didn have good meals ever since the final exam... im not sad of their comments.. but myself.. my right hand especially.... the 'always-tensed' one... as my right arm will be in pilot mode and tightened itself when im thinking for my left... bah... drats....
so.... i've tried spending 3 hours tonight just to play long notes.... and the first movement of the dragonetti's student concerto completly... kinda happy.. but still not enough..
is it true that peeps with brain rocks?!
now.. whats wrong with me ?! this is just vague!
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
the day...
Practical results will be out soon... darn.. so envious of some who got 95..... wow... anyway.. being envious doesn help anything... just work hard as usual... being using this phrase for million times... and yet nth shows... dont wanna talk about it.. its depressing..
For the past few days... i'll agitate easily.. and that's kinda horrible to some ppl who happened to be my victim... unless they really agitate me... perhaps thats the reason i didn want to have an outing for the moment.. until the overall results are release.. maybe i should really relax.. and do my own stuff...
teacher xu cant teach me over the holidays... thats sad... but hopefully i can have lesson in his house instead... that'd be goooood....
been running in ECP for past few days... feeling better and better... though my poor legs are suffering for the sake of myself's happiness....
i just cant blend in !!!
