Friday, December 22, 2006
Upset....
Its very very upset for me when you tried your best to show anyone your best lets say in work, music, activities or etc.... and they arent interested or showing any appreciation...
it really drives me crazy.... its really sad for me... i feel very upset now...
i have the urge to give up... but i cant... i dont wanna disappoint my family... but saddest thing is that they arent interested whatever you are doin... that really sucked....
im really disappointed at my sis... other than showing no interest... she just gives excuses... like very tired here and there... ya.. tired after eating...
not just her... i mean other... in music... everyone have been asking me what happen to masai here and there... LIKE I KNOW ?!?!?! HOW THE HELL WOULD I KNOW ?!?!?! im not him firstly... and secondly.. im here to study MUSIC !! not to study PEOPLE MANAGEMENT !!! or handling craps like him !!!
im really really upset... i really hate myself... im lost of words...
i tried my best doin Emcee for Soka kenshu... and they show no appreciation to my 'hardwork'... i was busy with PAYCO for the competition.. and just like that.... 3rd.... and before that they were great.... really great... but when things happen like being complacent... you wont stand a chance winning...
they make so much noise like laughin at the emcee for announcing wrong names for wrong prices.. and next they cried after hearing the results... serves you right.. i hate this kind of ppl.. pls behave... dont be spoilt..
im really tired of helping ppl... i dont expect anything in return.. in facvt i dont want anything... other than showin your appreciation.. which is the most priceless thing you will ever get in life... i have been playing for ppl for FREE.... spending my own money for cab to transport my gigantic 'violin'...
im really tired... super tired...
