Saturday, October 20, 2007
Farewell my teacher...
Just had a recording for SSA's new album... the initial piece was unsuccessful... as im not familar with jazz style... im so clueless and hopeless.. wasted everyone's time... damn it.. so now we'll be having another session again comin tues.... then again... we had recorded for the next piece which is very last min for me.. Tricia have this idea of adding me into her other piece.. which only have voice and piano at first... now there's additional music played by me in the background.. which sounds totally like crap !! arghhhhhh....... i cant produce the texture which i always wanted: a warm and round sound rather than straight forward and dead sound.. blame it on my right hand... so stiff and retarddddd.....
Teacher Xu wont be teaching me anymore... as he've left SS0... due to some politics issues which pisses him off.... damn it.. politics everywhere... thus, lossing one of their best players... he'll be leaving end of this sem... and its very difficult for me to accept it.. after all the 3 years of learning under him.. he knows me best compared to other ppl... my tons of flaws and everything... and he tried to change my flaws... which until now i still cant change it... however its thanks to him that i've come to like my instrument... and able to make good use of the talent... i sincerely thank him.... i was hoping to continue to learn under him after i graduate and during army daze before goin overseas to further study..... im still very very unprepared and not ready which i'll need him very much.. but now its gone... i'll have to learn and adapt new style from other teachers..
its very sad... but life goes on as they says... i just hope there'll be another teacher who'll be like him...
farewell teacher....thank you for your guidance.....
