Monday, November 26, 2007
Some times im tired of life... until now.. no one seems to understand... but i'll still persever...
Friday, November 23, 2007
Smell of freedom
Today marks the day of exam-free! school's exam are over... and i dont know how i do.... hopefully will pass...... today had ATCL piano exam.... im feeling very disappointed...... freakin air-conditional... so cold which stiffen my fingerss...... darn it..... im so depressed now..
very tired to blog after all the playin in the com lab.... shall continue tomorrow
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
愛情路
Its been awhile since my last entry.... anyway.... very worried and stress about dbass and piano exam.. sigh... dont know what to say... watched few BA student's recital exam..... really inspiring and encouraging...... WHOA...... =(
Very excited about chingay now.... in roller blading group.... finally !! after many confusions... sigh...
right..... tomorrow is my conducting exam.... hopefully there wont have any bias or something...
anyway..... LT's early celebration was fun..... BOWLING !!! whaha..... lets bowl again shall we ?!?!?! hur hur hur !! and blading !!!
Sports day at sentosa.. tele-match
3rd in telematch !!! (incomplete team)
C.b and i....
Heh heh...
Bo chap.~~~
eh... eh....
Peekaboooo!!
Bday girl Liting!!
Jane and i ! must be tired.. =p
Very windy~~
Thursday, November 08, 2007
So many problems in school now...... finding a teacher..... a good one especially..... i knew that he's a good teacher..........
im very sick and f.tired of helping such ungrateful ppl who only complains about other ppl who tries to help them with their best........ spending sometime to help them....... even though with some mistakes....... im tired of helpin them....
Friday, November 02, 2007
Im really feeling lost now...... always got caught in the middle.... of everything....
at least 3 modules assignments are done......... left 2 more..... one tomorrow and one in next week...
i really hate myself now..... i cant do anything for the better......
Thursday, November 01, 2007
Im too tired to think about anything....
Im feeling very down now.... just received a msg from my teacher that he wont be teaching me for the last lesson... and i was totally upset.. cos i wanted to play a song for him as a farewell piece.... time flies very fast... i remembered the time when he called me for audition to nafa as bassist.... and the day when we ate ramen together... and listened to stories about basses...
now... just a msg.... he has left.... im very upset.....
other than that..... i've too many things to upset about....
for chingay.. i'll be placed as reserve cos of my commitment.... every wed night i'lll be having rehearsals.. WHICH I DIDN REALLY WANT TO CLASH!! im feeling so FRUSTRATED !!!! i was looking forward to participate so much..... im pissed with them !!! i really am.... which leads me to help them reluctantly in the future !!!
thats one..
next is that my composition.... i've really put alot of my heart into it.... cos its what im feeling for past few weeks... and i've my best by composing only using 5 NOTES...... just 5.... pentatonic scale.. but it really seems hard to perform it.... im really trying to accomodate everyone so that they can play them even without much practice as everyone is superb busy playing for one another's piece... i understand...
thats two..
ATCL piano is on 22 nov.. and dbass exam is on 21 nov.... how great!!!.... im juggling two things at a time... and i dont wanna fail both of them..... cos i've been putting alot alot of efford for pass everyone of them.... ATCL fees is FUCKING MADNESS.... 700++.... just to get a piece of cert....... if i fail dbass exam.... i have to retain... and have to spend 2000+ for another year again.. i dont wanna feed the stupid school with money again... and get ill treated by FUCKIN vODK@ H@RTUNG..... he's the most motherfucking piece of shit i've ever encounter in my life !!! he deserves to be condemned.. and i have my limits of the ill treatment that he gave me.... and i tried to fit his standard WHICH IT'LL TAKE ME abt 10 YEARS for that ?
thats three..
i dont feel like doin my work now.... even though tomorrow is the submission... im gonna break down soon...
i actually felt like suiciding? which is madness...
its just two more days, why cant you wait? why cant you understand the situation that im undergoin? its drivin me crazy to the core!!!.. i cant abandon my academics after how much efford i've been putting since 2 years ago... pls understand... its not like i want for last min changes?
