Friday, September 22, 2006
What should i do ?
Its 3 days more to exam... im feeling Sh!t now.. sigh... 3 essays half done... ok SHHHHHH enough
Today's ps is better.. but i still feel im playing worst... due to my right hand.. as my right hand will always be 'auto piloting'... if you know what i mean... the holding position will always change.. was so afraid that he will get angry.. cos ma sai's lesson is making him mad... but ma sai's talented... his pieces is madness yet musically beautiful...
he asked me if i ever thought of goin overseas to further study music and my playing has been improving week by week.. but i dont believe it.. its getting worst to worst.. perhaps my expectation is high for myself... i'll hate myself if i cant do it..
what i hate most is gossiping stuff like.. you know.. BGR thingy... dont assume what you seen... but yet we've judge you what we have seen... sounds contradicting.. but im referring to two different things...
what pisses me when you broke someone's heart cos of a bullshitting reason... at first we thought its true.. but until i personally sees it... i didn expect to see that... you hurt my good friend... and he doesn know anything...
there's two way we can see it... happy and angry...
still... i cant bother too much... its not my business.. but im worried for my poor friend... still waiting... it hurts to wait for long and yet.....
for now... i want to be by myself...
just myself...
