Wednesday, November 16, 2005
What if.....
Reached home around...... 11 plus....... practice whole night....... and tomorrow is the DAY !!!!!!!! torturious day...... my scales...... i think really cannot make it....... sometime i really hate Richard for givin me dbass as my major...... its like....... my dbass is totally ungraded !!!!! and yet he put it as my major...... my piano.... being studied for years already..... but its put to an end..... i wont give up all the 11 years... and my dbass studies..... the 1st piece.... not so bad,.... but the 2nd, its deproving.... im really worried.... sooo worried....... my history already cant make it..... weikang and jwen told me that Dr Kan told them they've passed...... and i knew at that moment..... i will definitely fail..... im really hopeless... i dont think i can cope at all...... even though i copied every notes in class.. but nth comes into my head...... really disappointed... and often felt left out...
few days back..... i kept thinking that..... what if...... i study in another school...... really have lots of thoughts...... negative one...... and almost givin up....... but... think about it...... just for that and give up??? come on man.... get a life !!... and i have a nostalgic thoughts back when SSA havin YCF.... all my gymnas friends..... they facing more difficulties than me..... and yet im still complaining.... oh well.. guess i have to change my ways of thinking...... and ever since i've joined YCF gymnas, i finally understood what is hardship.... back then... the theme for YCF is... change impossible into possible... and its true enough that we manage to accomplish that.... its very touching........
tomorrow is exam..... and i must do it...... but for the scales...... i really prefer playin piano...... really.... fri is the day when results are out..... i dont wanna see..... and i dont wanna know......
what if...
